Chapter 19

     "Let's get it started from my top." Finn said and sat on the other computer chair.

I nodded and started the beat for the background.

     "Let's talk about all the things that we shouldn't talk about
Those kind of words that will change all the things we talk about. Tell me do you ever think of us? Should I ask for more or should I stop?" He sang softly. "What if our tomorrow means that we are here together?What if we are taking chances just to lose it all? Am I really crazy thinking 'bout this all together? What if I've been missing, the writing on the wall?"

     I thought about it, what would go smoothly with the song? So this song is about a girl, I'm a girl too. So maybe I could do a response kind of? It sounded like Romeo and Juliet kind of.. Well it had to be the chorus, so maybe..

     "What if I say, I know, you know. What if I told you I like you? We stay, we go. What if I told you I like you?" I came in suddenly. "I know, you know. What if I told you I like you?"

      "We stay, we go. What if I told you I like you? What if I told you I like you? What if I told you I like you?" Finn came in and smiled at me, he moved away from his mic which meant I had to sing my part of the duet.

           "I hear everything they saying, saying 'bout us. It's not about right or wrong, its about what we love." I continued. "Would it be simple or would it be too complicated? Should I keep going or maybe it's better to stop?"

I turned to Finn as the camera focused on us, I smiled with a giggle. 

      "Would it be simple or would it be too complicated? Should I keep going or maybe it's better to stop?" Finn said finally.

This was going pretty good if Im going t be honest. We will surely have this song done by tonight. 

*****

      "I got gucci on my body.." I hummed to a tune I was trying to make. 

By now it was 11pm and our friends came along with Cameron.

     "But you're wearing pajamas from the thrift store." Cam interrupted my singing.  

     "Shut up." I scowlded with a glare and threw him a pillow.

     "Hey Ness!" I rose my head from my song notebook. 

I saw Finn with a goofy smile on his face, I rolled my eyes and replied, "Yes Finn?"

     "Andy really likes the video and suggests that our tour should be called that.

     Oh no. Tour? I hate tour now, ever since the Jaeden shit 3 years ago I could not think about ever going touring. So of course, my smile faded into a small frown.

     "T-tour?" I stuttered.

Finn frowned in confusion, then he realized what he said. 

     "O-oh, we d-don't have to go if you feel uncomfortable.." He said quietly. 

            I shook my head with a weak smile, "if you want to go on tour, I'll be happy to come with."

     "Really?" Finn asked.

     "Mhm." I say, I really don't want to but its for the best.

     "We won't go soon, maybe in June?" Finn suggested.

     "Okay." I say softly and turned to Cam.

     "You suck." Cam said and pushes me off my chair.

     "Leave my idol alone!" Sadie screamed and ran to Cam, knocking him off his feet.

     "Ladies, chill." Gaten walks in.

Sadie glares at him and pushes him off his feet too.

"I'm scared for all of you guys." I laughed.

     "What the hell is going on her-" Matt got tackled to the floor alongside with the others.

I looked at the doorframe, there stood Sophia, Loren, Zach, Jacob, Millie and.... Jaeden? 

    "J-Jaeden?" I coughed out. 

The group looked at me with confusion and turned to my view. 

     "Jaeden isn't here, Ness..." Finn said in confusion. 

      I shook my head and looked back at Jaeden, but he was gone. What the hell, he was literally right there how did he move so quickly?

        "I-I," I started but closed my mouth. "It was nothing, just thinking of a song lyric." 

     They all frowned and nodded in approvement. "I need to use the bathroom." 

I walked up the long stairs but heard faint whispers from the room. 

     "You don't think she's going to make a song about Jaeden... And using his direct name?" I hear Loren whisper. 

       "No, I don't think so she's smarter than doing something that will surely stir up drama." Finn responded. 

      "I have to tell you guys something.." Sophia said softly. 

That simple sentence made me stop in my tracks and eavesdrop a little. 

   "What is it?" I hear Jacob scoff. 

      Sophia and Jacob broke up a long time ago, they were on war now after Jacob left Sophia for Millie. Relationships confuse the shit out of me.

     "I know where Jaeden is..." She trailed off.

      Wait what? I thought he was for sure dead. I remember when he vanished it was all over the news and everyone thought he was dead, there was literally a hashtag that went around of his death.

    "What the fuck?" Matt was the first to react.

       My heart tingled a little, I hadn't been in any other relationship after what happened with Jaeden and I don't think I could trust another boy just like that. Unless its of course Finn because Finn would never hurt me.

       "Take us to him when Nessa gets too caught up in the studio." Sadie suggested.

     "I'll come over to tell you when you can come, Jaeden is much better now but he will refuse to see Nessa." Sophia sighed. "They never really did work out like I hoped they did, they never got their happiness."

     "Always getting ripped apart." Loren finished.

I scoffed at Lorens word, only a bit too loud because I heard footsteps coming to my position

I ran quietly to my bedroom and closed my door softly..