Jungkook

I'm not sure why I just ran out of the place like that, but I can stop running. I can't stop my legs from bolting in the direction of my apartment down the street. I can't stop my phone from almost falling out of my pocket as I flash my way into the safety of my home.

When I close the door of my apartment, I lean against it and pant until I finally start breathing normally. I wish I could just burn my memories and forget the day I met Yoongi. Maybe if I close my eyes tight enough, he'll fade away.

But the problem is.. I don't want him to fade away. I don't want to wish I had never left my apartment that day to see the cute little guy sitting in front of his door with a pout. I don't want to wish away the first time he let out sarcastic remarks to me. He's unlike anyone I've ever really met.

He's not like the girls I would use merely for sexual desires and he doesn't even realize how badly I want to spend time with him just to hear his voice and see him stuttering cutely. No girl gives me the feelings that he does, and I didn't realize it all until I knew he was gay.

It's stupid of me to not realize right away, but I can be dense sometimes. But when all of those people were laughing at me because I thought Yoon was straight, I couldn't help myself but to think..

What's my sexuality?

  I panicked once that thought crossed my mind. Yoongi had changed me in ways that he didn't even know. And to top it all off, he literally hates me. I could try anything in the world, I could cure diseases and donate to adoption centers and buy him millions of puppies and for some reason, he won't even attempt to like me. He never will.

  Why can't you like me the same way I like you, Min Yoongi?

  What- no! Ugh. I pull my hair for the tenth time in the past twenty minutes as I sit on the floor in front of my door. Why do I keep thinking these things? Is it because I haven't had sex with a girl in a while? Maybe that would change my mind.

  No it wouldn't.

  I'm going to try that.

  It won't work.

  Damnit! I pick up my phone and call one of the caller ID numbers, I didn't know which girl it was but it was at least someone.

  Not Yoongi.

  "Hey bab~"

  "Get over here." I said coldly and hung up the phone. The voice sounded like that May girl, or maybe it was Veronica but I don't care. I just need some girl to get over here and change my mind. My mind is deceiving me, obviously.

  Or maybe I'm actually attracted to Yoon..

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Yoongi

  I was about to walk inside my apartment when I heard moans coming from the direction of Jungkook's apartment. It's been so long since I've heard those uncalled for noises, and it makes my frown drop even further as I hear the woman screaming.

  I stopped myself from putting the key into the doorknob as I listen to the sounds of hell. Why am I torturing myself? Why does my heart kind of hurt right now? How long has it been since Jungkook brought a girl home?

  Since the day he first came into my house.

  It's been that long, so why suddenly bring a girl home? I sigh as turn around, deciding that staying here and listening to this shit was only going to bring my mood down. Suddenly, the moaning stopped. I turn back around and a moment later, the door flies open and a girl with brown hair begins running out with her hair in a mess and Jungkook running after her.

  "Who the fuck does that, Jungkook?" She said and then turned around to smack him harshly.

  It took both Jungkook and I by surprise, but the girl turned back and ran down the stairs instead of using the elevator. I looked at Jungkook as he rubbed his cheek. He punched his door hard and screamed "Fuck!"

  He looked over at me and his jaw clenched. "God damnit." He mumbled and then slammed his door shut. I stood there in shock for a moment. Then, without another word, I finally put my key in the door and walked in with my heart still racing.

  What happened?

  "The fuck was that?" Jin asked as I walked in. I shrugged my shoulders as I looked at Jin who was bringing his ear away from the wall, causing me to finally smile once again.

  "You're still quite the drama lover, huh?" I asked him. He rolled his eyes and shook me.

  "What exactly happened? I thought you were with Jungkook, how did he end up home with a girl screaming his name?" Jin questioned me.

  I shrugged once again and sighed. "He ran out of the coffee shop because I wouldn't tell him who my first love was." I said. It sounded dumber than I planned it to be, but it's pretty much what happened though.

  "Why didn't you tell him?" Jin sat on the couch and paused the movie he had on.

"Because it's personal," I said as I sat next to Jin. "Besides, He said so himself that we aren't friends and that he shouldn't have asked me in the first place before he ran off."

"He what?" Jin said as he opened his mouth and looked at me with wide eyes. "Yoongi, you idiot! No wonder why he left you there."

"What did I do?" I asked as Jin hit my head.

"You might as well hang up the possibility of friendship, now." He said as he laid back. He pressed play on the movie and turned his attention to it as I sat there.

But I didn't even say anything to him..?

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A little peek into JK's mind 🥂

Also, Yoongi is lowkey making me mad because junglebook just wants to be friends 🥺
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