I hadn't slept in a week (I was weak I was awake) because of the whole embarrassing myself infront of Noah thing. Is this what boys do to you?

"I miss being single" I groaned as Peggy shook me awake. She stopped and sat on me as I struggled to get up. She wasn't heavy or anything I was just weak af. I was on my stomach face down on the bed trying desperately to get up. My legs were in the air and Peggy was leaning on them as she sat criss-cross on my back facing my head.

"You see Isa," she paused as if she was trying to remember something far away. "YOU are single. OLIVIA isn't. Plus I'm single and it's not that fun!" She finished.

I always thought about having a boyfriend. I fantasized (at night it's Alexander's eyes. I NEED to stop) about sitting on the floor while he braided my hair and watched Disney movies. I know now that is stupid and so unlikely. Having a boyfriend is just so stressful.

I've come to a whole new understanding of the word 'complicated'. I used to gag at the girls who would use that excuse; 'oh it's complicated'.
They.
Have.
No.
Idea.

"Pegs it doesn't matter if it's me or Olivia that has a boyfriend. It's still me."

She stopped to ponder this... still on my back probably causing future health problems. "Did you like, even make it official?" This caught me off guard. I thought about it for a second.
She had a point. I guess I just thought because we went on a date and kissed, that would automatically mean we were a thing.

I wasn't stupid. I read books and watched movies. I would NOT be the girl who asks 'what are we?'. That's a no no even for me. But how would I find out where I stand.

OH MY GOD
I'VE BECOME ONE OF THOSE OVER DRAMATIC GIRLS THAT OVER THINK BOYS!!

I shoved Peggy off me and she started to fall. She grabbed my long blonde hair as a last resort and almost pulled it off my scalp. I tumbled off the ground onto of her and then didn't move. "PAYBACK!!!" I screamed as I moved to sit ontop of her.

We were screaming and giggling so much it was hard to breath. Finally we both retreated and rolled away laying on our backs on the floor trying to catch our breaths.

Peggy's face was a burning red. I thought nothing of it because my face was burning too because we were out of breath and I probably knocked the wind out of her when I fell. I quickly snapped a picture of her in mid cough and laughed even harder. Her face in the picture was distorted and stretched and read because she kept coughing.

I am so lucky to have someone like her as my best friend.

(A/N: so it's winter break. I think I mentioned it before but yeah. Mostly bc I'm lazy and don't wanna write a school chapter.)

We were still rolling on the floor laughing when Peggy's door opened. Her sister walked in. She was a year younger than us and was VERY sassy. Kaitlyn Eaker was a dirty blonde. Her eyes were a lighter brown than Peggy's and her hair went down to her mid chest. She was stubborn, funny, and was OBSESSED with musicals. Especially heathers and Hamilton.

She looked exasperated but still a cinnamon roll. she was wearing a Yankee sweatshirt. "Can you Guys not be so loud? Your giggling is nonstop!" She smirked at her joke. I smiled because I was actually into Hamilton too. Peggy seemed unfazed. I chimed in, "we could quiet down," I turned my head to look at Kaitlyn, "would that be enough?" I asked smirking

A wide smiled speed across Kaitlyn's face and she finished with "ok but if you are loud I'm gonna come back" she turned to walk out the door then Peggy yelled "YOU'LL BE BACK THEN"

Me and Kaitlyn broke out laughing and Peggy day there confused.

-Time slip bought to you by my last ass-

Peggy and I migrated to my room and were planning on sleeping there.

"So... happy Christmas Eve!" She said to fill the comfortable silence.

"Oh yeah I forgot." I said staring out the window. We payed on my bed for a while. The clock read 11:55 pm and me and Peggy wanted to stay up. I had her gift under the bed to give to her tomorrow morning. Will she like it? I asked myself.

I was so concentrated on my thoughts I didn't hear Peggy snoring. I smirked knowing what to do. I slowly pulled the covers off her and made sure she was on her stomach. The small timer for 11:59 rang so that we could count down.

Peggy shot up hitting her head on the book I held over her knowing she would shoot up. She rubbed her head and shot me a death glare. I smiled really wide and we pulled up a second click so we could count down.
10
We made eye contact
9
"Isa, I have to tell you something"
8
"Yeah what's up?"
7
She looked guilty
6
"I don't know what I was expecting you to do but-
5
There's a reason I said no to all those boys."
4
I looked at her curiously
3
"I'm gay..."
2
I didn't know what to do. Did she expect me to yell at her? I did the only thing I thought of.
"Yeah I'm bi" I said guiltily"
1
She hugged me so tight I thought she cracked a rib. I thought I heard her crying and pulled away.
"Whats wrong?!" I asked her

She sniffled and looked at me, "I thought you would hate me" I honestly felt hurt that she would think that.

"Pegs you know that I'll support you no matter what!! What kinda person would I be if I hated you for being yourself?"

She gave me a weak smile and whispered, "marry Christmas" and then lied down and threw the book across the room.

I turned so my back was facing her. Peggy is my best friend. Of course I would support her!! Then a thought crossed my mind. Did Peggy like me? I immediately pushed the thought away.

She would totally tell me if she did. Plus I can't be so self absorbed to think that everybody likes me. Plus I liked Noah.

What if Peggy does end up liking me?? I wouldn't know what to do. I really didn't want to break her heart. She was my best friend and I don't like her that way. I like Noah that way. Yeah Noah.

I smiled at the thought of Noah's lips on mine. My eyes closed and I smiled into my pillow.

High school. A place where you find your interests, your friends, and yourself. It's where you become what you want to be.

I thought of how it wasn't me kissing Noah. It was Olivia. Crop tops, blonde, lipgloss. Peggy was right! It wasn't me kissing Noah. The question I have to ask myself is, do I want to be Olivia? Is that my goal, to end up like a bbb? Is this who I am now.

Ok y'all! This chapter was truly all over the place and not my best work. I'm sorry but thanks for reading to those who do!!

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