Harry POV

I set down the flowers by Mothers grave as I do every week.

I sit down in front of the tomb and pick at my fingers. "Hello." I say casually. "It's weird not talking to you everyday. But uh, this still counts I guess." I murmur.

"So, May and I found out we're having a girl. The babies name is undecided." I mention. "I know you would've been excited to have another granddaughter. Besides that, Dad's doing okay. I know he misses you and doesn't like living alone." My fingers run through my hair. "Uh, Finn misses you too. He wishes you the best as well as everyone else."

I stare at the letters in graved on the rock.

"It's weird that you're not here still. Everyday at 11 I don't know what to do. I usually always talk to you. But, uh, I guess it will take time to get used to not having you." My eyes burn. "We still have Sunday dinners if I never mentioned it. May cooks the food, and it tastes just like how you made your dinners. I'm impressed by how well she caught on to your cooking. I remember when she couldn't even make pasta right." I smile gently.

"I miss you a lot. You're usually the person I always ask advice from and you always know the right answers. Especially if it's with May. You usually always make me in the clear with her." My fingers pick at one another. "I'm sorry if at some point I ever made you disappointed." I say.

"Especially the time when almost every night I walked a girl out of the house. I'm not proud of that, I hope you know. I bet you weren't either." I let out a deep breath. "I gotta get Finn from Niall's. Niall wanted some bonding time with him." I smile softly. "I love you Mom. Say hello to April and Lily for me." I stand up from the grass and take a look at the rock once more before walking away.

Before I leave I stop by Lily's grave. It's still as I remember. Semi new flowers are by her's. I place down the lilies I bought. I know they were her favourite.

"Harry?" A voice says behind me. I turn around and see her Mom. My eyes soften.

"Hi." I say kindly.

"I haven't seen you in years, jeez. How are you?" Her eyes still remain sad as I assume they always will.

"I'm uh, well." I smile gently. Her eyes look down to my hand.

"Married?"

"Yeah." I reply.

"I'm happy for you." Lily's Mom, Daniella says. "What's her name?"

"May." I say.

"Hm, Sadie has a sister named uh May right?"

"Yeah. I married her sister." I say and she chuckles.

"Well, fate is fate." I always liked Lily's parents. They were always nice to me and made me feel comfortable. They would've made good in laws. "Have you got any kids?"

"I have a son named Finn. And my wife is 6, almost 7 months pregnant. We're having another girl." I speak. Her eyebrows furrow.

"Another?"

"Yeah, we had a daughter named April. But she passed away when she was born." I explain.

"Oh god. I'm so sorry." Her eyes soften at me.

"Thank you."

"How long ago was that?"

"Close to 8 years ago."

Wow.

She would've been 7.

"Would you like to see a photo of Finn?" She nods with a warm smile. I pull out my phone and go my album of him. There are 130 photos of him ranging from when he was born to now.

"This is him now." He has a smile on his lips. His dimples are on his cheeks and his curly hair is ruffled.

"He looks just like you." Daniella says. I look to her and see she's grinning. "He has your wives eyes I assume?"

"Yeah." I smile softly. "Bright blue."

I scroll through slowly. A photo of May and Finn come up making a small smile creep on my lips.

"She's pretty." Lily's Mom compliments.

"Thank you." I say. I lock my phone and look back to Daniella.

"Do you usually visit Lily's grave?" She asks curiously.

"I try to come once a month." I say. "I uh, stopped by today to drop off flowers because I went to see my Mom's." My voice travels off.

Daniella puts her hand over her heart. "Anne passed?" I nod. "Oh my god. I'm so sorry."

"Thanks." I murmur.

"May I ask how long ago?"

"Almost 3 months ago." I say.

"I'm so sorry Harry. You don't deserve any of this." I smile sadly. "Thank you for uh coming by with flowers. It means a lot."

"Of course." I say.

"I never told you this but a year or so ago I went looking through Lily's room, and came across letters. She wrote one for everyone of her friends and family. I have one for you." My heart pinches. "I figured now you wouldn't want it, since it's been so long and you might not care anymore. I just thought you should know now, just in case."

"I would like to read it." I say. "Mail it to me?"

"Sure thing." I give her my address. "It was nice seeing you again Harry. I'm glad everything worked out for you." Her smile is sincere.

"How are you doing?" I ask.

"I'm managing. Uh Lily's brothers have their kids so I'm still a grandma. She was my only daughter though so it's hard knowing she never experienced motherhood. But, you gotta keep going, right?"

"Right."

"I'll send you the letter when I get home."

"Thank you."

"No need." We bid our goodbyes and I walk to my car. My chest feels heavy and so does my head.

***

It's 8 now.

Finn is in bed with BJ...I still don't like that name.

May and I are downstairs watching TV.

"How was your day?" She asks me.

"Okay. Yours?"

"Okay." May looks at me. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I say. She kisses my cheek.

"You look sad." Her hand holds mine.

"Just tired. I'm gonna go to bed, okay?" I stand up.

"O-Okay." She stammers. I leave the living room and walk upstairs.

When I get to my room I see Baxter sleeping at the end of the bed as he always does. I slip off my sweatpants and keep my boxers on. I climb into my side. I turn off my lamp and close my eyes.

My mind is on what the letter says and what it may not.

Maybe I'll actually have closure with everything.

A://N

A few things

1) do you guys want to read the letter???

2) I'm surprised most of you guys want them to name their daughter Lily ???? I feel like some were being sarcastic ???? were you or were some of you serious ???

3) I'm thinking about making a twitter. I can easily log into their to tweet stuff like when I'm updating, I can do polls etc, what do you guys think???

Either way I'll still keep my snap! Let me know what you think about the Twitter idea tho (:

~Lauren