Sophia's POV

"So... The two of you are really official now?"

Me, Kihyun and Emily were walking to school. Me and the pink-haired male went to Emily's house before walking to school.

Emily has her arms wrapped around Kihyun's torso while the latter has his arm around his shoulder, looking all lovey-dovey and stuff.

"Yep~! Me and Kihyunie-oppa are now  boyfriend and girlfriend~!" Emily sqealed, making said male chuckle a bit.

Kihyunie... For I remember, he said I'm the only one who should call him that..

I felt sad, yes. It's because I feel like they're closer, even if the two only met for a short time span. They're in a relationship, yes but why do I feel sad? I should be happy for him.

I should stop thinking about these kind of thaughts! It's foolish of me to think sadly about their relationship when I should be happy that the person Kihyun loves... is now his girlfriend.

Smiling at them slightly, I said, "I'm happy for the both of you.."

"Thanks, Sophia." Kihyun said, smiling at me and was about to ruffle my hair but Emily suddenly grabbed his left hand and pointed at an ice cream shop.

"Oppa~! Let's go get some ice cream!"

"But—" Kihyun got cutted off when she started dragging him towards the brightly-colored building.

Kihyun turned his head to me, "I'll see you at school, Sophia!"

I nodded my head curtly and watched as Emily continued to drag him there. But, Emily looked at me over her shoulder, her eyes glaring at me darkly.

Wha...? Maybe I'm just seeing things..

I continued to make my way towards school, passing by some students who were also on their way to school.

I let out a sigh, stuffing my hands inside my brown coat pockets. Autumn was nearing, so naturally, peole will start to wear coats and scarves to protect them from the cold wind.

Passing by cherry blossom trees, some pink blossoms got into my hair as the rest flew with the wind. I got one from my hair and stared at it, slowing down my steps.

As I stared at the cherry blossom, I remembered Kihyun and his fluffy pink hair. His unique personality that will make you admire him and especially, his smile that somehow makes me giddy.

Even if I want to deny it, I'm starting to feel unknown emotions towards my bestfriend. Maybe I have crush on him or maybe...

I like him

I shooked my head, "Stop thinking like that.." I whispered to myself, letting out a sigh of distress.

I stuffed the cherry blossom in my pocket and continued my lonely walk to school, humming "All in", a song MONSTA X made a few months ago.

I remember that the guys invited me to watch them record and watch their choreography, since they wanted me to point out some mistakes and maybe help them out, considering I also have a passion for music.

I remember how hard they worked on the recording. Working out their vocal cords until they perfected it. Then there was the choreo, I rembered that they finished the choreo around 11 pm. Just imagine the exhausted looks on their faces as bullets if sweats ran down their skin.

But it all payed off the end.

I'm only all in for you..

Soon, I arrived at school. I went pass the gate, greeting the guard there politely along with some other students, before going to the academic building.

I opened the door of my classroom and saw that almost half of the class was there. I made my way to my desk but got stopped by a brunette flower boy.

"Good morning, Sophia-noona." Changkyun greeted, giving a head bow while I returned the greeting

"You too, Changkyun-ah. What is it?" I asked, raising my brow slightly at the taller boy.

"Why didn't you and Wonho-hyung came with us?"

Knew he'll ask that. He tends to ask about stuff since he's a curious 15 year old rapper.

"Let me sit down at my desk first." He went out of my way and I walked to my desk while he followed behind me.

I looked at the empty seat beside me, I bet he's at Lisa's class again.. I placed my bag under my desk and took off my coat, placing it on my chair.

Changkyun sat at BamBam's seat and said, "Answer my question now, noona."

"Fine, fine," I sat beside him, not making eye contact with him as I looked at my lap, "I wasn't there because I was not in the mood. Wonho-oppa—"

"Wait.. 'Oppa'?!" Changkyun cutted me off with that shocked statement.

Some of our classmates looked at our direction but didn't bother to ask what we were talking about and decided to leave us be.

I nodded, raising my head and facing the blackboard, a blank expression on my face, "He asked me if I can call him 'oppa' and I agreed."

"I see," Changkyun muttered, "But explain to me why Wonho-hyung was also not there? It couldn't be possible that the two of you are together, right?"

"It's possible since the two of us are together yesterday."

"Huh?"

"We went to the aracade and cafè after class."

Or more like the two of us went there while we had our last subjects...

Changkyun looked at me with slightly shocked widened eyes, "So... You two went... On a date?"

I looked at him, looking a bit suprised as my mouth agaped, my cheeks warming up because of his question,

"No! It's a hang out, not a 'date', you pabo!"

The male covered his ears with his hands, saying "Yah! Don't shout, noona."

I let out a breath, leaning my back into my chair but gave him a soft glare, "Just don't address our hang out as a 'date'," I made finger quotes as I said 'date', "Because it's only a hang out. No more, no less."

"O..kay.." He said slowly, looking at me, a bit unsure but continued with his questions,

"But that doesn't explain why the two of you are not at the ramen shop."

I wonder when he'll stop? It's obivous that I didn't want to go there..

I sighed and leaned into my palm, looking infront of me again, "Like I said earlier, I wasn't in the mood."

"Why weren't you in the mood?"

I gulped slightly and clenched my other hand the was on my lap, feeling a bit uneasy.

Maybe because I don't want to see the two all happy while I just watch you guys celebrate their relationship..

Those were the words I wanted to say but I know I have no right since I'm only his childhood bestfriend and Emily is his girlfriend.

"Changkyun," I said, turning my head looking at him directly in the eyes, seeing him a bit shocked since I rarely say a name without a honorific,

"I have a reason. I just didn't want to come because of that reason, okay? And Wonho-oppa was the one who asked me to join him since the two of us met at the hallway. It was also unknown to the both of us. And when Minhyuk-hyung called Wonho-oppa when we were on our way home, he declined because he walked me home."

He had a slightly suprised look on his face before a mischievous smile appeared on his face, making the serious expression on my face replace with confusion.

What is this boy thinking?

He giggled before standing up from the chair since BamBam was now infront of the desk, looking at us with a puzzled expression.

"I see~ Well, I'll talk to you later, noona." He said before walking to his desk, that smile still on his face, making him look silly.

"What was that about?" BamBam asked as he sat on his chair, putting his bag under the desk, looking at me.

I sighed and layed my head on my arms, that was placed on the desk,

"Nothing. Just some stuff that you shouldn't ask about."

"Okay... But because I'm just too kind so I'll not ask about it." He said, a cocky smile on his face as he winked.

Sarcasm... —∆—

I turned my head to the side, my cheek pressing to my arm. I sighed, closing my eyes for a brief second before opening them again, looking at Kihyun's desk...

Only for me to see Kihyun and me...

Kihyun and 'me' were talking, laughing at some things, looking  happy and all.

Wait.. I remember this. This was when the school year started. Ms. Park said that we can seat anywhere since it was the start of the school year. Me and Kihyun sat together and when the teacher went out, we started to talk about certain topics.

I miss that.

I blinked and the illusion disappeared. I felt a weight on my chest, making it feel heavy and sad. With my heart feeling like that, I, too, became sad in the inside.

Why am I feeling like this? Why am I sad? Is it because of Emily and Kihyun? For I remember, a bestfriend shouldn't feel like that. A bestfriend should be happy and supportive of the friend's happiness but why am I like this?

Why do I keep forcing myself that I'm happy about his relationship when I'm not?

I placed a hand on my heart, clutching it. I must say, my heart is a wreck. It feels happy when I'm with Kihyun but the moment I see the pinkette, it feels sad.

Because Emily is beside him.

No, no. Even if Emily is not beside him, I feel sad because all Kihyun talks about is Emily. All about her.

Now... Now I know that Kihyun's not the stupid one for making a relatiomship with a girl he met only for a week...

I'm the stupid one.

I'm the stupid one for knowing my feelings for Kihyun when he already has someone to love.

I took out the cherry blossom from my pocket and rose my head to look at the pink petal on my palm, a frown making it's way to my lips.

I'm stupid... Why now? Why did I realized that I have feelings for Kihyun just now?

I clenched my hand that has the petal. The petal.. It's my that was because crushed because of these feelings I just discovered just now.

I stood up from my seat, my fist still clenching the petal. With a blank expression, I said to BamBam, who was looking at me,

"I'm not feeling well. Tell Ms. Park that I'll be going to the infirmary."

Without waiting for his reply, I walked to the door and opened it, only to see Kihyun and Emily.

"Oh.." I mumbled, "Excuse me." I passed the couple, not even looking at them.

"Wait, Sophi—" Kihyun was about to grab my arm but Emily grabbed it, hugging it.

"Oppa, she needs some space."

I gritted my teeth and made my way to the infirmary, my heart feeling heavier than ever upon from encountering the two.

I passed by students who were chattering with their friends or making their way to their assigned classes.

Emily-ah... I somehow feel she's plotting something.. But now, I don't need to think about stuff like that..

I turned to a corner and saw an empty hallway, the infirmiry just a couple steps away.

My steps towards the infirmiry stopped as I sighed. Engulfed by the lonely hallway, I opened my palm and saw the crushed petal.

I frowned, "I hate this.." I said, referring to the loneliness I was feeling right now.

An empty hallway with me standing there with a heavy heart.

I clutched my heart again with my free hand, feeling a pang hit it. A pang of pain just because of the feelings I have for Kihyun.

It's like a typical drama. You have a close friend. Then, when he get's together with a girl, there, you'll realize you actually have feelings for that friend and you'll feel all sad because the girl he is with, is not you but you'll hide it anyway since you don't want to ruin the relationship you two have.

"Yah, Sophia, you big pabo." I said to myself, feeling my eyes water a bit as I sniffled.

"Why are you so stupid?" I gripped my heart tighter, as if I was trying to stop it from hurting.

"Why know these feelings for Kihyun?"