I swear I think I'm going crazy! I literally blinked one second and the next second, I am sitting down next to Nathan, my brain telling me it's Monday even though yesterday was just Thursday and the end of Thanksgiving day. Oh man....

I ripped open the package of Sandies -my favorite- and munched on one nervously as he looked at me with wide eyes. I managed to swallow two before I cleared my throat and told him my story. After I was done whispering twenty minutes later, he remained silent. Even his expression remained neutral as he just stared at me.

"So this whole time, your shyness and inability to let people in are because of a lie?" He finally whispered, making me flinch. His words stung a bit, but I just ignored them and nodded.

"Yeah I know it's not the biggest story of your life, but it's mine. I've been the outcast in school for so long, I just don't know how to react here. That day we first met wasn't any different then all my other days. Only after people started to see me with you, they started to back down and I haven't been made fun of or bullied. It's sort of weird, but it finally feels like I have peace...... And I like it."

The whole time, he was looking at me with sadness and.... regret in his eyes, but as soon as I finished talking, he looked away. I saw him trembling and I looked down at his hands to see them in tight, white fists.

"Are you ok?" I asked him softly. "Does this change our friendship?"

He suddenly stood up without looking at me and gave me his back. "I have to go. I wasn't planning on coming to school today anyways." He left -no ran- without saying another word and he didn't even let me say something. I flinched and looked down, the tears that I wast trying so hard to hold came out without my permission. I sat there, unmoving and silently crying as my heart broke.

The one and only person who had managed to let my walls down had just finished crushing all my hopes and friendship I had managed to get.....

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Like he said, he didn't end up going to school that day. I had gotten used to having lunch with him, so when I found myself entering Subway by myself, I felt weird.... and alone.

Not like any other day! My conscience told me. You were by yourself before he came and you certainly don't need him now. You trusted him and he just deserted you without a good explanation.

I ended up leaving the small shop without anything to eat. For the rest of the day, I just sulked and sighed as my stomach quietly rumbled. When I got home, the house was silent and dark and I smiled in relief as I didn't want to explain my weird behavior to my parents. They were still recovering from the other day.

I finished my homework in record time and even managed to get something into my system before I felt a little better. My parents walked in with groceries in their hands seconds after I walked out from the shower.

"Sorry we are late. An emergency occurred just as my shift ended and they needed my help. Traffic was horrible after the store and we didn't realize the time until we got here," my dad breathed as soon as his hands were free. He hugged me back as I wrapped myself to him and he chuckled. "How was your day anyways? Anything I need to know about?" He finished with a hard tone in his voice and I shook my head. He didn't need to know more about my personal life. I could handle my feelings by myself. Besides, this time it was my fault.

"Nope. Just boring school like always. I ordered pizza. Hope you don't mind since I got hungry."

His eyes sparkled and we both turned to see my mom already stuffing her face with the crust. She shrugged and took another bite as he laughed again and ruffled my wet hair. "It's fine. Saves your mom the time for cooking. She was grumpy the entire way here, complaining about food."

"Well I'm going to go back to my room. Have homework to finish," I lied and he nodded while eyeing the remaining slices of pizza. I passed back to my room, quietly closed the door and slumped down to my bed, letting my body shut me down for the rest of the day.

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Yup. It was official. Nathan officially ended our friendship by the looks of it. When I got to school the next day, I had hoped that he was just sad and angry because of what I had told him. I tried looking for him and when I didn't find him in our usual places, I gave up and waited for class to begin, hoping he would showed up today.

He did show up, but what shocked me was that he didn't sit besides me. He sat on the opposite corner, on the only table that had nobody in it. I stared at him in shock, and even Gabby and her gang looked at him weirdly. I slumped down in my seat and drowned out the teacher as she began to talk. If he was like this, I would bet my kidney he would sit away from me during Math as well.

When the bell rang, he stood up quickly without saying a word to anyone and left. I saw him going straight to the room and I quietly followed him, hoping my thoughts were wrong and he was just distracted for the first class. But when I got to the door and saw his seat, I actually felt my face fall and I looked down as my hope went flying away.

I guess I would be keeping my kidney after all.