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Yoongi took a long, deep breath; her hands crawling on to his arm, pulling them towards her. "Hey, you've got this. I'm going to wait for you right here." Kate reassured him, kissing his cheek, hoping it gets rid at least a bit of fear.

However, Yoongi was still hesitating to merely signing up his name on the list to see his doctor in person. So, Kate was giving him a push to go through with this.

"What if I can't handle the way he looks at me with so much judgement?"

"It's now or never. Besides, I'm sure he's a nice person." Yoongi signed his name up, receiving instructions to proceed to the front of his office. They skipped classes for the day for this; Yoongi had never felt so much pressure all in one day. His legs won't stop shivering, his voice was trembling and the way he was gripping on too tight on her hands were almost more than enough to make her want to take him out of the building.

"Yoongi, this is for your own good, eo? Do it for you." Kate leaned in towards his mouth and almost teared up when she realized, "Y–You didn't smoke?"

"Yeah. . ," Yoongi shrugged, "I wanted to try quitting seriously. Plus, if I'm meeting the guy, I want him to actually know I'm. . . progressing a little bit."

"Mr. Min Yoongi."

He got up and gently opened the door to his office, sitting down in front of the man behind the strings. The one he's been sending his voice messages to. The sole listener of those tapes.

"Hello, Yoongi."

His voice sounded a lot different than he thought it would be.

"H–Hi,"

"How have you been? Your last tape seemed more positive. Well, I wouldn't count smoking senselessly positive, but you were happier." Yoongi could hear him type on the keyboard as they were speaking right now. Typing something into the computer.

"Admittedly, I am. ."

"Yoongi, listen," he fixes his glasses and readjusted in his chair before telling the patient, "the next hour or so, I'm going to have to record our conversation and of course, I need your permission before I start the tape. Are you alright with that?"

This is for your own good.

"Y-Yes,"

"Okay. Let's begin with you and your smoking. Has it turned out to be some kind of. . . a stress reliever?"

"I tend to think it's necessary especially when I, uh. . get nervous."

"I'm assuming you took one before meeting me?" The doctor chuckled before him, trying to lift up the mood between the two of them. "You can tell me anything. This is a casual conversation, you can ask me yourself."

Yoongi nods back without saying a word. "Maybe in a bit. . but no, I didn't smoke."

"Oh? That sounds good. What made you stop?"

"I think it would be rude smelling bad for our first meeting,"

He was taking down notes of everything he was saying.

"And my girlfriend is. . also encouraging me to."

"That girlfriend, uh, Kate, was it?"

Yoongi nodded shyly, but was proud of saying it at the same time. It felt good telling someone that information.

"I always hear her in your tapes. Could she be the reason you pushed forth meeting me?"

"Actually, yes. I wouldn't be here if she didn't keep being there— telling me that. ."

"Seeing as you're eager to talk about her, why don't you elaborate more on your relationship? Is that okay?"

Yoongi, without a doubt, was ecstatic in telling what they've been going through together up until now.

"For starters, we love each other."

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[ posted OCTOBER 10 2018 ]