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crap, crap, crap.

that word was the only thing that taehyung managed to say inside his mind. his palms continued sweating. he decided to put both his hands inside his pockets.

"w—what do you mean?" jeongguk stuttered once again, his cheeks were now in deep red. he was somehow wishing that the older really meant what he just said.

"i—i mean i l—like... ugh, nevermind, let's just c—continue walking." taehyung tried to shrug it off as he held jeongguk's hand but was quickly shoved away by jeongguk himself.

"tell me first hyung." jeongguk breathed out, his heartbeat going in a fast pace as he continued staring at the older.

he wished that maybe taehyung likes him, just a little bit and it'll give him hope.

taehyung gulped, wiping his face with both his hands as he tried to calm his breathing, but to no avail.

"look jeongguk, let's just go." taehyung tried to grab jeongguk's hands once again but jeongguk walked slightly away from the older, biting his lip harshly.

"i know we're bestfriends since kids, but, at least tell me what you meant earlier." the younger pleaded taehyung.

taehyung was stupid of him to say it to jeongguk, thinking that maybe jeongguk would think of him as a faggot. and liking him? that's absurd.

"you want to know jeongguk? i fucking like you a lot! and i don't think that i was supposed to tell this to you when we're bestfriends." taehyung's features soften as he saw jeongguk's eyes suddenly getting teary.

what fucking mess did i made? taehyung shrugged his thoughts off as he subconsciously hugged jeongguk, his arms wrapping the younger's small waist.

"h—hyung..." jeongguk called out for the older, taehyung immediately humming in response, rubbing the younger's waist in small circles.

"i—i like you too... but—i think this is wrong. very wrong." jeongguk stammered, his chin leaning on the older's shoulder.

taehyung knew for himself that confessing to the younger was very wrong. it could be the reason to ruining their strong friendship, the friendship they had for many years.

"i know gguk. so, let's just forget about what happened today." taehyung smiled as he finally let go of the hug and the both of them continued walking.

at least they were both happy that they got to know that their feelings are mutual.

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taehyung sighed as he brushed his teeth, looking at the mirror, his eyes landing on the tiger headband hanging on top of his head.

thinking that jeongguk liked him with this, it made taehyung's heart flutter. but, knowing that they could never continue what they're both feeling, is heartbreaking for him.

when he finished, he went back to the bedroom to see jeongguk sleeping peacefully with a book laying on his chest, his glasses hanging on his face quite dangerously.

the older simply clicked his tongue as he went closer to jeongguk, grabbing his book silently and his glasses, putting it on top of his study table.

"what a sleepyhead." taehyung says to himself, chuckling as he looks at the figure of jeongguk sleeping soundly, his lips parted slightly in an adorable way.

it's already nine-thirty in the evening and it's weird for taehyung because his eyes were kept opened, not wanting to sleep so he decided to just make a cup of hot chocolate for himself.

while taehyung was drinking on his cup, his eyes landed on the younger once again, his lips subconsciously forming into a loving smile.

thinking about their friendship breaking off because of their feelings for each other, it hurt taehyung very much. he knew how much the younger meant for him and he doesn't want him to leave taehyung forever.

"but we can't stop our heart to beat for someone, right?" taehyung mutters to himself as he took another sip on his hot chocolate, chuckling lightly.

he sounds like a retard talking to himself.

"what are you doing there hyung? it's late already and we have classes early tomorrow." jeongguk raspy voice suddenly snapped the older's thoughts.

taehyung looks at jeongguk who is now sitting on his own bed, his hair in a very messy manner, his eyes half opened as he rubs his hair in an adorable manner, yawning slightly.

taehyung shakes his head, waving his hands off of jeongguk.

"don't worry, when i finished my drink, i'll be sleeping." the older said softly, jeongguk slightly nodding in action as he stared at taehyung.

taehyung wasn't uncomfortable with the younger's stare, but how sad he looked right now, and maybe it's because of the older's fault for him being like this.

"are you still thinking about what happened earlier, hyung?" jeongguk asked out loud.

that question made taehyung's droopy eyes turn big, his mouth parting in utter shock. jeongguk knew what the older was thinking all the time.

"um—no. you should slee—" taehyung was interrupted when jeongguk suddenly stood up, slowly making his way closer to where taehyung was sitting and cupped both his cheeks and suddenly smash his lips onto the older's own lips.

that action made taehyung's brain to stop working, as if his world stopped and crumbled. whatever the younger was doing to him was making him like the feeling and at the same time very wrong for the both of them.