RECORDING 20

As of now, ‘November 12th,’ I’m certain of it— I like. . .this girl you heard from the previous tape.

‘The only girl I lent the recorder to, actually,’

Funny how I used to think about Jisoo all the time; how I could help her with her dreams, be the good boyfriend she's always wanted me to be. . . but fate. . . is funnier, to be exact. . .

And, as much as I would want to tell Kate this, I don’t want to. For now. Not when I haven’t completely moved on from Jisoo. Not when. . .I’m still this negative lingerer who . . . can’t seem to find his way . . .

[clears throat]

Taehyung-ah. He was just telling me he wants to escape prison. He was planning on it; but as the right thing to do, like the friend I try to be for him, I rejected the idea.

But how he spat back saying I don’t know a thing of how he’s feeling being stuck in those four walls all day and night. . , I was taken aback. Then and there, I became as stiff as a stone.

After all, who was I to say what’s good and bad for him in that state. . ? I feel like I’d hurt his feelings if I discourage him more. So. . , I told him to think about the bigger picture. Leaving him with that for a change.

This time, letting him leave me first before I walked away; once he got back inside his cell.

Jungkookie, on the other hand, got back to his normal body weight. His face looked a little more cheerful and he was able to laugh so much while teasing me that day. That he wanted to save another recording. . . and. . this is Gguk.

‘Yah!’ That’s the first thing he said; as a diss for his hyung. Try harder, punk. 

‘Hyungie~ Remember you did this for me. I want to see the playground if it's still the same. Watch movies and go to those art galleries you keep telling me about where I can hang my paintings! Oh?’

‘Hyung promises.’ That was me.

‘And we get to have the same hair color at least once. Maybe then we’d look like twins.’

‘Yah, go easy on me.’

‘[Jungkook laughs slightly] Can’t wait to get out of here!’

Annyeong, Min Yoongi

[End of Tape]

[ posted SEPTEMBER 1 2018 ]

author's note: #HAPPYJKDAY
to our golden maknae,
jeon jungkook 💪✨