I've been strong for too long.
The pain I feel in my body tells me so.
I am crippling my body of its joyful song,
And I am feeling my eyes lose their glow.

I'm not sure why I'm so torn
And I feel as though I should.
But the truth is, I've been broken since I was born
And if I could reverse that day I probably would.

No one wants to stop their heart,
They just want the pain to go away.
But when you speak those words from the start
They make you take back what you say.

This life has beauty all around
But the horrible thing about feelings
Is that they take away life's beautiful sound.
Each day is a day of never ending healing.

This is the ugly truth behind my smile
And the truth behind my fears.
I can be happy for a while
But sooner or later you will see my tears.

I'm a goner when I feel
But you'll still see me try to laugh.
I wish honesty didn't have to be real
But when I'm hurting I can't leave it in the past.

Can I be beautiful once again,
In the womb without defilement or active error?
People say we aren't broken just bent,
But, my oh my, am I full of terror.

I've been seduced by the darkness in my head
But some days I can still touch the light.
I wish every day I could erase the thoughts that have been said,
And that these awful memories can be taken from my sight.

I'm sorry I cannot explain this traumatizing agony.
I'm sorry I do not know where my outcries come from.
I wish I could tell you everything happening to me,
But I'm afraid these thoughts cannot be understood by anyone.

Forgive me for being so distraught,
And for being so confused.
I promise one day I will repay all you have bought
And I will take back all that I have bruised.