first of all

my birth name isn't kat...

it's Ariella

and it's a piece of shit.

no one pronounces it right

no one

ever.

it's too feminine for me

i'm not that feminine of a person(this fact will come in handy later)

it's ugly even though everyone says it's beautiful.

it's ugly because i've ruined it.

i've messed up too much

it's been tarnished...

i hate my real name