Roeder

Arthur was a character
Nothing more than that
He was 'Roeder'
On a sheet of paper
That I mistakenly took as a female
Named /Row-der/.
As I auditioned
And went
Through callbacks,
I became aware of
Arthur's character.
Powerful, interesting and angry,
I liked him.
Getting the role
Was magical.
Reading the script for the
First time
And I wasn't aware of Roeder.
But tearing through his storyline,
He didn't seem so bad.
He was much like Wreck it Ralph,
In a way.
I'm not
Head over heels
In love with him.
No.
But, he is me.
In another lifetime.
He is the one I grew so close to.
Ending the play was like
Sipping Radithor
A part of me died inside.
But he lives on
Through my
"Man voice".
He will never die,
Until he dies
Along with me.

 Arthur,
You're a horrible man
But I also understand
Your position.
However, that doesn't
Justify
Anything.
You aren't all at fault
Things could have been
Different
But they weren't.
Von Sochocky didn't provide
You
With all of the details
But dragging Charlie down
With you
Was horrendous.
I cannot speak of you
Out of praise
But I can't help but say
Your name
With love.

 I will never grow to be who
You were.
I do not want that for myself.
I do not admire you
But I am sympathetic.
You didn't deserve to be
Tangled up in this mess,
But you could have dealt
With this situation
Better.
By the time you realized this,
Poof!
The chance had left you.

 I love you,
Arthur Roeder.
And I will never
Let you
Go.