I am not afraid anymore, standing in the eyes of the storm.
Ready to face it, dying to taste it. Sick sweet and warmth.

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Parker's pov

A lady, i don't know the name of walked towards me with a big smile, showing off her white teeth, that was the moment I realized i need my assistant to whisper who the hell she was.

It was most of the time Nora, but we all know what she did, so now it's (Y/n), which disappeared already.

"Hi, it's nice to see you again." I played it smoothly, she went for my hand and held it like a diamond.

"Mr Parker! We were the only two who believe in you from the beginning, we know those were false charges!" She showed me her husband, Mr Something I don't remember. "You are a good man, we knew it, we were on your side!"

I would be an idiot to believe that, nobody believed in me or anything, everyone is easily convinced by the media, i faked a smile at them. "Thanks for coming."

She was dying to make more conversation but I pretend that I had something to talk with Thor who just walk passed.

"Excuse me. Thor! About the charity!"

I waited until we walked far from them enough then just stopped and sipped wines.

"What charity?" Thor didn't get it, he was still very confused.

"Nothing. Just--- have you seen (Y/n), when did she even sneak away?"

"I saw her walked out of the car with you and said hello to us then that's it, what is going on between the two of you? I don't want to be a nosy god eh, but i can sense it."

"She brought me out of jail, by herself, can you believe it?"

"Oh? Great." Thor smiled.

"Then she wanted us to end, like she doesn't love me no more."

"Oh? Bad." Thor twisted his blonde brows.

"But i'm not a good person, so i'm forcing her to be with me."

"Oh..?" He stopped, deciding if he should add 'Great' or 'Bad'. "Not so good not so bad." He said.

"Thanks for taking care of her mother back then." I said, still looking around to find her.

"It's alright, all i did was take her to safety, you know? I tried to make it...."

I didn't catch what Thor said after then as my eyes noticed T'Challa and (Y/n) were laughing together, all sounds was replaced by this disturbing noises.

I didn't know what to curse, i was confused, (Y/n) has never been a talkative type of person before or now, so why the hell is she smiling at that cat the way she used to smile at me?

I almost jumped up the stairs in my super strength speed and rushed to the second floor's balcony, I walked in the scene and all she did was glanced over and smile politely once then looked away.

"Parker! It's such a relief to have you back, i was so worried hearing that awful news." T'Challa smiled at me, i shook his hand and tried to be as nice as i can manage myself.

"It's great to be back. I didn't know you can come to this party." I asked ironically since I didn't want him to be here that much. Don't get me wrong, we are great friends, until he made my girl laugh when i can't.

"Wakanda and the world is at peace, my friend. I was just telling (Y/n) about my old time."

He called her by her first name.

   Triggered.

   "Ms (L/n), i need you back inside the party with me." I gave her a death glares, she didn't care.

   "Won't that be rude to the king? We barely just talk, i love his stories too, don't freeze right? Then you froze in the river." She laughed, she was bluffing me hard.

   "Ms (L/n)---" I tried to get her attention but another person joined.

   "Good evening Thor, i've missed you." She smiled softly at him.

   What ever she is doing... fucking me up real bad. I feel blood flow underneath my veins and it felt almost impossible to fake a smile, what is this? Jealousy? Never felt this feeling this strong before.

To the right moment other were making conversation I pulled her in by her wrist, whispered to her ears real close, i can feel her shudder to my warm breath.

"You're going to regret doing this."

With boldness left in her she whispered back. "Regret doing what, sir?"

"Whatever it is in your head, you are mine and mine alone and i don't like it when what's mine is not under my control." My left wrapped around her, my fingers touched along down her waistline, she froze like that T'challa joke she was enjoying.

"What are you doing-- People is going to see--" She stuttered, trying to move my hands away from her body but my grip was too strong.

"Do you think i care that they will see I touch you?"

"..." She said nothing like she lost this bet, and turned away from me, cursing something about me with her smart mouth, i let her go and joined the group's conversation, she stop misbehaving and just pouted.

   "...Like, Peter!" Thor said, I tilted my head.

   "What like me?" I asked.

   "I thought you were listening to my story..." Thor said sadly.

   "Sorry, space out about my company's business." I lied.

   T'Challa was smart, he saw the whole picture about what happened between me and (Y/n) with just a glance, while Thor just continued his Asgard joke.

   The king grinned at me, and nodded.

   "Thor, i heard there are some really, really good glasses of champagne for us downstairs." He invited Thor.

   "Oh? Really? I really want one."

   "Then let's go."

   He took Thor away for the two of us to be alone. Thank you T'Challa.

   I stared at her who won't stare at me. "That was unforgivable." I said.

   "What? Communicating with your friends? I can't talk with people now?" She looked at the distance, like it was more important than me.

   "You were not just talking, you were flitting, anyone can see that. Where you trying to make me jealous? Because it sure damn works."

   "He was a nice person to speak with, that's all, unlike you now, you're so cold as ice and an asshole at the same time, standing near you now makes my world dark and depressing, you're thinking i changed well you changed too, a lot."

   "Me? Change?"

   "Yes, you change your mood and how you treat me so fast, today i am your princess tomorrow i am your slave, then another day you stopped believing in me and left to be in jail forever!"

   "You're still not over that?"

   "Stop being a jerk Peter!" You shouted at me by my real name, it stopped me. "You painted my world so colorful back then and i loved it, but it was like a guessing game for me that after this situation we will get through, which version of you will show up, which color of you i will get."

   "..." I can't say nothing, and i hate it that she's right.

   "You're like a Fifty shade of madness, and i can't live wondering every night if tomorrow you will leave me."

   She went closer, stared closely to my eyes, almost likely begging me as she speak. "That's why... that's why..." She stopped, hesitated, but then decided to say it anyway.

   "I'm seeing someone new."

   All the sound in this world was replaced by nothing, i felt a blackhole collapse inside of my left chest and all the act of cold and mean to cover up the fact that i need her more than anything has disappeared, all my emotions were showing for the first time in a while.

   "Who... is it...?" I asked, i can't even hear my voice as I spoke.

   "I'm sorry, Peter, this is so you can understand why we have to end it and this is not a chasing game anymore."

   "Who is it?" I was shaking, anger and sadness was in control of me.

   "Harrison."

   I don't know what to do, to think or to say. It's blank, everything is so blank, I'm feeling empty.

   "I hope you will let me go."

   She said that then left me.

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