May POV

"Good morning." I say to Adam who sits across from me in our booth.

"Morning." We decided we'd go out for breakfast today instead of lunch.

"How was your night?"

"I had to do laundry." He sighs. "I miss having you at my house. You did everything for us." I chuckle while sipping my coffee. "Anyways, what about you?"

"Okay." I murmur. It's the same thing for me every night. This includes, dinner, cleaning, emails, shower, sleep.

His brown eyes eye me. "Have you thought about it?"

"I have." I murmur.

"And?"

"And I still don't know." I say. I sip my coffee. Adam's head tilts at me. "I'm nervous."

"Why would you be nervous May? You've dated him since your anti social days."

"Thanks." I say sarcastically. "I'm just nervous to be seated down with him and talk about everything." I say honestly. "This break feels like it's been 4 years but it's only been a few months. What if he likes being away from me? What if he already has a new girlfriend?"

"I highly fucking doubt the last two things." Adam says. "And either way you're going to have too sit down with him and talk at some point. Breaks are meant to be short. Hence the word break. Doing it sooner will be easier because you'd remember why you wanted a little time away."

"True." I sigh. "I'm just scared I guess."

"Scared?"

"Yeah. I don't want to know how much I've possibly made him sad. That would make me feel worse."

"We all know that you this break made him sad, May." My eyes narrow at my friend seated across from me. "Just the truth. But do you think the break has helped you at all?"

"It has." I say honestly. "I've accomplished what I wanted to and I thought through the things I needed too. I just feel guilty, you know?"

"How?"

"Because I wanted this break and not him. It makes me feel selfish."

"In your whole life, name a time you've put yourself first in a situation."

"When I lied to Harry about sleeping with Justin."

"That doesn't count. You did that because you thought he deserved better and shit."

"Still. We could've went on a break."

"You learned from your mistake then." Adam comes up with. "Don't feel selfish for doing something for yourself May. You never do. And this was something you both needed." I bite my lip and stir the remaining coffee in my mug.

"I'll talk to him." I tell Adam who nods.

"Good. Let me know how it goes."

A://N

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