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Ilang beses na katok ang nagpatayo sa akin mula sa pagkakahiga ko. Noong binuksan ko ang pintuan ay naroon si Aidan at sinilip ako. I saw how he stared at me, silently asking if I am fine already. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang maisasagot ko doon kaya yumuko na lang ako para itago ang mukha ko.

"Gusto mong manuod ng pelikula sa baba? Inayos ni Lolo Domeng iyong cable." Aniya. Maliit na ngiti ang ibinigay ko bago tumango.

"Sure. Magbibihis lang ako."

"I'll wait for you downstairs Ma'am." Sagot niya at nagpaalam. Noong makaalis siya ay binuksan ko ang bintana para makapasok ang malamig na hangin. I stared at the skies just to look at the stars tonight.

Umihip iyong hangin at sabay kong ipinikit ang mata ko roon. When I opened my eyes, I saw the north star shining brighter than the others. I felt that nagging pain once again. Bansot..

I need my north star bansot. I need you now. I am feeling so lost without you. I need you to come back home.

I miss you so much. Sometimes, I dream of you at night and long for you in the morning. Every second that you're not with me, I silently wish to the north star to bring you back. You are the owner of my heart, my only rule.

Ilang sandali ko pang pinanood iyong langit bago ako bumalik sa loob. Kumuha ako ng makapal na sweater at pajama. I bun my hair and went out of my room. Nasa gitna pa lang ako ng hagdanan noong makita ko si Aidan na inihahanda iyong sofa niya.

May makapal na mat siyang inilatag sa sahig, mga taco, chips at iba iba pang junk para sa panonood ng movie. Lumapit ako dito habang siya ay abala sa paghahanap ng maganda cable channel.

"What do you want to watch Ma'am?" tanong niya. Inabot niya sa akin ang tortilla at ang sauce nito. Kinuha ko iyon at inilapag sa aking hita.

"Anything."

"Hmmn." Anas lamang niya at naglipat ulit ng channel. Sa huli ay pinili niya iyong Disney movie na beauty and the beast. we were silent for more than half of the movie. Nakaupo lamang ako habang siya ay nasa tabi ko, tahimik na nanunuod.

Noong sa parte kung saan nagsasayaw na sina Belle at ang halimaw ay napahinto ako. I smiled while watching the stupid cartoon. Somehow, I can relate to the movie. The beast was ugly, scarred, and wounded but still Belle loved him.

Maybe the world is not really harsh. Maybe the world is caring. No matter how bad a person is, somebody would still love him. Somebody would still accept him, no matter how flawed he is. That's the gift of the world.

Niyakap ko ang mga binti ko habang nanunuod pa rin. I peeked at Aidan who was busy looking at his dogtag. Noong mapansin niyang nakatingin ako sa kanya ay mabilis niyang ipinasok ulit ang kwintas sa kanyang tshirt.

I stared at his face. He has this deep brown eyes, firm jaw, pointed nose, thick brows. Kapag pumipikit ako minsan ay naiisip kong siya si Ashton. Even their voices have that same tone in it.

"The movie reminds me of you." Mahina niyang sabi. Napanguso naman ako.

"But you're the most beautiful beast I have laid my eyes on." Dagdag niya. Naputol ang dapat kong sasabihin sa narinig mula sa kanya.

"What?"

Ngumisi siya lalo bago lumapit sa akin. He scooted closer to me and I can feel my heart beat racing once more.

"A very beautiful, messy beast." natatawa niyang sabi bago hinawakan ang aking mukha. His thumb slowly travelled from the corner of my lip, wiping something out of it.

I felt my cheeks blushed from what he did. He grinned like an idiot before he put his thumb inside of his mouth and ate the left over sauce from me. He took his finger out of his mouth with a pop.

"What the hell..."

Ngumisi siya. "Tangina this." Napapailing niyang sabi. He then grabbed my nape and pulled me closer. Sa pagkabigla ko ay nawalan ako ng panimbang. Bumagsak kaming dalawa sa mat, me on top of him. My palms can feel his racing heart beat and I know it matches mine perfectly. My dark hair cascaded, almost covering his gorgeous face.

"Aidan.." tawag ko dito. Akma sana akong tatayo noong kinabig niya ang aking leeg. My opened mouth met his hot lips. I gasped for air and he used that opportunity to deepen the kiss.

I closed my eyes tightly. The same sensation that I felt with Ashton was slowly coming into life once again. Aidan made it happen again.

Nangunyapit ang kamay kong nakapatong sa dibdib niya. I felt the fabric of his shirt being crumpled by my hand.

"Se." tawag niya sa akin. Umupo siyang bigla, dinala ako para maipatong sa kanyang hita. My legs were both wide open for him. I can feel the slow burn in between my thighs already. Nararamdaman ko na rin kung gaano siya naapektuhan nitong mga halik namin.

Bumaba ang labi niya sa aking leeg. He pulled my sweaters downward and revealed my shoulders. Inalis niya ang nagkalat na buhok roon at pinaulanan iyon ng halik. My fingers dug into his hair and pulled him closer.

Lumapat ang likod ko sa mat habang siya ay abala sa paghila sa aking pajama pababa. Noong matanggal niya iyon ay ang sweater ko naman ang pinagdiskitahan niya. I arched my body towards him and I was answered by his heated kisses.

His hands travelled towards my leg and hooked it on his waist. Aidan's hand caressed my arms before he pulled my bra off. I was about to cover myself when his mouth took one of my peaks.

"Aidan.."

"Ssh." Aniya bago muling hinalikan iyon. My legs curled on his waist tighter. I can feel his iron clad arousal pressing in between my legs.

"Aidan aah.."

Hinalikan niya ang likod ng tenga ko bago ngumisi. His hand went downwards and slowly caressed my belly. Napaungol akong muli sa init na dala ng palad niya.

"Aidan, please.." Oh, I don't even know what I am begging for now.

"I know baby, I know." He huskily said. Malakas akong napasinghap noong hinila na niya ang natitira kong damit. My eyes flew open when I felt him slowly nipping on my bud.

"Aidan! Oh!" I almost shout. He grinned like an idiot before putting his mouth on me again. His tongue lashed on me faster, faster, until I trashed and arched my body more. Hindi pa yata siya nakuntento sa ginagawa at kinalabit pa ako doon gamit ang daliri niya.

"Aidan.." naiiyak ko ng sabi. I felt his finger slowly pushing inside me and I just lost it. Waves after waves of that blinding pleasure rushed through me. At habang nanginginig ako ay naroon lamang si Aidan, pinapanood ako at hindi pa rin tumitigil sa ginagawa.

Hingal na hingal ako ng matapos iyong panginginig ko. Aidan grinned at me. Umupo siya habang isa isang inaalis ang kaniyang damit. I watched his muscles flex with every movements he did. I was fascinated with how his abs moved as if they are all seducing me more. As if I am not yet seduced enough.

Kinalas niya iyong buckle ng pantalon niya bago tumayo. He pulled it harshly, hatalang nagmamadali. I can see how ready he was through his boxers and I swallowed nervously.

"Shit.." ang tangi ko lang nasabi. His lopsided grin became devastatingly beautiful as he removed his boxers to reveal his naked glory.

Pumatong siyang muli sa akin at pinaghiwalay ang aking binti. I felt the tip of his hardness on my core. Napaungol ako noong sinubukan niyang idiin iyon sa akin.

"Tell me to stop." Aniya, halos nagmamakaawa. His fingers played with my breasts and I pushed my waist closer to him, urging him to take me now.

"Serise.."

Yumakap ako sa kanya at pinaikot ang binti sa kanyang beywang. He moved his waist a bit and I felt him possessing me. I gasped from the pain, my nails digging into his back.

"Putangina Ma'am." Madiin niyang mura. I choked from my sobs and he kissed me softly. Iyong kamay niya ay bumaba doon sa kung saan kami nakakonekta. Marahan niya akong minasahe roon para maibsan ang sakit.

"More?" he asked. Butil butil na pawis na ang namuo sa kaniyang noo.

"Gosh, there's more?" naiiyak ko ng sabi. natawa siya ng bahagya at muling nagpatuloy.

We groaned at the same time when he was finally able to break through my barrier. He kissed me lightly before looking straight into my eyes.

"Mahal na mahal kita Ma'am." Aniya at nagsimula ng gumalaw. My arms tightened around him as the blinding pleasure started building up again. He went faster, harder, rougher, and deeper. Tuloy tuloy at halos hindi na ako makahinga sa bawat pagsalakay niya.

Napaliyad ako noong maramdaman ko ulit iyon. I came so hard around him and he followed immediately. I felt every jet of his pleasure inside me. We were both shaking from the intensity of it. Nanatili siyang nasa ibabaw ko habang kinakalma ang aming mga sarili.

Bumabagsak na aking mata noong maramdaman ko ang paggalaw niya. Iniwan niya ako saglit at noong bumalik siya ay may dala na siyang tuwalya. He rubbed me clean before kissing my forehead.

Napapapikit na ako noong maramdaman ko ang pagbuhat niya sa akin. Hindi ko na namalayan ang pagdala niya sa aking kwarto. Alam ko lang ay ang paglapat ng likod ko sa aking kama.

Naramdaman ko ang paghaplos niya sa aking buhok bago ako kinumutan. I purred from my sleep.

"Goodnight, my north star." Iyon ang huli kong narinig. Kung hindi dahil sa pagod ay bubuksan ko pa sana ang mata ko.

"Mahal na mahal pa rin kita Ma'am."