Error's pov

I finished rebooting. All that screaming was horrible. It reminded me of those horrible times; the voices screaming at me, the loneliness, the constant beat-downs, the pained screams of everyone and everything I've destroyed, and who else's screams? Mine. I think I've screamed the most out of everyone. My head hurts still.

"Are you alright Error?"

Time to fake it again. I don't matter. They shouldn't waste their time and efforts on scum like me.

"... MMmMm' fine..."

Those words fail me again. I'm so confused. I hate this. I try and kill myself by jumping into the void, only for a giant memer called Destiny to save me from death which I so desperately wanted, then all of a sudden Ink and Dream know everything and save me. They treat me differently now. I don't get it! I killed SO MANY DAMN PEOPLE! Why couldn't I just die?!

"You don't look very fine to me, Error."

... Why can't he just leave me alone?! I'm not worth anyone's concern! I don't deserve it! I'm disgusting. I'm stained with LV. I just want this to end. I don't want any of this anymore.

"You look awful, you should get some rest."

I rub my temples. Can't they just go back to despising me? I deserved it after all.

"I cAn'T jUsT sLeEp rIgHt AfTeR I rEbOot. If I dO, tHeN mY sYsTem mAy ExpEriEnCe A fAtAl cRaSh AnD I'Ll nEvEr wAkE Up aGAin."

Tch. Maybe I should just go to sleep and never wake up. That sounds nice.

"O-oh... then when can you get some sleep?"

Pfft. Asking me that? You've basically gotten yourself a ticket to depresso espresso land. I want my pain to go away. Before I came here, I hadn't slept in like 7 years-ish. I can't sleep without paranoia, nightmares or vulnerability haunting me. Nothing seems to be going right. But the thing is... when did ANYTHING ever go right?

"I dOn'T nEeD sLeEp. I wAs nEvEr rEaLly AbLe tO sLeEp aNywAy. I dOubT I cAn nOw."

I wish things could be better. I wish I was still in my AU. I wish Fate didn't rip me away. I wish I didn't have any of this LV. I wish I could live normally. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.

"...What kept you from sleeping...?"

...Shit. Should I really tell them about my pathetic problems? Yes, I should. Maybe then they'll realize how pathetic I am and they'll stop wasting time on me.

"tHe vOicEs In tHe aNtI- vOid, nIghTmArEs, iNjUrIeS, pArAnOia, pAiN aNd tHe cReatIon oF nEw AU's."

I told them the truth. I hope that they go back to hating me, so I can have a reason to jump into the void again. I don't want this anymore. It feels like so long ago that I had been wishing for Ink to believe me. For him to stop creating. To stop hurting me. To stop lying. However, Ink only did it because he wanted to protect the other AU's. I was the destroyer, he was the creator. It fit.

"bUt iT's fInE. I dEsErvEd iT. I wAs tHe dEstRoyEr, aFtEr aLl. hEh..."

I feel a tug of hopelessness on my destroyed SOUL. I'm used to it though. When was the last time I ever felt happy? I can't remember. Something is always weighing me down.

"Don't say that, Error...! You didn't deserve any of the suffering you've received!"

Ink's comment actually irritated me. HOW CAN HE EVEN SAY THAT?! I'VE KILLED THOUSANDS! I deserved everything I received. Besides, the saying "what comes around goes around" Doesn't exist for nothing. I destroyed, I felt severe pain. Just how I caused others pain. That's all I've ever really done, is make people suffer. I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO MAKE ANYONE SUFFER!

"wElL wHaT aBouT aLl tHe iNnOcEnTs i'VE kIlLEd, hUh?!"

I can feel self-hatred and rage begin to burn in my chest, but it was coated in a cold layer of incredible sadness. I feel like punching something.

"You didn't want to kill them. You had no choice! It wasn't your fault!"

Ink's right... I didn't want to- no. Doesn't mean I didn't do it. But if I had the choice, I wouldn't have- AGH JUST SHUT UP! WAS IT MY FAULT? YE- NO- JUST STOP IT!!

"I-"

I... I didn't want to hurt anyone. I just wanted to be loved. I want my AU back. I then feel a pair of arms gently pull me forwards. It took me by surprise and I squeaked. Then a second pair of arms wrapped around my waist on the side. I couldn't hold myself back. I let the pain out. I don't really know what I was doing, but I was trying so hard not to cry. I kept my sobs on the inside, but they wracked my body and made me shake. I don't want anymore pain. I shove my skull into whoever's chest this is, hoping for this action to take some of my pain away. I can't see who this is, my eyes are too blurred from the tears threatening to fall. I grip the front of their shirt. It's Ink, because some of my tears stupidly fell onto his shirt, which slightly cleared my vision. The shirt is beige. I didn't want to destroy. I wish that Fate just told Ink a second time. Nobody would've had to die by my hands. These murderous, scarred, worn-down hands of mine. I feel a hand rub my back up and down, while another hand rests on the back of my skull. I feel Dream's head rest on my shoulder. I don't get it- they should hate me! But they don't. The sobs break free. I feel so much pain in my SOUL, but this... why does this make me feel a bit better...? Why are they helping me...?!

"I... *sob* I dOn'T gËt iT... wHÿ aRė yOu h-HeLpIng mĒ?! wHÿ dĪd aLł oF tHosÊ ínŃocÉńtS hÃvÊ tØ *sob* d-dIe?! WHŸ DØËŠ ÊVĖRŸTHĮŃG HÙRT ŠŌ BÃD?!"

My knees became weak and buckled, and more sobs wrack my body. Ink slowly went down with me, and so did Dream.

"Shhhh... it's okay..."

I slightly lean onto Ink. My sobs slowly died down. I eventually was fully leaning on Ink, and Dream had untangled his arms from my waist and simply rested a hand on my shoulder. Ink sat on his knees, and my cheek was pressed up against his chest. I feel a little better, but still very sad. I can still feel the hopelessness weighing down on my shattered SOUL.

"I know things must be horrible for you right now. But believe me, it's gonna get better from here on out. I promise."

A tiny amount of weight lifted off my SOUL. Maybe he is telling the truth...? I don't sense any lies. I can feel sincerity though...

"I'm gonna be here for you."

I sit up and face him. I make direct eye contact with Ink.

"d-Do yOu rEalLY mEan iT...?"

Ink smiles at me.

"I do."