How am I supposed to do this?

I've watched all the videos and read all the posts. They're all the same.

They always say shit about how there's no perfect way to do it. But that doesn't give me guidance at all. Wha the hell am I supposed to do? Walk up to my mom and say "hey surprise you don't actually have a daughter because I'm transgender, but you will have a son in law one day because I'm also gay!" That's not going to be okay.

They also always say to bring up the lgbt community in conversation to gauge reactions, but how the fuck do you do that casually?? Like you're eating dinner and all the sudden you just ask everyone's opinion on the transgender community? Ummmm I think the fuck not.

I need to come out before school starts. It's my goal and I don't plan on failing that goal, but how the fuck am I going to do this??? I don't want to start high school in the closet. I want high school to be a fresh start, but that goal is starting to seem a lot farther away than I thought it was.

I'm not even trying to come out to my whole family! I just want to come out to my mom, but I can't work up the courage. She has literally told me to my face that she doesn't care what I am, that no matter what she'll always love me. But even after that I'm still fucking scared that she'll hate me.