Kyungsoo waited for his boyfriend to get home, today is the day. He has to finally talk about what is bothering him with his boyfriend. He can't keep it a secret forever and Jongin is worried about him.

Kyungsoo couldn't stop walking around but after an eternity he heard the door.

Jongin entered the house and almost flew on his boyfriend happily.

"I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE FUCKING JOB." Jongin hugged

Kyungsoo doesn't know if it was because of the sudden hug, Jongin's perfume or even the news Jongin brought but Kyungsoo couldn't only push his boyfriend with all his strength and run to the toilet and vomit.

Kai was confused and ran after his boyfriend and just stayed there thinking a million things while rubbing Kyungsoo's back and reassuring him that everything is alright.

He can't handle seeing Kyungsoo under any pain or discomfort so he was very concerned.

He heard kyungsoo throwing up once and when he questioned about it kyungsoo just said they tried something new at the restaurant and it made his stomach upset.

But now he is having a million thoughts.

"Come here let's brush your teeth and I'll get you something to calm your stomach." Jongin said softly.

Kyungsoo was trying hard to hold his tears, just like when he was a kid and his parents couldn't make it on time for his school events and he would tell his parents that it's fine. He would hold his tears and act like he didn't care in front of his grandparents but cry his eyes out at night.

Ever since he started dating Jongin he feels free to cry whenever he feels like, laugh whenever he wanted and not laugh when he didn't feel like it. In front of Kai he didn't have to smile, he didn't have to say "it's fine" when it wasn't and he wanted to explode.

All this is true but not today. Today he has to pretend that he is not about to explode, today he has to pretend that deep down he didn't wish that Jongin didn't get the job. Today he has to be a good boyfriend and congratulate his boyfriend.

He obediently brushed his teeth.

"I... I made dinner, something special." Kyungsoo said shaking.

"Soo, known lay down a bit and I'll order you some porridge. We can have the dinner tomorrow." Jongin smiled and picked up his boyfriend and took him to the bedroom.

Jongin took a deep breath after leaving kyungsoo laying down on their bed.

He quickly ordered the porridge to pick it up and kissed his boyfriend who made an odd face.

"I'm going to put the food in the fridge." Jongin left the room and put the food away.

Whenever kyungsoo feels Ill, Jongin tries his best to stay next tohis boyfriend as much as possible. But now it's different, he feels like both of them need time.

A couple of days ago Jongin mentioned his boyfriend weird behaviour to Sehun when he went to his workplace one day and Sehun said. "Well... I think he is pregnant.". Jongin told him to shut up. What does Sehun know.

Jongin put his shoes back on and left the house.

As for Kyungsoo, as soon as he heard the door he busted into tears.

He doesn't want to fuck Kai's future up. However adulting brings not so simple decisions to make.

A couple of minutes later Jongin comes back with the porridge. He served a little bit of the porridge and went to the bathroom to feed kyungsoo.

He could eat on his own but Kai loves to feed him when he is not feeling well.

After eating it all Kai didn't say a word for a long time.

"I don't know how to bring this up but is it possible... I mean... I well... I bought some... pregnancy tests..." he doesn't want to scare Kyungsoo with the possibility of him being pregnant.

Kyungsoo again burst into tears and Jongin could only hug him.

"I'm sorry!" Kyungsoo cried "I didn't do it on purpose."

Jongin pulled Kyungsoo even closer almost trying to get his boyfriend inside his body to protect him.

"I know you didn't." Jongin didn't know exactly what Kyungsoo didn't do on purpose but if he said he didn't it means he didn't "But you gotta talk to me because I'm worried sick about you my Angel."

Many people would disagree with Jongin  about his boyfriend being an Angel but jongin is 1005% sure that one day kyungsoo descended from the sky to bless the humanity with his presence.

"I'm pregnant." He cried even harder.

Those words made Jongin's world stop and suddenly start spinning too fast for him to handle.

Well he doesn't have words, he doesn't know what to say nor if he should say anything.

Kyungsoo's tears are not the happy tears he dream of. He always thought that one day Kyungsoo would ran to him, tears of joy running down his face and say "I'm pregnant" but Kyungsoo is very sad.

Jongin couldn't help but think that he did something wrong to make his boyfriend that sad, maybe he wasn't careful enough, maybe he hurt Kyungsoo's feelings... maybe... maybe...maybe...

A couple of minutes passed and Jongin was still not sure on what to say.

"Aren't you happy?" Stupid question but Jongin didn't know what else to say.

"I'm sorry." Kyungsoo only said sobbing.

Sorry? Why he is sorry? Sorry for not being happy? Sorry because he doesn't want the baby. Sorry? Why is he sorry.

"My Angel it's okay stop apologising. " Jongin said caressing Kyungsoo's head "How about I hug you tightly to sleep and we can talk about it tomorrow when you are feeling better?" He kissed Kyungsoo's head.

When Kyungsoo's world is out of control, spinning everywhere, he feels like it's never going to be better, but when Jongin hugs him tightly he feels better, even recharged so there's nothing he can do at the moment besides accepting Jongin's offer and get some sleep wrapped around his boyfriend's arms to get himself together.

Jongin couldn't sleep for most of the night just thinking about how ready to be a father he wasn't, honestly he doesn't know anybody who was ready to be a parent. This means that he has to work even harder not only for himself and Soo  but for their baby.

His parents will probably feel disappointed that he didn't focus more on achieving his dreams and had a baby.

He did work hard but there's only so much one can do when dating a whole meal like Kyungsoo. 

When his parents tell him that he messed up he won't be able to deny it because yes he wasn't careful enough, he won't be able to defend himself because well he is not a kid anymore and he knows better.

The next morning Kyungsoo woke up and didn't find Jongin next to him. What is he left and doesn't intend on coming back? Losing his boyfriend is his worst nightmare.

Suddenly the door opens and Jongin enters the room carrying a tray.

"Oh you are awake?!" Jongin smiled "I made breakfast."

"You made it?" Kyungsoo asked as his boyfriend doesn't really cook.

"I put it on the microwave and actually made the egg roll." Jongin smiled and placed the tray on Kyungsoo's lap "kiss kiss." A quick kiss landed on his lips.

"Thank you." Kyungsoo said and started to eat and at the same time feeding his boyfriend who was sitting next to him on the bed. "I'm sorry."

"Sorry?" Jongin asked.

"For getting pregnant and not saying anything." He looked down.

Don't apologise, it's not like you tied me up." Jongin said and thought for a second "well it's not like I didn't want to be tied up." Both laughed.

"But I know you and I feel like it will affect you." Kyungsoo said "I don't want that. "So I was thinking about..." it's not like he wanted it but if his boyfriend wasn't ready he couldn't force him "about..." he took a deep breath "not going foreword with it." He said.

Jongin opened his eyes wide. Those words were like a punch on his stomach. Of course he wanted the baby, he wanted to be a father so bad. He wanted with all his heart and honestly he didn't expect Kyungsoo the say those words.

"No matter what, I'll be there for you supporting you and loving you okay? because you are my Soo." Kissed Kyungsoo's cheek "but whatever you do, do it for yourself, nothing is more important than your well-being. Don't do anything for me because you know if you decide to have the baby I will be thrilled and it won't be a a problem, I'll just work harder at work and at home. And if you decide not to... we can try in the future once you feel prepared."

"Won't you hate me?" Kyungsoo asked tearing up.

"What kind of none sense are you talking about? I would never hate you." Jongin kissed his boyfriend's cheek "if there's anything I can do to help you make this decision please let me know." He smiled

Sometimes being an adult comes with difficult decisions.

"Honestly, do you 100% want the baby?" Kyungsoo wiped his tears "I don't want anything to be to heavy on you."

"I do." Jongin said "if not this one, the next one, whatever you decide I'm whiling."

"I want you to focus on your job." Kyungsoo said "I know you would be here for me at all times and neglecting work and your dreams."

"Bullshit, my dream already came true, belonging to you." Jongin said " Also my parents will nag me for sure but they will help us, I'm sure your parents would do it if you ask them."

Kyungsoo could ask his family for help but he doesn't really like to ask them for anything, he feels like as soon as he refuses to follow the career path they wanted he should show them that he made the right decision that's why he refuses to get money from his parents ever since he graduated and moved to his apartment.

Well Kyungsoo's parents don't feel like joining the armed forces was a must, it was a suggestion. Most parents want their kids to follow their footsteps right? They don't feel like Kyungsoo let them down or anything, they are not against it or anything, they supported his decision, so much so that they payed for everything related to cooking as well as his university studies. For them that's how you show support but for Kyungsoo he likes supportive words and advice just like Jongin does.

Well supportive words and advice are the only things he can really afford at the moment so he is glad that that's what his boyfriend likes.  Not that he is stingy, if you gonna call someone stingy call his sister who was the one in charge to pay for his food and other necessities to keep him alive, well she barely kept him alive according to him.

His family shared the experiences to send him to university and to keep him dancing. His parents payed for the tuition, his older sister for his dorm as she has her own family to feed, the other sister for food and  books while he payed for transportation, his pointe shoes  and everything that he needed related to dance. When one of them was particularly generous he would get some pocket money. They couldn't afford much more. Sometimes Jongin couldn't afford new ponte shoes as he needs a new one every week so he used to tag along when Sehun was going to buy new shoes and his kind friend would offer him to buy a couple of them as the best case scenario, the worst case scenario would be going to Sehun and ask him for one of his pairs for the week as the younger at goes through 3 pairs a week sometimes even five a week. But no matter what, after getting the shoes he would always do something nice for Sehun, it couldn't be anything major as Sehun hates when Jongin tries to pay him back for the shoes.

"You are the best you know?" Kyungsoo kissed his boyfriend.

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Hello Angel how are you? Did you guess what was happening with Soo?

Next chapter will be funnier oki?

Opinions on last scene? I'm not crying you are. So proud.

Your shelter by Chen