Haley's POV

"Hey" Kie says as I opens my house door "hi, Kie" I smiles "get JJ" she says "is everything okay?" I asks as we walks inside "yeah, yeah. Just got something to tell you" she says and I nods

"Jay, get your ass here!" I yells "oh, okay" Kie says "why yelling? Oh hi Kie, what's up?" Jay says as he notices Kie

"It's so cool you guys live together now" she says "I know!" Jay says "Kie, what do you have to tell us?" I asks

"I, uh, had an email waiting for me when I got home. John B actually found big John. He's alive" she says as me and Jay shares a look

"Seriously?" Jay asks "yeah, he's at the Chateu" Kie says "I haven't seen him since I was like 14" I says

"he thinks we're close to the same treasure Singh was talking about" she says "he's on that too?" I asks before Kie nods

"It doesn't matter anyways" Jay says "what?" Kie asks "you're off the treasure haunt" he says "who said?" I asks

"Your mom" he answers "she says it all the time, she's not serious" I says "my parents are the same, they didn't even let me out of the house. But I told them I had to check on you" she says looking at me

"Well, it's not me you have to worry about" I says "why does your mom won't let you be on the treasure haunt though?" She asks

"No reason, just her being paranoid" I awkwardly laugh "she's not just being paranoid, it's different now" Jay says "your mom let you go with Rafe to Singh but suddenly she won't let you?" She asks

"It's not that serious, she'd forget about it" I says "it doesn't seem like she would, she's really worried" Jay says

"What are you not telling me?" Kie asks "nothing!" I defend myself as she looks at Jay "so now you have secrets because you're in love? The first role of the Pogues is no secrets" she say

"Just promise me not to freak out or anything" I says "Haley, talk" she says "okay, okay. While you were gone I might... overdosed" I says

"What?" Kie asks in panic "calm down, I am fine now" I says "we were stuck in a room together for a day, why didn't you tell me?" She asks "I just didn't want you to worry like you do now" I says

"You don't want me to be worried? Of course I am worried, your addiction got so bad because you kept away from us stuff like that" she says "my addiction got bad because it's an addiction, there is not another deep explanation" I says

"The point is that you shouldn't be afraid to tell us this kind of things" Jay says "I am not afraid anymore, I mean I was but now you guys are here" I says

"You're trying to act like everything is so great now and you're all fine but you are afraid of me, you're afraid I won't love you back. You know what? I am afraid too! Fuck it, at least I am honest with you" he says

"I am not honest with you? Just because I didn't tell you one thing? That's not fair" I says

"What about your scars that you had since you were 14?" He says "you always used to get so defensive about it, we just stopped asking" Kie says as I was about to walk away but Jay blocks me "no, you're not going. You're not leaving" he says

"What do you wanna know? That this isn't my first attempt? This isn't a fucking accident I sliced my wrists when I was 14" I says "I didn't know that" he says with tears as he shakes his head

"You don't want to hear that shit!" I says "we wanna hear, because we wanna help you!" Kie says

"help me? What the fuck? Do I got a sign on my back that says 'save me?'. Do I look like I need that?" I says

"No" Kie cries "we wanna be there for you, that's all" Jay says "you weren't here there both times, and I am still here. I don't need no body to save me" I says

"What if there will be another time, huh? What if the next time you wouldn't be here?" he says "then maybe if that would happen it's supposed to happen" I says

"Oh, and that's supposed to keep me calm? That you think if you'd kill yourself then it's just supposed to happen?" He freaks out

"I won't try to kill myself, okay?" I roll my eyes "oh that helps" Kie sarcastically says "I don't understand, what the do you want from me?" I asks

"To help you! We're saying it over and over for the last year and you still don't get it?" She says "I do, I just -" I says "just what? We've watched you kills yourself for a year and I am not going to do that again" she says

"Then don't! Just... stop trying" I says "we can't" Jay says "that's what you want us to do, but we just can't" Kie says

"I need to be alone" I says trying to walk again "we're not leaving you alone" Jay stops me again

"Here! You see? You can't accept us trying to help even though you push us away so you ran away" she says

"Jay, get the fuck out of my way" I says "where are you going?" he asks "for a god damn walk because you two pissed me off" I says

"I don't know, I think I should ask your mom" he says "she's at work, I don't need my momma to approve me a fucking walk" I says trying to push him off of my way

he tries to fights me but I push him a little bit harder than I expected and he falls down "Mary!" Kit says "Jay I-" he looks at me, shocked "I am sorry" I adds as I walks away

I wasn't trying to hurt him, I was terrified of myself. I just had to to leave

-

"Haley?" I hear the familiar voice "Jesse" I smiles through the phone "what's up?" He asks "heard you ranaway" I says

"Yeah, I am staying at a friend" he says "Can I come over?" I asks

"Uh... we're high here, not sure if it's a good idea" he says "come on, do me a favour" I says "I'll send you the address" he says "that was easy" I says

"You know I always got what you need" he says "thanks man" I says "sure, I'll see you soon" he says before he hangs up

"Haley!" Jesse says as he opens the door for me "yo, I haven't seen you in forever" I says "it's great to see you too" he laughs

"this is Tyler, and this is Jane" he introduces me "Jane! We met before" I says

"Yeah, yeah. I remember you. Kyle's friend" she says "yeah" I says "what do you got for me?" I asks Jesse

"Why aren't you going to Kyle's?" He asks "he don't want to sell me drugs" I sits next to Jesse in some couch "why?" He asks

"Some moral shit, I think" I says "well, I always got drugs for you. What do you want?" He asks "just weed" I says "taking it easy" he says "yeah" I says as he hands me the weed

"Thanks man" I says before I sniff it "Jesse told us you were in rehab together" Tyler says "we did, then they separated us" I says

"I guess that didn't help" Jane laughs "they didn't separate us though" Jesse says "what do you mean?" I asks

"Well, after your mom came to my hospital-" he says but I cuts him off "what?" I asks

"You didn't know that?" He asks "I didn't" I says "anyways, she came to say that I ruined you and I am the reason you overdosed, so I had to transform he says

"Are you serious?" I asks "yeah, she was yelling at me acting like a bitch" Jesse laughs "don't talk about my mom" I says

"Yo, we are her to chill. Why is this heavy vibe?" Tyler says "give me more weed" I says

This is stupid. I know I did a stupid thing

They mentioned my first attempt, which they didn't even know about. I just freak out when moment like this, John told me that

When people knows me I just panics and I don't know what to do, so I leave. I don't know why I am like this

I didn't told anyone, expect my mom who found me and my dad who is not even alive right now. I don't see a reason to.

My point is, I am not good at talking, so I ended up here

John is right, I hate being vulnerable in front of people, it's just easier to run to drugs, it's an easy solution. I just know that people can be cruel and me telling them about stuff like that is making me weak

Maybe the problems is that I think showing emoting is making me weak, I don't know.

I am just trying to live life and my brain wouldn't let me

"So you're just doing weed now?" Jane asks "yeah, it's like I barely even do drugs, you know?" I says

"You do you girl" Jane chuckles "it still wouldn't pass a drug test though" Tyler says

"Whatever... can I have more?" I asks before Jesse chuckles "uh yeah, sure. But it's in my room" he stands up, I hesitate before I follows him

"Sit down" he says "you don't want to go back to Jane and Tyler?" I asks after I sniff another line "nah it's cool, we're chilling" he says

"I guess" I says "you sure you don't want anything else? I got everything" he says "no man, my boyfriend will freak out on me" I throw myself over his bed

"Your boyfriend sounds like an asshole" he says "he's not" I says "I bet this boyfriend of yours doesn't give you this free drugs" he says "thank you for that" I says "why'd you come to me?" He asks

"I needed weed" I shrugs "you sure?" He says as he leans to kiss me but I stops him before he does "my, uh... boyfriend. You know" I says

"He wouldn't find out" he says as he tries again "we're high" I says "so?" He asks as his hands gets to my under shirt

"Dude" I says as my head starts to spins around but I finds the strength to push him off of me "Haley, I am your friend. You can trust me" I says

"You're not my friend, you're just horny" I says as I walks away "fuck you!" He follows me to the living room

"Fuck you, man. Go fuck yourself" I says "Haley, you good?" Jane asks "good luck finding a sucker that will give you weed, bitch" he says, I flips him off before I leave

"Where the hell have you been?" Jay whispers-yells as he waited awake for me at my living room, it is currently 4AM

"What are you doing awake?" I asks "your mom was worried sick, where the hell have you been?" He asks "I don't have energy for this" I says walking to my room "Haley" he follows me before I throw myself at my bed

"Are you high?" He asks "what are you? My dad?" I asks "are you high?" He repeats "you know, you are very serious. You should do weed too" I chuckles "what?" He asks

"Fuck" I laughs "that's not funny" he says "shit, sorry. Weed it bad" I says "are you serious?" He asks "You do weed too" I says

"It's different" he says "why?" I asks "I'll just... I'll just leave" he says standing up

"Don't leave!" I says "okay, just be quite" he says "you promised not to leave again" I says "I am not leaving you again, it just doesn't seem like the right time to talk" he says

"Last time I told you I relapsed you left me" I says "I was angry, I didn't mean that" he says

"That's okay, I didn't mean to relapse either" I says "I know" he says he pats my head

"Are you mad?" I asks "I am not mad... I am just worried about you" he says "everyone is always worried about me" I says

"Because we care" he says "I know... I just-" I says "we don't have to talk about it right now" he cuts me off before I nods

"We'll talk about it tomorrow, just get some sleep" he says "thank you" I says kissing his cheek

"Hey Jay?" I asks "yes, Hales?" He asks "thank you for not giving me free weed" I says, he looks at me a bit confused before he places a kiss on my head "always" he says

"Can you stay here until I fall asleep?" I asks "I am not sure if your mom is okay with this" he says "come on" I says "okay" he says as he lays down next to me

-

"Mom?" I walks downstairs, I see her and Jay sitting on the living's room couch "what the fuck is going on? What- what is this?" I asks

"you didn't answered your phone, I was worried as hell" she says "I am sorry I made you worried, okay?" I says as I was rubbing my eyes

"It's not that just that! You are high!" She says "no I am not. That's just you being worried" I says

"You're lying" she says "what? No, I am not. What do you want from me? I just woke up" I says

"I want you to do a drugs test" she says "what?" I chuckles "you heard me" she says "I am not going to do a fucking drug test" I says "why's that?" She asks

"You don't trust me?" I asks "no, actually. I don't" she says "seriously?" I asks "if you're not doing a drug test I am sending you back to rehab" she says

"That's just crazy" I chuckles "you were sober for two months!" She yells "let's cool it down a bit" Jay speaks

"Do you know how much it cost me to get you John into rehab? He doesn't usually do that!" She says

"I didn't ask for that!" I says "and I didn't ask for an junkie daughter, but I am still taking care of you" she says

"You don't have to take care of me, I am fine" I says "you got stoned last night! How is that fine?" She asks

"JJ, what the hell have you told her?" I asks "I am sorry, I was just worried" he says "I let you into my fucking house and you rat on me to my mom?" I says

"I didn't know what else to do!" he says "hey, don't blame him for this, this is your fault" she says "JJ also do weed!" I says

"But he's not an addict! He's not running away with some drug dealer and kills himself in some random bar!" She yells

"So you're pulling that on me now?" I asks "you're fucking maniac! Look at yourself!" She says

"Obviously there is something wrong with her and she's trying to get better!" Jay says "of course there is something wrong with her. She's fucking mental!" My mom says

"That is not fair! It was just a little bit of weed to cool down my anxiety but of course you had to make a big deal out of it!" I yells

"Just a little bit of weed?" She yells "I've been doing weed since I was 13 but now, because dad is dead you started to give a shit about what I am doing!" I says

"You're just making it worse!" She says "it's just a little bit of weed, and I am sorry that I did it" I says "oh believe me, you would be sorry" she says

"I am off the heroin and meth, I am clean mom" I says "then do a drug test" she says "JJ also does weed, why won't you take him to rehab huh?" I says

"Haley, when you do weed it's not like I do weed" Jay says "you seriously can't tell the difference?" My mom asks

"I do, I just want you to understand me for once" I says "I am trying to do that for the past few months but you won't let me!" She says

"I just need time" I says "this time will kill you. fuck it, I am taking you back to rehab" mom says

"No" I says "it's not a question" she says "I'll do anything, please ma" I begs "what do you expect me to do? To wait for you to die?" She asks

"No, I'll go to John next time I wanna do weed, okay? I promise" I says "I don't know if I can't trust you" she says

"You can! I am still your daughter" I says "there are moments that I look at you, the kid that I raised who I though I knew inside and out, and I wonder who you are" she says

"This is me, ma" I says "this is your last chance Haley, I mean it. And it's only because I trust JJ to help you and I trust you to let him help" she says

"Thank you" I smiles "but no more treasure haunts" she says making my smile fade "no, ma. You can't do this" I says

"I can't let you risk yourself again, you're not stable enough to go after murderers. This people kidnapped you" she says

"But the Pogues are in this too, they will be with me the whole time" I says

"You're careless with your life, I can't let you go with the Pogues, it's too risky" she says "I'll make sure she won't do something stupid Sonia" Jay speaks

"JJ, you know I trust you, but this is not going to happen" she says "it's fine, thank you for forgiving me" I says

"I just want to help you, in your own ways. But if it doesn't work I am sending you back to rehab" she says before I nods

A/n: I am getting so close to finish writing the book, when I will be finished I'll continue writing the third act:)
Missed ya'll!!