"Kildare. What the hell?" Sarah speaks "you guys think he found his father?" Cleo asks "he's been missing for almost a year" Pope says

"Sarah, what do you think? Should we go back? Kie asks "Sarah, we're sitting ducks right now. We need to make a decision. Are we turning back around, or are we gonna keep going?" Jay asks

"He said go" Sarah says "hold on, listen" Jay says "Go!" Sarah says "Sarah" Jay says "maybe if we'd think for a second we can find another solution" I says

"What other solution Haley?" Sarah asks "I don't know, maybe.... maybe if we'd come back with a plan it won't be so bad, JJ have a gun" I says

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. They think we got away now, they wouldn't expect us" Jay says "you think they won't expect us? That's stupid! Singh probably has guards everywhere expecting for us" Kie says

"If we go back, it's impossible to make it out alive" Sarah says "you are literally saying it's impossible to make it out alive while John B is in there!" I says

"Haley, stop. We're not going back" Sarah says "fuck it" I walks to the other side of the boat "yeah, fuck it!" Sarah says

"This isn't about John B, is it?" Jay sits next to me "it is" I denies "is it about us leaving you?" He insist

"You don't know what it was like to be alone, wonder every day what's going on with you guys" I says "we were wondering the same thing about you" he says

"But you had each other, I had no one. I was left with my thoughts and that was hard doing this by myself" I says

"But you look better, that gives me a little hope that John B could handle that as well" he says "sure, I am fine now, but you don't know what I've been through when you guys weren't here" I says

"What happened?" He asks "I was at rehab, twice" I says "twice? We were on the island for about a month, how is that possible?" He asks

"I ran away the first time and relapsed" I answers "then what made you come back?" He asks

"Uh... I just wanted to get better" I says, it's not the complete truth. I don't want to tell him about my overdose, I don't want him to know it was that bad

John B is out there alone and I just don't want to freak him out more about it. I don't need him to know how bad it actually got

I know John B is more stable, I know he can handle things better than me. But the Pogues is everything to Jay, especially John B. He would die for any of us and I just don't want him to worry

When we'll get back to the island, I'll tell him. When we'll be with John B.

"You sure there's nothing more? It seems like something is bothering you" He says "I am just tired" I lays my head on his shoulder

"Hey, uh..." he rubs his back of his neck "yeah?" I asks "what are we? I mean, we ended up things kind of blurry and I just wanted to know-" he says but I cuts him off by leaning him into a kiss

"I love you Jay" I says "I love you too" he says with a big smile "you said when we'll be back and I'll get better we can be together. And here I am, sober and better" I says

"I just wanted to give you time, I never stopped loving you. I just though you would be better if we'd be on a break so you could focus on yourself" he explains "it's okay to say it was too much for you" I says

"But you weren't too much, I just wanted what is best for you" he says "you broke up with me. And I don't blame you I just want you to be honest and don't give me this 'I did this for you, conversation" I says

"I just... I didn't know what to do. I am sorry" he sighs "don't be sorry" I shakes my head

"You know... I though you might be different, but you're just the same old Haley" he says making me smile

"I am not going to leave you ever again" he adds "you didn't leave me, you were unconscious" I says

"I mean... the Pogues didn't left me either, they didn't have a choice. You guys were smart for not coming back" I says "I don't believe you" he says

"What?" I asks "you refuse that we'd leave John B" He asks "it's different" I shrugs "what is?" He asks

"You know what? Yeah, I wish you stayed. But that doesn't change anything, I can't blame you guys" I says "that's fair" he says

"What happened while we were gone?" He asks "I told you what happened already" I says "but I feel like you're keeping something, you are not confident like you used to be, it's like you lost your spark" he says

"I relapsed, I was in rehab, I ran away, I came back to rehab and got sober. That's it" I says

"I have so many questions" he says "well... what do you wanna know?" I asks "everything" he answers "everything?" I repeats "yeah" he assures me "where do I starts from?" I laughs it off

"My mom took me straight to rehab when I was back to the outer banks, I wanted to. In rehab I met a boy named Jesse, we went to his place. He lives with his aunt but she was out of town. He's a drug dealer and he had drugs in his place" I starts

"Then he overdosed, he survived but an ambulance took him and I had no where to go and I was back at rehab again, the second time I was in rehab they got me a therapist, John, and they transformed Jesse into a different rehab. John really helped me and I am planning on keep seeing him out of rehab" I says

"That's great that you're getting help, I am really happy for you" he says "yeah, everything seemed like the end of the world without you. It kinda was. But I had my mom and John" I says

"This Jesse guy sounds like a dick" he says "why?" I asks "when you were with him you ran away and he overdosed, when you came back in the second time you got better, it sounds like it would have been a lot easier if he wasn't there" he says

"That's not his fault, if I was stronger I was the one who forced him to ran away" I says "then what changed your mind?" He asks "I just changed my perspective... I don't know" I says

I do know. I just can't tell him that I overdosed and that's what changed my perspective, I don't want to die I just didn't want to feel pain anymore and that seemed like the only way

I don't want Jay to look at me different if I tell him I overdosed, I can't risk that after I haven't seen him in so long

"But I still don't understand the whole Singh and Rafe thing" he says "what don't you understand?" I asks

"You told me Singh wanted to talk to you, but what does it have to do with him buying Rafe's cross?" He asks

"Rafe said Singh wouldn't agree to meet him without me being there" I answers "so you helped Rafe? I don't get it" He says

"I told you my mom said it could be a way to earn the cross back, but the deal was fake. Also part of me wanted to help him" I says "how could you trust Rafe after everything?" He asks

"You have to understand one thing, where normal people have a heart, Rafe Cameron has a bottomless black whole, and if you don't watch out you can fall in and get lost forever. I don't trust him, but I felt the need to be there and yeah, maybe help him" I says

"You didn't watch out, did you?" He asks, I shakes my head "but you're not lost forever" he says

"I am not the same. I thought I lost everything because I begun to be friends with you and the Pogues, but the point everything started going down was when I met him. You guys tried to help, but you couldn't" I says

"Even if I am better now, I am still screwed up. I can't trust anyone, I can't open up, I can barely sleep. Fuck it I even got into drugs. That's some shit that will stick with me" I adds

"It's crazy how one person can affect your life, and you still feel sympathy for him?" He asks "That's the thing about him, I hate him more than anything but I just... I didn't do it for him, I did it for me." I says

"What does it gave you?" He asks "proving him I am not like him" I answers, he nods

"I feel like I was never able to forget anyone I've been with. Because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never really replace anyone. What is lost is lost" I starts

"Each relationship when it ends, it really damage me, I never really fully recovered. That's why I am careful getting involved, because it hurts too much" I says

"Well, I am happy you chose to get involved with me" he faces me "how couldn't I?" I smiles "I think it's beautiful that you see it that way though" he says

"Yeah?" I asks "I like the way you thinks, you have a big heart" he says

"I missed you" he kisses my head "yeah, me too" I says "do you have any cigarette on you?" I asks "we were on a desert island, Haley. I don't have cigarette on me" he says

"I was just asking" I says as he puts his hand around my neck "I think you lost a couple of brain cells from the drugs" he laughs before I hit him

"Hey!" He says "I barely even touched you!" I says "that's not true" he says "whatever, drama Queen" I rolls my eyes

"What did you just called me?" He says "a drama Queen" I says before he lifts me, we stopped for gas so the boat wasn't moving and I realised what this moron was doing

"Wait, wait, wait, wait. Pull me down!" I says as he goes to the top of the boat

"Take it back" he says "what?" I asks "take what you said back" he says "no way, drama Queen!" I says as he shake me, acting like he is going to drop me to the water making me gasp and strength my grip of my arms around his neck

"Jay, it's not funny, pull me down it's freezing" I says "your ego is going to kill you someday" he "no, you are going to kill me someday!" says "JJ?" Sarah asks

"What are you doing?" Kie asks "teaching Haley a lesson" he says "No, Jay, I swear to god-" I says but before I could finish the sentence we were both in the water

"I fucking hate you, you know that?" I says "you could have just taken it back" he says "never, drama Queen" I chuckles

"You just don't learn, do you?" He says, I gets closer to him and kisses him as I wraps my legs around his waist. He holds me by wrapping his hands around me

We both smiles at each other and makes an eye contact for a few seconds

"I could die right now, Hales. I am just... happy" he says before I leans closer to him and rest my head on his shoulder

"Oh, I love you so much" I smiles before he starts spinning me around "I love you, Haley. Grace Baker!" He says as we both starts laughing

A/n: this chapter is mostly about JJ&Haley because I missed them and I felt like it was needed🙏