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Chapter 11

Lilly's P.O.V

"Killian?"

I can't believe that it's him. From the moment that I heard that he's alive, I knew that I'd have to see him again, but I never expected it to be like this. Here he is, standing in front of me, very much alive. I didn't know what to do, we both just stood there frozen.

"Killian"

I said again, raising my hand to touch his face. I wanted to make sure that he wasn't an illusion, that brain wasn't playing tricks on me. However, when my hand touched his face, I knew he was real. At that moment, my world felt like just a little brighter.

He looked at me with disbelief. Taking me in from head to toe. The hand that he had on my shoulder got a little tighter. Raising the other hand, he brought it to my face, slowly stroking it.

"Lilly, baby."

We were both so shocked to see each other that we just stood there staring into each other's eyes, not saying a word.

It was like time, which had stood still for seven years, restarted itself the moment our eyes met.

The shocked look fell away from his face and was replaced with a smile. I couldn't help it, I smiled too.

"God, you're even more beautiful than before." He whispered.

I responded with, "I've missed you so much."

He smiled again, looking just as handsome as the day I last saw him. "Saying the words, I miss you, does not even begin to explain the agony I felt from your absence, woman."

His hand left my shoulder and dropped to my waist. "I think I'll show you instead."

His lips were on mine faster than I could process the meaning of his words. And the moment our lips touch, I felt completely alive for the first time in seven years. My lips parted and moved on their own with no encouragement from him. I closed my eyes and let the moment take me. With every stroke of his tongue against mine, a new fire was lit in me and memories of us started to flood my head.

Meeting him in the club. The first time we kissed. The first time we made love. The first time I told him I loved him. The first time he told me he loved me and the last time I saw him alive.

He deepened the kiss and I pressed my body shamelessly against his. The kiss was slow and passionate, telling me everything that I need to know. The last seven years were hell for both of us.

I let him kiss me and I kissed him back. We were both so caught up in each other that it took us a while to hear the commotion outside the building. He slowly let his lips fell away from mine and rested his head against mine. Eyes still closed.

"Mine" he whispered against my lips.

I didn't say the words out loud, but I echoed it in my head. "Yours, definitely yours."

He pulled away and looked at me and at the moment, reality sunk in. What the f**k am I doing? I have a stable life and two kids to think about, I couldn't let my feelings get in the way of that. And besides, I have Noah now, I couldn't possibly hurt me after all that he's done for me.

He saw the look on my face and his eyes narrowed. "Don't even f**king think about it, woman. I will find you even if you hide in the depths of hell."

"Boss!" One of his men shouted, "We're got to get out of here!"

Killian grabbed my hand, "You're coming with me." I didn't protest. Instead, I followed behind him, waiting for my chance to break free. The moment came when we exited the building and Levi shot at Killian, forcing him to let go of my hand.

I ran but looked back to make sure that he wasn't hurt. His men were running towards him, hoping to get to him because he was unarmed and out in the open. I looked to my left, only to see Levi with his gun pointed at Killian. I looked back at Killian's men and realised that they were not going to get to him in time.

"NO!" I screamed. I couldn't lose him again. "LEVI, NO! STOP!"

Levi, stopped, turning to look at me. "Don't kill him," I whispered under my breath. All the fight leaving me. "I love him."

He dropped his gun and ran to me. I took one last longing look at Killian then turn and left with Levi.

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Lilly's P.O.V

When I first met Killian, all I wanted to do was run from him, but then I got to know him and fell hopelessly in love that the thought of being away from him broke my heart.

Now, here I am desperately trying to get away from him again, only this time it's to save the life that I've built for myself. I do love him, but love is just not enough anymore, not when I have a family to protect.

I checked in my rear-view mirror as I drive, but it didn't look like anyone was following me. My nerves were on edge and I was shaking slightly. I didn't want to stop driving, but I knew I had to pull over or I might crash the car. When I felt safe enough, I pulled the car into the parking lot of a busy supermarket. Looking around, I only relax when I was sure that I wasn't followed.

I sighed deeply and rest my head of the steering wheel. Killian's face kept playing back in my head. I couldn't believe that I saw him. I felt him.

All those emotions that I felt the day I walked away from him came rushing back. I let the tears fall freely as I let myself feel. I wanted to scream and shout. I wanted to curse life for the f**ked up cards that I've been dealt. However, I knew that I couldn't waste time feeling sorry for myself, I had to act quick.

Straightening myself as best as I could, I got my phone out and called Noah, but he wasn't picking up. I swore when I tried three more times and still no answer. Deciding to just leave him a message, I started the car and made my way home.

Everything in me wanted to run, to just pack my family up and run. But I was tired of running, this time I was going to stay and fight for what is mine. Even if the person I'm fighting if the love of my life.

I was preoccupied with my thoughts that I didn't see the black car that pulled away from my drive just as I was about to drive in. Without locking the car, I rushed to the house, wanting to make sure that my kids were okay. Using my keys, I entered the house and was met with silence. My first thought was that the girls must have gone to bed early, so I put my bag and keys on the table next to the door and quickly made my way up the stairs.

I checked Freya's room first, but she wasn't there. I didn't think anything of this as when I'm out late she would sometimes sleep in her sister's bed, or they'll both bunk in my bed.

I moved on to Rose's room, and again this was empty as well. I was starting to feel slightly uneasy, but I reassured myself that there was nothing to worry about because they must be in my room. However, all my fears were realised when I got to my room and saw that the bed was still made, and the girls were nowhere to be found.

Everything in me wanted to freak out, but I keep telling myself that they were okay, they had to be okay. I ran back down the stairs and grabbed my phone out of my bag. With shaking hands, I rang Noah, this time he answered on the first ring.

"Sorry Angel, I missed your calls earlier. I was just finishing up my shift."

I tried to stay calm as I spoke.

"Hey Noah, are the girls with you? I came home and they're not here?"

I prayed with everything in me that he'd say yes, but when he answered no, I felt my heart drop into the pits of hell. I couldn't hold back any longer, I started shaking uncontrollably. My breathing got heavy and I was finding it hard to take in my next breath.

They couldn't be gone. Killian wouldn't do something so horrible to me, would he? Why would he take my kids?

"Angel, what's going on, talk to me?"

At that moment, I realised that I had to tell Noah that I saw Killian, but I knew that I couldn't tell him exactly how and where I saw him. I calmed myself as best as I could and made up a story about seeing Killian at the grocery store and that I somehow manage to get away from him before coming home to find the girls gone.

Apart of me felt bad for lying to him, but I knew that he wouldn't understand why I do what I do.

"Stay where you are Lilly, I'm on my way home. Don't worry baby, we'll get our girls back and end your nightmares once and for all."

I heard the conviction in Noah's voice, but I didn't believe it. I knew that Killian would never let me go again. Noah wanted to end my nightmares, but little did he know, my nightmares were only just beginning.

After we hang up, I called Kinsley, hoping she would be able to tell me where my kids were.

"I'm sorry Lil, but Killian didn't take them. He came home about an hour ago, and he looked really pissed off, but there were no kids in tow."

I wanted to believe her, but the fact that my kids were missing at the exact time that I saw him again was too much of a coincident, even for me.

"How else would you explain them being missing?! Please, Kinsley, I'll do anything he wants, just ask him to give me my girls back. Please."

Her voice got soft. "Lilly, calm down, I'm sure Killian didn't take your kids, but if he did, I'll make sure that you get them back safely. Leave it with me, I'll do some digging and get back to you, in the meanwhile, don't do anything stupid, okay?"

I didn't respond to her, instead, I told her to keep her phone on her because I'd be calling her back in 30 minutes. When I got off the phone with her, Noah came rushing through the door. I took one look at him and broke down. He scooped me up in his arms, holding me as I cried my eyes out.

When I was calmed enough, he looked at me and all I saw was love, determination and anger, so much anger.

"I promise you, Angel, we'll get our girls back and when they're back, I'm going to make sure to kill anyone or anything that dare to put that scared and broken look in your eyes again."

I nodded my head, wanting to believe him, but knowing the truth.

Just as I was thinking of ways to get my kids back from Killian, my phone rang. I picked it up without checking the caller's ID because I was hoping that it was Kinsley calling me back, but it wasn't.

"Hello," I answered, my voice shaking.

"Mummy, I'm scared"

The sound of my baby's voice, so filled with fear broke me. I grabbed the phone tighter, looking at Noah.

"Rosey? Baby, are you okay? Are you hurt? Where are you?"

Noah grabbed the phone from me and put it on speaker. "Rose sweetie, are you okay? Is Freya with you?"

Rose never got a chance to answer because someone else came on the phone. The moment I heard the voice I knew exactly who it was and as much as I was filled with fear, I was filled with rage.

"Oh, don't worry about your little Rosey, Lilly, auntie Natasha will take very good care of her for you."

My heart dropped and I started shouting at the phone. "Don't you dare hurt my kids, Natasha! Do you hear me? I promise I'll kill you if you harm one single strand of hair on their head!"

She laughed historically, sending cold chills down my spine. "Not before I kill you, bitch. Have fun trying to find me." She said in a sing-song tone before she hung up.

My heart was beating fast, it felt like it was about to beat right out of my chest and the sound was so loud in my ears that I didn't hear Noah calling my name.

"Lilly, can you hear me? Lilly!"

I finally looked at him, fear so strong took over me that all I could do was stare at him. He was talking to me, saying something but I could hear him. I just had one thought in my head. I had to get my kids back and there was only one person who can get them back safe.

Noah still held the phone in his hand. I ignored him, not paying any attention to what he was saying. Instead, I grabbed my phone back from him and called Kinsley back. She didn't answer on the first try, so I tried a second time. I was shaking so bad that Noah tried to take the phone from me, but I wouldn't let him.

"Let go, Noah!"

He grabbed my shoulders instead. "Calm down, Angel. I'm going to get our girls back, baby, I promise you."

I shook my head, not believing him. "No, Noah. She's got my babies, and she's not going to just hand them over."

I knew that there was no way Natasha was going to make it easy for me to get my kids back, and I knew that if I wanted to get them back safe I'd have to enlist help from a more powerful force than myself.

I looked Noah in his eyes as I spoke, "You can't Noah. You don't know what Natasha is capable of. You can't help them! you can't get them back!"

He held my face in his hands, "Yes, I can baby."

I shook my head, "No you can't Noah."

"Well, if I can't then who the f**k can?"

Before I could even answer him, a voice behind me said, "I can."

Both Noah and I turned at the same time to see Killian, Mic, Kinsley, and another girl standing at the still-open front door.

Just like before, my heart skipped a beat. Standing in my house was the man that I thought was dead for seven years.

"Killian," I said softly.

His eyes felt Noah and fell on me. A bright smile took over his handsome face, and just like before, I felt captive by it.

"Honey, I'm home."