"I'm confused. But we did break up. A long time ago. I don't understand why we have to talk about this now. . ."

Yoongi decided to finally face his fears. He didn't care it took him eight months before letting go; he was happy he finally realized this. Yoongi pulled out his hand, waiting for her to put in hers. When she did, he grabbed it and looked into her eyes.

Jisoo knew this from when they were still dating. It’s a gesture Yoongi habitually does when he's trying to say, Believe me. And she would always do, without hesitation. Yoongi is an honest man despite being a secretive one at that.

"I couldn't let go of you. It took me this long, and I'm finally going to move on. . ." Jisoo didn't carry any feelings for him anymore. But he was still a part of something special within. They went out for a year; of course it means something.

"Are you. . . in love with someone right now?" There was actually no need to ask. It was obvious; why else would Yoongi call her if it wasn't that important?

Yoongi gave her a smile, "Nothing gets past you." And blinked as he was counting the money he plans on paying for himself— er, a little sign of gesture wouldn't hurt, so he paid for her's, too.

Before he could leave, Jisoo called him for the last time, "Yoongi."

He looked back at her to listen for her last message, "I want you to be happy now, arasso? Don't make the same mistake we did."

A smile and a nod was all he responded with, before finally turning his back on her, leaving her alone with her thoughts.

🎧

KATE
oppa
are you not home yet?
i made a new batch of cookies~!
i'm at your door

Yoongi almost forgot how they exchanged numbers so he could contact her when she's in trouble.

YOONGI
i see you

He tucked his phone into his jacket and tapped her on the head, crouching down to look on her sleeping face. Tilting her head a bit to see that she wasn't faking, hugging the bag of freshly-baked cookies.

"Ah— oppa!"

Yoongi almost jumped, taken aback from her surprise greeting while standing up. "You punk— you scared me. Didn't I tell you to call me Yoongi? You're making me sound old."

Hyung!

"I wanted to give you this." Kate stretched her arms out, handing the bag, which he gladly accepted, opening it briefly without a word. "Well, that's really all I came here to give you."

Knowing Kate, though, it wasn't the sole reason. It couldn't be. Yoongi wasn't going to let another woman in his life slip away, so he grabbed her on her pinky, tugging on it. "Do you want to stay for a bit?"

The woman couldn't resist the opportunity, unknown to what might happen next in this late night. Her parents might try to call her non-stop and scold her for getting home late; but when it comes to him, how could she say no?

"I'd love to."

Yoongi unlocked his door, opening the lights then placed the cookies in the first bowl he found in his cabinet full of it. "Aren't you hungry? I could cook, if you want."

"No, it's fine." Kate found herself sitting on his bed again since it was easily found, plus he didn't lock his bedroom door, either. Figuring he'd allow it.

"Kate," Yoongi breathed while entering in with the batch of cookies in his hands, placing it on the bedside table. "I want to tell you something."

"Go ahead! Oh, is it a new song? I bet it is. You trust me so well~" As Kate was merely eating from the cookies she made, Yoongi had his eyes closed, preparing himself for both possible scenarios: rejection or acception.

"I like you. I. . .like you." Yoongi could feel his pulse rate and heart beat speed up, making him hyperventilate, but still, he couldn't bring himself to possibly let her know about it.

"Y–You do?"

"Is it too sudden? Tell me if it is. I don't want you feeling uncomfortable around me. O–Or you can forget that I said that and leave. You can take your cookies, I– they must mean a lot to you and. ."

He shut up the minute he noticed Kate being silent the entire time. Expressionless, her hand gripping on the sheet of his bed and then— her eyes looked like they were sparkling against the light. "I. . never thought you’d actually like someone like me. . ."

Kate ran her hand to her chest, closing her eyes tight. "I idolized you so much, for so long. I got to meet you and now, this. . ."

He was seeing a ray of hope that she’d say the same. It's crazy since it's obvious she likes Agust D, and he's Agust D; but there's also Yoongi, whom she's always been there for.

Unfortunately. . ,

"I'm sorry. We can't do this. You– You won't be able to handle being with me."

her answer shattered her heart. Though he was expecting it, too, he was leaning more on the yes, let's date side.

"Is it because. . .you only see me as your idol? Not Min Yoongi, someone who. . wants to date you?"

"No. It's not that. Yoongi, you've shown me a bit of who you are and I appreciate it, and I know how much you're struggling with your own problems; I don't. . .want to be one of them."

[ posted SEPTEMBER 10 2018 ]