Sometimes I'll repeat things in my head like a mantra but unlike a mantra these things aren't good.

They'll range from things like
"They don't care about what you do" to "nobody actually likes you."

And they're repeated so many times that I don't doubt them. I believe them. It feels like I'm sinking deeper into this black pit but no one seems to notice or care because I throw a rug over the pit. I cover it up and pretend everything is fine.