Day 30

A month... a full month I've been in this world. A full month of nearly dying, insanity, and confusion, and I'm completely crippled. My leg feels a slight bit better, but I still can't put pressure on it. I can hop on my leg, using my sword as makeshift cane, but the pain it unbearable. I need to find someone to help me, lest HE finds me in a weakened state. I can't defend myself, if he finds me, it's game over...
My sanity is breaking, I feel hysterical knowing He is out there, sharpening his blade to find me. But why do I think it's funny!? To know I'm being stalked and hunted by a stranger. I don't know... it may because I'll be getting my 'wish' of not being in pain or struggles if he kills me. But I don't want to die...

Do I?

(There are some incoherent scribbles on this page)

Night 30
I've only made it a slight farther, and I'm exhausted. I feel like Y̶̙͚̅̉Ó̸̝͝U̵͓̰̚ ̸̮̞͠W̵̜̼͂͝Ò̸̡͉̎Ǹ̶̥͕̑'̴̼̍̈́T̴̛̘̙͂ ̷̠̌͘E̴̗̐̀S̸̙̥͂̈C̶͔͊̈A̵͌ͅṔ̵̝̾E̶̺̥̓ something is T̶̻̥̮̳͚̥͇̪̝̺̫́̓̾̑̈̃͂͋͛͒͒̚͠Ḩ̵̨̣̹̬̮͙̹̣͑͜Į̸̠͚̰́͒͂̽͗̉́S̶̮̤̩̪͚͇̬̅̿͝ ̴̺͉͓̭̬̠͔̒̐̽̋͐̈̈͒̉̂̏̓̿İ̴̛͍̳̤̺̞̟̪̍̄̇̏͗̂̐̋̚͘͜͝ͅS̶̢̡̺̺̬̭̠͔̱͉̥̾̊̐͛͂̕ ̸̢̛͖̩̀̀̓͑͒̏͌̀̀̽̚Ȏ̴͕̺͔̰̣̏̍̃̉͆̆͝͠V̴̻̟͕̤̺̣͔̪̆͗͗̊͂͗̈́̔̂́ͅĘ̵̯̞͖̗̗͋̅̊͌́̿̔͆̄͝R̷̻̺͉̜̫͎̦͙̉ draining my strength as I go...  I feel like I'm withering away. But not just that, I feel my heart race despite my tiredness. It's like something else is trying to control me, but what?   What am I feeling? Is it a ghost? Another person? Could it be Him? I can't even Y̴̧̨̡̮͈͑̊͆̅̿́ͅÒ̸̢̺̕͜U̴̡̳̣̦̺̭̬̜̅͂̎̇͂'̵̹͈̺̤̯̣̤̣̋̓̈́̀̅́̿͐͑͑͒͒̕R̷͈̜̮̻̗̿̀̽̒̅̽̉̋̚̚͠Ė̵̮̹̝͍͖̹̣̪͇̐̂̉͜ ̴̢̨̧͙̙̠̘͕̪͊̃B̵̊̆̽͆̍̏̂͌͝͠ͅE̷͕̠͓̠͂͐̅̐̄͝Ĭ̷̠̣̜͇̓̈͗̃̃̅́̂̊̉͠Ṅ̸͇͛͋̀̌̈̊̔̚͠G̷̢̤̟̬̺͖̫̫̬̽̄ ̸̭̯͖̿̉̂̅͆͑̍̂͐̚̚͝S̷̡̜̣̜̀͋̇͑ͅT̸̢͈̹̗̲͚͕͕́̂̐̆̇̉͋́͑͝͠ͅͅU̷̥̇͂́̚͜B̸̛̺̮̥̩͉͎̹̥̥͔͇̫̊̽́̒̊͂́̿͜͠͠͝B̵̛̠̱̤̗̝͍͈̪͎̫͍̾̋͒͋̀͊̎͘͝Ơ̵͎̞͎̘̞͖͖͆͊̽̓͝Ṛ̷̛̱̮̭̰̈͊͒͌ͅN̶̪̲̰̹̿̏͐̐͋̇̽̿͑̀̓̈́̈ͅ  know what to say. Is this... what it's like to die? Am I dying? Maybe I've fallen ill with a disease or something. But my heart races in excitement  Ģ̸̧̨̛̟̖̳̮̞̃̄̋̊̀̄̽̊̄̚͘͜͜͠ͅǏ̶̤̮̮̯̩̈́͋̅̊͐̊͐̾̄́͝ͅV̵̨̙̮̗͎̣̗͔̹͖̗̟̿̀̔͋̑̄̂͠Ę̸̞̟̜̯̘͔͉̠̎̈́̂̃ ̵̡̧̡͔͔̝̺̮͑̃͒͝ͅȊ̵̧̩̘̯͇̼̞̗̫͕̮̭͉̍̈́Ţ̶͇̪̭̣̥̜̞̱͔̻̥̂̉̋̎̓͐̋͠ ̵̡̧̞̙͔̞̞̤͚͖̦̋͌͆̊̌Ũ̸̡̧̧̖̲͍̩̱̹̲͍͎̀̈̌̌̄̃̕P̶̡͇̺̙͈͈̋̏̽͋̉̀̄́̀͂̃ ̴̢͚̟̬̤̖͍̈͛̀̉̎͛́̑̏̿͠A̶͚̩̱̦̰̎̆͋̅̊̔̎̏͠ͅͅL̶̰͎̠̜̣̪̃̇̇̈́́̃̓̑̉̿͑Ṛ̵͌̋͐̂̈̀͂͠E̴͇̬̩̖̗̩̝̔̋͐̎̍͜A̴̢̗̋̊Ḑ̵̫̰̻̜̠̘̄̽̍̈́̊̀́͑̉̅Y̵̢̧̬̣͓̜̖̮̱̮̩͑̌̐̓̈́̑͒͌̅͝͝  despite my pain I'm in and tiredness I feel. I feel as if I can't control myself anymore.I've lost my sanity and lost my will to live.

Let him find me for all I care. 
Let me D̴̨̺̹̾̋͂̌̿͌̆̄̇͂̂͒̑̏̾̈́̒̓̇̋͘͝Ĩ̵̢̢̡̢̧̥̖̭͙̩̫̼̪̞͎̱̙̖̘͓͎̝̪͙͕̬̠͍̙̭͕̯̟̘̲̂͋͂̈́͛͊̒̆̉͒͗̓̂̀̐̕ͅȄ̵̛͚͚̺̗̦̗͐̂̈́͛͒̉̉͊͛̐̑̃̏̂̾̓͋͊̆̈́̎͌̈́̔̐̄̑͑̄͑̑̐̆̂́̅̃̆̚͘͝