"We can't be doing this late night shit no more."

"I'm fine with that. Will you still call me though?"

"Yeah, but not as frequently. From now on, we're friends until we re-couple in the fall."

"Okay. How are you feeling?"

"Not too good, but I'll be okay. You?"

"I feel like I just got shot in the heart. But it's okay, I'll just have to get over it."

"Please don't get upset when I call you my friend as opposed to my girlfriend."

"I won't, that was just really sudden. Tonight was the first time I've talked to you in a week, and now, we're technically on a break, even though we promised on no breaks before we left. You promised me."

"Things change. And this will be for the best. We'll re-couple as better people. We just need time to grow as individuals."

"I know. Can I still say 'I love you'?"

"Yeah."

"Good to know. You should try and get some sleep, it's awfully late."

"I'm trying. It's hard."

"I know. But you're good at forcing yourself to sleep."

"I'm gonna try and go to bed now."

"Goodnight. Sleep well."

"You too."

I hear the rain pattering against the lavender bush, I still can't sleep.

Thalia <3: I don't wanna lose you
Thalia: But I really want us to grow as people
Thalia: As partners

I start crying again. Since our talk ended, I haven't been able to stop crying. I keep overthinking everything. It almost feels like our relationship is over. I've loved Thalia since I first laid eyes on her on that warm September night. I really thought our relationship left off on a good note before she left for home, but I guess distance and depression made everything ultimately fizzle out quicker than a wanted it to. Breaks are stupid. You go on a break with your significant other just because you're too much of a coward to break up with them properly and let them move on. So instead, you force them to linger, not knowing what you really want. Why do that?