dear calum;

its been weeks since i last wrote
but i've been studying
for my midterms
they're just big tests for what i learned
so far

i've had some mental breakdowns;
the stress is just overwhelming
but you helped me get through it

even though you're gone,
i watch videos of you performing;
the way you'd sing or dance
on stage makes me really happy

it calms me down and i feel better;
even you're jumpy, cute, or genuine persona
still shows even though
you aren't home

you've also texted me back a few times
i'm glad you have time to at least say 'hi'
i was afraid you'd forget me at some point

i swear, tour is just packing my schedule,
i've been wanting to call you but all
i can do right now is text you

you said you miss my voice
don't worry i miss yours too
i miss the i love you
or the usual how's my girl

even in my boredom
i watch videos of you on stage
it's just a form of my entertainment

this letter is a bit short
but i still need to study
just,

text me when you can, okay?

– sincerely
             your stressed girlfriend

❁ ❁ ❁
sorry for the late update :/ i needed to do other things for school and for my fan acc on IG; and sorry if this letter sounded crappy i'm just trying to update for you guys..
anyways, thanks for reading my story (again) it means a lot ♡