It was a sunny day, birds were chirping,the environment felt fresh,all refreshing.
I woke up realising that today was the end of the week. It felt very wrong and tiresoe somehow! I felt a rush of relief as i realised I don't need to get restless today, Atleast for now!

I was tired, Unable to open my eyes,
I guessed I tortured my eyes just way too much yesterday! I sighed.

The sunrays coming from the small crack of the locked window fell right on my left eye, It sparkled, I could see those coulorful stuffs sparkling their best,dancing all along, Really The dance of rainbows.

My eyes went on the clock, sighing again realising i overslept today.
I read a fantasy romance novel all night yesterday, The novel that I bought jusr yesterday from that neighbouring bookstore, I stayed up all night to read that novel, it was obsessive!

"What if i could go to that world where I actually belonged to?"
A sentence uttered out of my mouth,I didn't even realised it,
"I just feel like that is the place I really belong to,I wish I could go back,ho back to my home?"
"what if there was a bridge which would connect the real world with the fictional world?" My mind was filled with those thoughts,making my eyes go blank,
"What if reincarnation was real?" "those novels where the protagonister reincarnates in her favourite novel?" "I want to experience those too" "I wanna feel the happiness they get too?"
Can't I?
Only if it was possible...

I was imagining about silly things that could never happen in life,It wasn't within my limit at all.
I sighed again thinking that,but this time it was of diseapoinment and something else.

Alse!!! shit... I have to brush my teeth and do those ordinary and boring things I always do.

When I was brushing my teeth half asleep,I saw my face in the mirror.
"Only if this mirror could connect the real world with that fictional world"
saying that my finger tips embraced the mirror,wondering what if I really reincarnate in that world.

But it didn't...

Then, I decided to read it again.
No matter how many times I read it, again and again, I'd never get over it, I believed that.

The each sentence, The each line gave me comfort and feeling butterflies in my stomach.
Specially when he said "i love you"
What if he had said it to me instead of her?
Then again I started to read it out loud,each word,each line,each sentence.
"I'd love you all my life until my last breath,I wanna love you till my death,and more if possible."
"Even if u don't give it back"

Yes,he was that guy who was ignored all of the time, By the the female lead or the readers, everyone!
I dont know how he catched my eyes somehow? Maybe he was special? Or destined?

What if the protagonister was me?Instead of her.
it'd have been too beautiful, A very beautiful experience,I wish I could be her...

At that time I realized it was the last page of the novel, A soft look of diseapoinment formed in my face,
it was page number 488.
as time passed and I reached the last sentence, Another diseapoinment formed both in my mood and mind, trying to calm myself,I read the last line, that was "I hope for your happiness" yes,It was him,The guy everyone ignored, although it was a happy ending,but my heart was aching,my eyes were filled with tears I did not knew if it was tears of happiness or a feeling that says that you're completely helpless?
The ending was supposed to be a happy ending but it didn't felt like that.
If I would've there I'd have comforted him,love him like he did to her, would have give back those feelings to him like he gave his feelings to her.

Only if it was "POSSIBLE"

I ate breakfast,lunch, dinner.

The day felt same as everyday
As I sat on my chair to write my diary,it wasn't a diary it was just a notebook.
I wrote my feelings there what I felt today.i wanted him to see it to badly,I wanted to make him feel that there's somebody who loves you too,I wanted to make him special.
As I was scribbling something there,a drop of tear fell on there I knew I had to stop stop writing to now as it was late now.
I layed on the bed,I closed my eyes,facing the ceiling
It wasn't comfortable enough so I changed position,i grabbed a pillow and hugged it tightly imagining what if it was him instead of this pillow
I didn't realized when I dozed of

I saw something bright,it was a big field of dandelions,the sunlight was too bright,it felt like The sun was about to set,I looked at west and saw the red sun which was sparkling like a star,it was just beautiful as those stars I see in the nighttime.
And then I wondered where am I?
As I was checking the surroundings
I saw someone,I couldn't see his face because the sunlight was too bright,it felt like the sunlight was blocking my way.
But from nowwhere I realized thar it's him.I've never met him but my heart said that I know him,that he's someone special.

It felt like forever,I wanted the time to stop.
Then he said something at first, I didn't Heard it,I could hear my heart racing,then again he said something eles but this time I heard it clearly.

he said

"I love you,darling"

It gave me butterflies at that moment,he grabbed me by my waist and hugged me,and I hugged him back,and then
I said

"I love you too,my sweetheart"

his big wide shoulder just covered my whole body.
the time should stop!!!

Beep..beep..beep...
And then I woke up from the sound of the alarm.
"Oh that was just a dream"
I realized that i mistook the pillow as him I was completely flustered and blushing
"so am I really obsessed with him?"

I was still half asleep I wanted to go back and sleep so I could continue the dream but I knew it'll not work.

From nowwhere I got a urge to find that book and see the authors name.
I ran towards my study desk,
it was a mess,I was trying to find it everywhere,even the drawers
But I couldn't.
I felt like a arrow hit me,was it just a imagination?was I imagining things,have I gone crazy?

"Oh,there it is"
and then I found the novel in the last drawer .
I quickly began to check the authors name I couldn't find it anywhere,and then I saw it in the corner,there was a scratch so the authors name was not visible but I could see the authors surnames last 1letter.
Buy it didn't help.

But it wasn't that important though.
I checked the clock then I realized i have school today and it's time for school,
I ran towards my uniform and wore it, there was no time for breakfast so quickly grabbed my lunchbox from the kitchen and told my mom loudly

"I'm late for school,I have no time for breakfast"

I missed the buss and had to walk to school just to get yelled by the teacher why am I late for school,im just too tired of this life I wanna go back where I actually belong to,can I?

After school I was too tired as I had a long lacture from the teacher, I quickly layed on my bed facing the bed then I grabbed the pillow hugging it saying "I'm tired of this life"
My legs were hurting as I walked to home again because I had extra classes and missed the bus again'.

I closed my eyes saying"he's really beautiful" and slept peacefull

When I woke up again at morning because of the alarm

I could hear the sound of those sweet voice of the birds.
I reached downstairs half asleep, I was about to trip but somehow I managed.
When I was brushing my teeth half asleep
I heard a voice out of nowhere.
It came from mirrors irection
I heard someone saying

"I love u but you're real"

At that time tears were filled in my eyes
I couldn't control myself I felt a sudden urge to go to the fictional world,I felt like the other side of the mirror was the world I belonged to.
Then that person said
"I love you"
again
I replied saying

"I love you too"

From nowwhere I began to touch the mirror and finally I punched it
My parents came to me running saying

"are you okay? honey"

I didn't replied to them,I could see the dripping blood flowing out of my hand.
But I was smiling with a feeling of dissatisfaction and happiness.
I was dissatisfied because I couldn't go the world I belong to.
But I was happy because I realized that I could communicate with him In real
I could communicate with him from my imagination,
I'll feel satisfied if I convinced myself that's it's real,that I'm talking with him in real
When they were bandaging me
they said

"are you really okay?"

They looked concerned
"Yes I'm really okay"

When I walked towards my room and sat on my desk.
I started to chat with him
He said "I wanna meet you so badly," "I can feel the warm breeze when you touch my name throughout every single pages"
It fluttered my heart,I could feel the butterflies flying in my stomach.
he said "But unfortunately in the end everything is scripted"
I didn't understand and I ignored that.
Even if all of of these were my imagination I already succeeded myself at convincing myself it was all real.

My parents could hear my laughs and me chatting with nobody from downstairs.

I realized it was already around 6pm

Suddenly he said "may i ask you for a dance?" He then kissed my hand saying that.
My heart was fluttering.

I said "yes"
my cheeks slightly turned red and there was love in my eyes.
I felt the time around us suddenly stopping.
I couldn't see him but I felt like I could see him,I could feel him and his presence,even if it was my imagination,even if it was a feeling I made for myself.
i could feel his dark ocean eyes looking at me with love.
that was the only way he was described in the novel.it was the only feature of him which was mentioned there,it was shining bright like the full moon in the midnight.

this felt like forever.
I could feel a music playing around us,it felt like I was on a ball.
I felt like a Princess.
Each step made me fall for him even more.

Then he suddenly grabbed me by my waist,his hand was warm.

After some weeks later my parents got complaints from the neighbourers.That I was dancing with nobody in the middle of the night out of nowwhere. they constantly saw my shadow from the window.

My parents were looking concerned they asked me to go for therapy.
When I got there,and entered the room of my therapist.
my parents were waiting for me outside of the room.
I explained everything
But he said "I can understand what you're feeling but he's fake in reality and I think it's just Teenage hormones so you'll eventually get over it" "don't worry"
But I said "he's really real" I knew the therapist was right but he said he was completely fake and I couldn't take it."
He again said "he's fake in reality,just move on, you're imagining useless things"
I got mad this time
"I said right he was real"
"you're not responsible for your work at all"
saying tht I grabbed his collar.

The next moment I realized I got out of line,I did a mistake.

My parents came to the room running
At that moment I just didn't wanted to wait a extra second here,i was too embarrassed.
My parents stopped me from leaving but I pushed them slightly,yes I have gone crazy I realized that.

As I was walking in the footpath
I wanted to cry out loud,only if there was a shoulder to comfort me.

"Why am I like this?" "I'm always this messy," "people will probably think I have gone crazy."
Saying that I looked at the sun, it was evening time and it looked really pretty.i sat on the wooden chair next to me.the shadow of the tree next to me covered me.
"Yeah,it's really lovely but "somehow it feels kind of empty," "maybe because you're not with me at this moment to look at this lovely view?"

It'd have been great if he was sitting right beside me right now.

I looked down at the ground
And a drop of water fell on my head.
"Yeah,what a great timing"
It'd have been like the best moment in life if he covered me with the umbrella now.
Then I realized that I nomore feel the drops of water in my head.
I was happy that what if it is really him?
I looked back,