RECORDING 05

[sample music playing in the background; one of his drafts for his upcoming mixtape next year]

Let's see if my producer still won't comply with this tune; I'm positive this will suit me best.

'I feel like there's something missing, though. ., not sure.' [scratching sound from CD] 'Feels more like DJ-ing now.'

On other news, though, [yawns] it's October. And it's nearing Jung Jimin's birthday, or so I've been told when I delivered to the Jung's again. Kate was the one who told me. She's awfully very open to me, perhaps thinking I was that close to her brother that she could be. . .as close, too? This lie has to stop.

'How do I even do that?'

She doesn't precede my definition of a mourning family member. Not when she's out, talking to complete strangers about your university, thoughts or achievements.

Mmm. . . come to think of it, it was absolutely tiring. Having to carry out my guilt about Tae and Kookie and now, Kate. . .it's all honestly too much to handle.

I think I'm going to have to pause on this routine. . ., [swivel chair squeaking] I'll talk again once I figure this out. Hopefully in a few months?

Since I know I'm probably going to be busier than ever for finding the damn thing my producer wants without giving me a clue and I've got school and a shit ton of problems, I don't want to look back on when I replay these tapes. . .

[groaning while growing far away from microphone; sound of turning off the machine]

[End of Tape]

[ posted JULY 31 2018 ]