Day 25

Herobrine... He makes no sense to me. He doesn't seem to have a clear goal or he must not know what to do with me. Sometimes he strikes to kill me, Other times he merely wants to ensnare me in traps to prevent me from escaping, but not hurting me, and other times he just wants to look and watch me from afar; running to the fog if I get to close. What is his deal? What does he want? He's being incredibly conflicting, and it's a good bit frustrating.... Blotz growls at him if he spots him in the distance, but once I look at him, he runs. What is his deal?

Night 25
I've made it back to my shelter safely, with Boltz now making himself at home. However, I dare not step outside right now. I can't confirm, but I don't think Herobrine know's how to open doors... considering he has plenty of chances to kill me when I was behind them, and he chose not to.
 Yes, this invincible vengeful spirit of a man who is all powerful, trying to kill me, and can crush all in his path meets his greatest enemy; a wooden door.

Regardless on if a man can cross a door or not, I believe these 'eye shaped jewels' Steve was talking about were these green stones I got from the lucky blocks. But I don't have the slightest clue as to how to get them to work. Not just that, but the 'Purified Diamond'... what about that? My only clue is diamonds, duh, but I know nothing else. Maybe it's related to the Cursed Diamond I used before to summon him? I don't know...

But Honestly, I've been having dark and morbid thoughts as of recently. With how much work there is, and how little information I have, this all seems futile. Why don't I just let him kill me? He is far more powerful then me, and this "purified diamond" is only a hunch as to if it works or not. If I'm dead I won't have to worry about getting home or trying to survive.
I think the chill of winter has been shutting me down; my care and emotions...
Who knows if I'll make it? And not just because He will kill me.
I may end myself with how everything is going...