"Hales are you okay?" Jay whispers as we all were on our way to the police stations.

"How can I be okay?" I says as my gaze was at the window. I always loved drives, I always loved the view, I loved how I can clear my mind through it

But right now, the silence only made me think about Frank and Peterkin, I don't think it's a good thing for me to be in silence, it makes me think.

Every time I think, I think about Peterkin. I see her begging for air, I see the person who used to be my father standing there and letting this happen. He just stood there.

We haven't got the chance to get to our houses. Peterkin blood is still on my hands, every time I look at my hands I feel the blame and the shame that I carry since I left her there, dying.

"John B what are we doing at the police station?" Jay asks as we arrives "somebody's gotta tell them what happened" John B says before Pope starts coughing after he hit JJs joint

"Easy there, chief" Jay says as Pope continues coughing "all right. I am just gonna be real with you right now, you might end up in the lion's den, but you don't go there on purpose" Jay says

"Just like my old man always told me, you should ever ever trust cops. No matter what the circumstances is" he adds "I agree with JJ. Fuck the police" Pope speaks

"You know what? Peterkin was good. I am sorry I haven't got the chance to make you guys see that but she was on my side!" I snaps

"Hales clam down" Jay says "No! John B is right, they need to know the fucking truth" I says getting out of the car

"Haley wait" John B says following me "I am coming with you" he adds and I nod before we gets into the station

"Um... excuse me ma'am" John B says to the dispatcher as we hear her talking on the radio "this is not a good time kids" she says "I know who shot the sheriff" John B speaks making her look at us

"You stay put" she says before walking away "you don't have to do this, you can go back to the others" John B says "I have to, for Peterkin" I says

"Central, three buck. We have suspect in our 31. John Rougtldge" we hears on the radio and we share a look "motherfuckers-" I says before two cops enters the room

"Just... breath all right?" The cop says "let me see your hands" the other one says "John B do what he says" she says as we both raises our hands

"He didn't do it okay?" I says "don't... move" the cop says "don't move!" He screams as we both ran away and I feel a person grabbing me

"Run after John B!" She says grabbing my hand and handcuffing them "Johm B run!" I yells

"You're coming with us" she puts me in a car "listen to me, he didn't do it!" I says "we'll see about that" she sits in the front seat as we were waiting for the other cop to come back

He comes back a few minutes after alone, seems upset. He wasn't with John B so I was more relax to know that he got away

"Don't worry we'll catch him" the cop says "you better tell the fucking truth" the cop that ran after John B says looking at me, he looks back at the road and starts driving

I saw them around in the police station but I've never really got to know them, whenever I was in trouble Peterkin was always have been there, I don't really know why she did that for me but I will always be grateful for her for that. I wish u could have gotten that conversation she promised we'd have before everything happened.

We arrives at the station and they put me in the Shoupe's office, after a while Shoupe comes in

"Shoupe, listen to me it wasn't John B it was Rafe Cameron who shot Peterkin" I quickly says as he sits in front of me

"I know John B is your friend but you can't protect him, he killed Peterkin!" Shoupe says "No, he didn't! Listen to me very clearly. It was Rafe Cameron!" I snaps

"Seriously?" he says unconvinced "I was there with Peterkin, I saw everything!" I says

"It was Rafe!" I tells him again "Rafe? Seriously?" He chuckles "yes! Peterkin was arresting Ward and Frank and then Rafe shot her" I says

"Why would she arrest them?" He asks "they murdered big John" I says

"Come on! This is bullshit. She would have told me something as big as this" he says "I am talking about my dad, why would I lie?" I asks "Peterkin always told me how you'd protect your friends" he says

"But I loved Peterkin, I would never lie about that" I says "please, I am telling the truth" I adds

"Peterkin would've told me if she'd arrest Ward and Frank, you're lying" he says "I am not!" I says

"No! Shoupe please, you have to believe me" I says "isn't Rafe your ex boyfriend?" He asks "what does it have to do with anything-" I asks

"Your friend killed a cop so you're framing your ex boyfriend and making up stories about his family? About your family?" He says "no! For fuck sakes. Are you even listening to me?" I says

"You know, Peterkin loved you, I don't get why... but she did. She'd be so disappointed" he says before standing up "No, Shoupe. Please, believe me. I swear to god I am telling the truth" I says as I feels my eyes gets watery

"You know what? Peterkin would be disappointed in you, you just sit on your ass doing nothing while she is dead! And you're not even trying to listen to me" I snaps

"It's a waste of time" he says as he walk away "no! Shoupe! No! Just listen to me!" I yells before he walks away, a cop comes in and put n handcuffs on me, he puts me in a cell

"Get back here!" I yells "please!" I sobs before I sit down, on the cold bed

I've never been a fan of Shoupe, Peterkin was his friend and he won't even listen to what I have to say

I mean I get why it sounds crazy but he won't even make an effort to figure out if I am lying or not, it's so upsetting that he won't do shit.

The door opens after a few hours and I see Shoupe again, he walks towards me with keys

He unlocks my hands cuff and leads me to the dispatcher "since we don't have evidence of your friend John B, you're allowed to go home. But he's still a suspect and wanted criminal" he says, I roll my eyes before I walks away and sees my mom walks in

"Mom" I says before I ran towards her and hugs her "I am here baby" she says "Ms. Baker, I would need to have talk with you" Shoupe says "wait for me in the car" she says giving me the k ye to the car

I walk outside and sees my mom's car, I walks in. After a while my mom shows up and gets to the driver seat next to me

"Mom, whatever he said don't believe any of it" I says "that's what he told me about you" she starts the car

"And who are you going to believe? A cop or your daughter?" I asks "I- I don't know. I just know you loved Peterkin and you're not thinking straight" she says

"John B didn't killed her!" I says "calm down" she says "look, I am not saying he did, but at least until we'll find out and everything, you're not going outside the house" she says

"the murder is inside the house!" I says and she parks the car in our parking lot "you would not call your father a murder. I don't give a damn about what your friends put inside your head, I should've listen to your father" she gets out of the car

"I was there with Peterkin! I saw everything" I follows her "what do you mean?" she stops and looks at me

"I was there, I saw Rafe shoots Peterkin and dad standing there doing nothing" I says "oh, bullshit!" She says as she enters the house "this isn't-" I says but gets interrupted

"Haley" Frank says, the person I least wants to see right now. "You-" I says "Haley watch it" my mom steps in

"You took everything away from me!" I snaps "Haley- are you even hearing yourself?" Frank says

"Go to your room, right now." My mom says "we both know the truth" I says as I walks pass Frank, I haven't looked at him though

"Haley?" Frank enters my room "you can lie to mom but you can't fool me." I says as my gaze was still on the book I was reading

"You can't hate me forever" he says "watch me" I says in a cold tone "come on, just look at me" he says "I can't, every time I do I see Peterkin's face, and see yours, doing nothing"

"I know I did some bad things but it was for our family, it's for you" he says "you killed Big John." I says

"You killed Peterkin" I adds as I finally look at him with furious "I didn't pull the trigger" he says

"But you did stood there and did nothing. If you would have done something she'd be here right now! She'd be alive!" I snaps

"She's dead because of you. And I would never forgive you for that. You know how much I loved her" I says "and you just ran away" he says

"Excuse me?" I asks "we both made bad decisions" he says "yet you think we're the same?" I shakes me head

"I am nothing like you. Get out of my room, you're dead to me" I adds "Honey, you don't mean that" he says "I do, I mean every fucking word. You're not my father" I says

"I know I fucked up, okay? But I did all of thus for you" he says "stop saying that, you don't give a shit about me! If you'd give a shit about me you wouldn't kill my friend's dad! You wouldn't kill Peterkin!" I says with tears

"I see you're angry, I'll leave you alone" he says before he walks away and I hear the doors lock and I realise he locked me up here.

"Are you seriously locking me up?" I bangs on the door "fuck you! You're fucking dead to me!" I shouts.

No one is on my side. Peterkin is not here, my mom took Frank's side and I don't even allowed to be with the only people who knows what happened. I am on my own.

-

It was midnight, I couldn't sleep. I couldn't stop thinking about Peterkin and about everything that happened in the past few days, it was too much.

And then suddenly I hear bangs on my window, I walk towards my window and sees Jay "I am so happy to see you right now" I opens the window "come on, we gotta go" he says

"My door is locked, my parents locked me" I says "come on" he says as he opens his arms "from the window?" I whispers-yells

"Don't worry, I'll hold you" he says, I hesitate at first, I looks down through my window, it was pretty high. I am on the third floor

But, honestly, I'd rather fall from the third floor and die than spend another second in this house.

"Fuck it" I says before Jay helps me jump to the second floor's roof "how are we gonna get down?" I ask

"Just trust me" he says as he takes my hand and we jump on a tree close to my house "now, we jump" he says "are you fucking kidding me?" I asks

"Come on, together" he says as he holds my hand tighter to assure me he got me "okay" I nods as I takes a deep breath

"3... 2... 1..." he counts, we both jump "for fuck sakes" I says as I scratch my knees "well it wasn't that bad" he shrugs

"My legs were finally getting better dude" I groans as he helps me stand up "come on, we gotta go" he says and he leads me to Kie's car

"Missed me?" I asks as me and Jay got to the backseat "thank god you're here" Kie starts the car "where are we going?" I asks

"To find a place to cool it down at, we don't really know" Pope answers, I simply nods "how did Shoupe let you go?" John B asks

"They said they don't have enough evidence to keep me in there, but I think my parents probably bailed me out" I answers "what did you tell them?" Jay asks

"I tried to tell shoupe the truth about Ward, Frank and Rafe but they wouldn't believe me" I sighs "I told you guys" Jay says

"What are we gonna do now?" Kie asks "I don't know, but we have to think about something fast" I says

We finds a spot in the woods and Kie parks the car at it "we should probably go to sleep now, well think about everything tomorrow" Kie says and we all agree with her

Jay lays down in front of me so my legs faced his face and I watch him fall asleep. I love watching him fall asleep, his calm face and steady breath, it also calms me.

I was playing with Jay's lighter, I couldn't fall asleep. Every time I can't fall asleep I play with his lighter, I prefer focusing on the lighter instead of my thought, even though they're not leaving me.

"Can't sleep?" Jay whispers as he moves next to me and sits besides me "I thought you were already asleep" I whispers "I figured out, I felt you staring" he chuckles, I nervously laugh

"What's on your mind?" He asks, my laugh fades "do you think Peterkin would forgive me?" I asks "for what?" Jay asks "for leaving her" I answers

"I think the real question is if you would be able forgive yourself" He says "I don't know if I am capable to" I replies

"Look Haley, I am really sorry about Peterkin but you couldn't save her" he says "if I only staid-" I says but he cuts me off "if you'd stay they would hurt you and you know it. Peterkin wanted you to leave"

"So for your question, Peterkin would understand" he adds, sounds confidence "how can you be so sure?" I asks

"Because you proved me there are good cops, I mean I still don't trust them but I know Peterkin was good. She helped you and John B, at least tried to. I just know she'd understand" he says

"I am glad I changed your mind" I says "I trust you, if you says she's good, she is" he says

I lays the back of my head on Jays laps so I could face him "I miss her, Jay" I confess "it'll get better" Jay lays a kiss on my forehead

"I love you" he quietly says "I love you too" I says, but he doesn't answer, I look up to him and see he was asleep.

I hope he knows how much I really do love this boy.

A/n: those chapters will only get worse and I genuinely don't know how to feel about that

I already have ideas for the end of season 1, I will continue to seaosn 2 and I will add some things that is off the plot, I hope you'd like them🫶