‘As expected, Kate got scolded.’

[ laughs ]

Knowing her mother— ‘well, from where I stand,’ — she was a bit of a skeptical woman, yeah. I wasn't the one who . . . was with her or brought her home. She took a cab from my place.

[ sniffles, coughs loudly ]

. . . I could feel the smoke getting to my lungs.  [ chuckles in between his coughs and wheezing ]  My fault. I can't bear to stop any further. Even right now, as I speak.

Oh, right.

Kate wants me to try. Again. Go to the Doctor's office, make an appointment and be there to open up. Even though I'm not even confident I can. I guess I could try. I could, I could, I. . could.

On other news. . , Taehyung. . came back to the precinct. His arms up. His phone out of his pockets. He told me this at the time I visited him. The police became rougher than they were before. He was. . . forced to stay in that one cell where . . you can't have any decent fucking food. . you can't slouch or lean against the wall. .

His situation became worse. And I plan on bailing him any time soon. I just have to earn for it. No way I'm asking my family for their money. I'm saving my friend on my own.

Jungkook is coming over. Today. Like I promised to show him around a few places in Seoul. Took his mother this long before trusting me with him.

I can understand.

Not like my mom would bother. . .

I'm not going to end this recording with some sad drama shitty line. Instead, I say. . .

I’m going to smoke ‘til I grow cold.

Oh, wait. That’s not a— . . good line. Oh, well.

But! I do think. . . this will be my last tape for a while. Not sure for how long, but. . yeah, I'm gonna take her advice and. . . go to your office, instead.

So. .

[ End of Tape ]

[ posted SEPTEMBER 26 2018 ]