Assalam Walaikum wa Rahmatullah.

My story isn't special but thought I am not the only one that went through something like this. I am divorced because my husband ran off right after he got his green card leaving me with our one year old son. I felt every feeling possible because I was so shocked of how this could happen. I became really sick and depressed because there I was alone with my son hurt beyond words of how a Muslim could be so evil. He had abused me during our whole marriage beating me daily (even when I was pregnant which is why my first pregnancy was terminated), cheating with different girls, I was not allowed to speak or even look up. He never allowed me to go to school, see my family or ever leave the house and we weren't allowed to have anything in the house not even a chair. I had gone through all that for him just so he could walk out and leave just for a green card. I cried every night and my Iman decreased because I didn't understand how that I followed the Quran and Sunnah as much as I could yet I was hurt so badly. I turned to family or friends or even people in the masjid.... no one could help me or fix the pain. Finally I turned back to Allah swt. I was so close to him before and turned away slightly just over a so called husband. Allah was the only one that could help me and I realized that this was all a test to bring me back to Allah. Alhamdulilah for everything I have been through because its making me a stronger person and alhumdulilah for the BEAUTIFUL son I have. My son and I may be alone and of course there are days where I am still confused and hurt.... But we have Allah and I know this all happened for a good reason. I have faith Allah has something good in store for us so never lose hope for he is always with the patient." - Bakr