dear calum;

well, here you go
another letter of me missing you
somehow i can't not cry
when you're gone

maybe i'm just being a baby
i'll feel better soon,
i think i'm just having a moment

tonight i dreamed of you
thought i should mention it
i can't remember what really happened
but i'm sure you were there

and when i suddenly woke up
you just came to mind
and i started bawling my eyes out

it was one of those nights
when you wake up from a dream
and either start crying
or hysterically laughing

i cried, because i thought of you
you mean so much to me
and i don't think you completely know that

it's like 4 am here
and the sun hasn't even come up yet
you're probably out,
eating dinner at some awesome restaurant

i don't think i can go back to sleep
but i'm tired...

maybe i'm just afraid
of thinking of you again

pfft...i'm probably being silly
overreacting,
being dramatic

well, it is 4 am;
things get deep and personal
when it's deep during the night

i'll go back to sleep
it's what you'd want for me
knowing every time i get up because
i can't sleep in the first place
and you always hold me down
on the bed and lull me to sleep

what's different is that you're not here
not here to hold me
or lull me to sleep
like you always do

it's just me, myself and i

– sincerely
your distressed girlfriend

❁ ❁ ❁
yay new chapter!! i'm starting to update more :D sorry if this sounded quick and not all poetic-like, i just needed to post something;
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