I'm driving home now. I try to think of things I can do when I get home. I can't think of any. I don't have any good friends besides Tori but she's in Florida. "Hmmmmm" I think. Maybe I'll go to the park. Before I knew it I was home. I went up to my room and flopped on my bed. "I'm tired" I said quietly.

Suddenly I hear a knock at my door and hear my dad say "Hi Rikki! How was school?"

I open the door to let him in and reply "Fine" I say.

"That's good" He says relieved. "Do you need to do homework?"

"No. I'm glad we didn't. But dad I'm tired"

"Ok. I'll leave so you can take a nap" He said nicely "I'm ordering pizza do you want bacon?"

"Yes please!" I say excitedly. I lay on my bed go on my phone to set an alarm. It is 3:12 so I set my alarm for 5:00. I still want to go to the park. I havn't been there since 8th grade. "It must look different" I think and then I drift off to sleep.

~MAGICAL TIME SKIP~

Beep beep beep beep beep beep b-

I hear my alarm and I slap the snooze button. I getup and go to look in the mirror. My hair is kinda curly because it was in a bun all day. I don't like how it looks so I put it back into a messy bun and grab a jacket. 

"I'll be back dad!" I yell so he won't be worried.

"Ok" He answers "Where are you going?"

"The park" I walk out the door and start walking. The weather is nice and warm. There is a little breeze but it feels nice considering I live in California. I enjoy the walk and the scenery. I stop on one street and just look it. This is the road my mom was hit on. When she was hit she flew into a tree and hit her head. The doctor said she probably would have lived if the tree wasn't there. I walk up slowly to the tree and stare at it. I feel my eyes water up. A tear drips down my face and I punch the tree.

"God damn you! You killed my mother!" I hit the tree again "Why did you do that!" I punch it again and I feel my knees become weak. I start to cry holding on to the tree.

"Mommy. Come back please" I know nobody won't answer. Deep down I feel silly for yelling at a tree but most of me didn't care.

I get back up and wipe my face and start heading to the park again. When I get there examine it. It doesn't look much different except a little older. I sit on the old swing and it squeeks. There are only two. Me and Noah used to love these swings. That was our favorite part of the park. I swing a little but not too high. I was kinda afraid it might break. It probably won't but I'm just trying to be on the safe side. Suddenly I hear footsteps. I thought it was probably a little kid or an animal. But then somebody says something.

"I didn't know you still came here" A guy says. It was Noah. I didn't know what to do. I try to stop the swing so I can walk away.

"Did I ruin your fun or something?" He says awkwardly. I'm trying not to respond or even look at him.

"You gonna say something?"

I can't hold it in anymore. I turn around and say "You don't talk to me in 3 years and then you come up to me in the middle of lunch and tried to do whatever you were going to do!" I'm yelling now "Why did you even shut me out?! I know I'm know im not much to look at but come on! We were best friends! You broke me you know that?!" I turn away to talk away but he grabs my arm like he did earlier. He turns me around and kisses me. "WHAT?!" I think to myself. I start to kiss back. He puts his arms around my waist and brings me closer. I put my arms around his neck. How is this happening? WHY is this happening? I think of what Lexi said. What if she see's this?! What is he tells her?! I think about that and I pull away. I am catching my breath and I try to get words out.

"What was that for?!" I say trying to sound angry but I'm really happy he did that.

"Don't just blame me!" He said protesting "You kissed back!"

I did. What do I say to that? "Well that's because... Because..." I can't think of anything to say.

"I'm sorry" He apologizes.

I can't stop worrying about Lexi. "Leave me alone" I say sadly. I feel tears spring to my eyes. I turn around and run away. When I get home I run to my room and say "Did that just happen?"

I hear a knock at the door and dad says "Welcome back! Are you going to eat?"

I don't want to open the door but I yell "I'll eat in a minute,"

"Do you want me to get it for you?" He says nicely

"Yes please," I reply.

A few minutes later I hear him knock and then come in with a plate with bacon pizza on it.

"Yummy!" I say trying to sound happy even though I was sad I just ran away from Noah after he... well you know.

"What's wrong?" He said conserned. Crap. He could see right through my lie.

"Nothing" I say knowing he would get it out of me anyway.

"Come on do I have to force it out of you?" He asked

"No" I say with no confidence what so ever.

"Then tell me" He says.

"When I went to the park... I was on the swing and somebody came up behind me... It was Noah. He tried talking to me as if he had talked to me five minutes ago when it has been three years"

"That's it? That's not that bad." He says relieved.

"That's not it. I got mad because he acted like he never left and I started yelling at him. I tried to walk away but he grabbed my arm and he... he kissed me.." I paused for a moment and then said "And I started to kiss back"

All he replied with was "Oh"

I continue. "I love him but so many people love him. I can't ever take him away from them. There is one girl who is a very close friend of his and she is in love with him. Everyone thinks they are in love and we all know she is and I bet he is in love with her too,"

Dad looked me in the eyes and said "If he's in love with that girl why did he kiss you?"