song of the chapter: 100 ways - jackson wang

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Shortly after I discovered that Taehyung and Yoongi knew each other, class had ended. It only meant one thing: time for lunch. As Professor Han dismisses us, I speed walk to the entrance. Not caring who I leave behind, I walk as fast as I could muster outside to the parking area. That is, until a hand stops me.

I stop abruptly and turn around to who holds delicately my wrist.

Jungkook.

"Hi." He says with a smile on his face.

Oh no. How can he be so beautiful?

"H–hello." I respond.

He caresses my wrist making goosebumps take over me, "Are you okay? It's just," he steps closer to me, making me step back, "I feel like you've been avoiding me. Did I do anything?" he asks.

My mouth dries up, I clear my throat. I can't tell him like this.

No way.

"No, not at all. Everything's fine, I'm not feeling good this week," I lie, "that's all."

"Should I take you to your house? I can drive if you want." he offers.

But I decline.

"Its okay, I'll just pick up my lunch and go home to get ready for my shift. Thanks for your offer, though." I get out of his grasp and continue my speed walk to my car.

"That was kind of awkward." I hear Jimin say from my side.

I jump, "Jesus–"

"No. Just me." He smirks as he follows me to my car.

I slightly push him and notice Hana jogging up to us. I stand by my car, about to hop in the drivers seat.

I take a peek at Jungkook who stands at the entrance where he stopped me, he looks conflicted. My heart hurts. I don't want to do this to him, I must tell him soon before it's too late.

When? I don't know, but I have to tell him soon.

"I'm going home to get ready for work early." I turn to both my friends, "can you guys pass me the notes for the next class?" I ask them.

Hana nods, "For sure."

I sigh, "Thank you." I lie to them.

The only one who knows is Taehyung. No one else.

Jimin holds the door open for me, letting me pass and get my car started up, "Call is if you need anything."

They know something is up. I knew they would.

My head shakes in agreement, "I will. Love you both." I tell them and Jimin closes the door before responding a 'we love you too'.

I let out a sigh before buckling up and speeding away from the campus to my house.

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"You're late." Seokjin warns me as he watches me run from the kitchen to the back room of the diner.

I chuckle, "Trust me, I know."

He follows me to my locker and leans against the wall, "You took a nap again, didn't you?"

Not quite. I couldn't get all the situation with Bree and Jungkook off my head. Basically I stayed up just staring at the ceiling.

"Kind of." I tell him as I shove my purse to the locker, closing it.

Seokjin laughs, "Well. Today there's a new guy starting," we start walking to the kitchen, "and you're going to show him around plus start training this week."

I stop my walk and lean against the counter, "Who's the new guy?"

I see Seokjin smile behind me before speaking, "Dae, meet–"

"Yoongi?"

"You!"

"You two know each other?" Seokjin asks.

Of course I do.

"A new acquaintance I made." He says jokingly.

"Funny," I say sarcastically, "we met today in college." I explain.

Seokjin nods in understanding before speaking, "Well, my break is over. Dae, show him around please." he left with a tray in his hands before winking at me.

Wait, what?

I take a deep breath and turn to the mint haired boy, "Hello." I say.

He chuckles, "Hi. Small world huh?" he jokes.

"Definitely." I joke with him.

"Well. Where do we start?" He asks.

"Oh, right," I remember, "well. I'll just show you around the diner and then we can start the training." I tell him.

Yoongi nods before speaking, "Lead the way."

I smile before beginning the tour around the kitchen, but Namjoon stops me. His breath is ragged and it seems like he ran here. He's tired, as he places his hands on his knees taking a breath.

"There's someone here for you, Dae." he lets out.

Furrowing my eyebrows, I respond, "Who?"

"The guy that came here for you the last time." he says.

Jungkook.

"Why did you run? Is everything okay?" Yoongi asks.

Namjoon nods, "Yeah, hyung. It's just the shifts busy so I had to tell you quick."

Just like that, Namjoon began his way back to his job.

I sigh and pass my hands through my face, "Wait here," I tell Yoongi, "I'll be back."

Yoongi stops me by my wrist before I can even make a step, "I'll go with you."

"No, stay here–"

"Where is he? I'll go with you," he insisted, "go on."

Just as I was about to answer, my name was called from the front of the counter. Mena, one of the girl's who worked here, was calling me.

Getting out of the kitchen, I stop my tracks.

Jean and Jungkook are standing together, laughing like their good friends. Jungkook is friends with the guy that Bree is cheating on him with.

This is crazy. This cannot be.

"Dae!" Jungkook waves at me enthusiastically.

I try to do the same, but I seem to be stuck in my place. I can't move.

I feel hands on my shoulders, "You look pale." Mena says.

I gulp, feeling all my insides burning. The next thing I do is one thing that first goes through my thoughts.

I run.

I keep running out the entrance.

My steps make the loudest noises.

I don't care about the diner I left behind.

I just want to leave. Things are getting out of hand. I don't know if I can keep this secret anymore. I need to do something.

I notice that I'm in the parking lot of the diner, in a far corner where the lighting post stands. Stopping my running, I gasp and begin sobbing.

The guilt that took over me is still there, making me feel disgusted of myself. The sunset and the clouds are there to bring me into their comfort as I sob everything I've been keeping inside me.