TO BE fair, August and Josh had never gone further than making out on the bed. Even then, it made their hearts race like it was going to beat out of their chest.

Neither of them never thought about taking it a step further, but if they did, they kept that to themselves.

August literally laughed the last time something like that seemed to be going down, but she claimed that it was because her friends were also home and she didn't need whatever was going to happen to happen with everyone home.

But August was frustrated. She had found her balance between her acting life and her singing life. Or so she thought.

She'd been home alone and it was honestly what she preferred. She flopped down on her bed with a groan and stayed there for a moment longer before getting up and decided that brooding over her label wouldn't fix how she felt.

She took a shower, got changed, and stood in front of her bathroom mirror for a moment longer.

In situations such as these she would normally call Josh or Angelina, hell, sometimes she called Jacob when she wanted to just laugh.

But she didn't think bothering them about any of this would be okay in the moment. She knew that Josh would understand her frustration more than anyone with this, but it seemed bothersome.

August let out one final, almost agonizing sigh, and left the bathroom. But that agony was soon turned into horror when she screamed.

"Why are you in my room!?"

"I have a key?" Josh answered, his eyebrows furrowed.

"You didn't text or call? You can't just show up!"

"I'm sorry?"

He was confused. I mean, yeah, he probably should've called before popping up at her place, but they had just talked about hanging out yesterday.

"I'm sorry." She said, "I'm just frustrated and I knew... I knew you coming. I'm just tired."

Josh watched with almost sad eyes. He stretched his arms out and August slumped over into them. She sat in his lap with her cheek resting on top of his head.

He wrapped his arm around her torso. He gently rubbed his thumb up and down her exposed thigh and the two of them sat in a peaceful silence.

It was cold and wet outside, even colder on the inside. And all Josh and August could do were curl up against each other.

Dark light poured into the room, rippled by the raindrops pouring down and providing a pleasant drum that mixed well with Josh's soft breaths. It was never really this bad in Salt Lake.

Josh tilted August's chin down and pressed his lips to hers softly, kissing her sweetly till he'd stolen her breath.

She reluctantly broke the kiss and he only moved down, planting soft kisses on her chin, her neck, and lower still.

He sat upright, slipping his hands underneath the t-shirt of his she'd put on and began caressing her sides. He moved them upward, then back down, before pulling her close and capturing her lips in his.

The first kiss was soft, gentle, a normal thing for the two, but this one was the opposite. He kissed her roughly and intensely.

August kissed him back, just as fervently, and gripped his shirt in both fists. He pulled away for just a second, ripped the shirt off, then kissed her again.

Josh pressed her down onto the bed, hands desperately roaming over her body before slipping again under her shirt. The feeling of his rough, calloused hands from his guitar playing against her smooth, soft skin made them dizzy; she gripped his hair and kissed him harder.

Josh was a calculated kisser, he took his time, analyzing what she liked, what she seemed overwhelmed by and what made her feel safe.

Josh paused for a moment, looking down at August, "We don't have to do anything you don't want to do. Just say the word."

August held a soft small. She let her hands cups his cheeks and caressed the sides of his face. Josh closed his eyes for a moment, sighing deeply before looking down at her once more.

"God, you're pretty." August muttered.

Josh smiled, "You're beautiful. I just want you to feel okay."

"Okay."

He leaned down so his forehead could meet hers. August softly shut her eyes while Josh took the chance to admire her and all features.

"Remember you can back out at any time." Josh muttered.

"I know."

Letting out a deep breath he rested his head on her shoulder. The same body he'd seen hundreds of times now holding a different sight.

IT HAD been an hour.

Joshua and August laying in the bed, legs tangled around each other, and Josh brushing August's, making faint shapes on her bare shoulder.

There was a soft knock on the door and Josh shut his eyes, wincing. August had just fallen asleep mere minutes ago and he didn't want to wake her.

Nonetheless, Angelina poked her head inside and smiled.

"Oh! I didn't know you were here." She smiled.

"Hey, Angelina. Nice to see you. Oh, me? Thanks for asking." He joked.

"Whatever, shitball." Angelina scoffed, "I came up to give August her mail. Our team just dropped it off. Make sure she's up in an hour we've got plans."

"We?"

"No. Not we. Me, August, and Lovie. We're taking that Saysojo shit to the grave, you fuckass."

"What's with the name calling?"

"Oh I'm sorry. I'll just stick to shouting your name from the top of my lungs from now on." She laughed and ducked out the room.

To only reappear a few seconds later.

"It smells in here."

Josh stiffened, "Bad smell?"

Angelina furrowed her brows, "I don't know. I've never smelled it before."

"I... bought a candle for her. I just put it away."

"Oh... smells alright to me." Angelina smiled, "You gotta tell me where you got it from when you have a chance."

Angelina ducked out the room for the time being and Josh rested his head against the headboard.

"You are a horrible liar." August muttered.

"If you were awake you should've helped me."

"I think it's funny when you have to fend for yourself."

- lucy has something to say !!

i told kelly i would do this and here it is 🧍 was it good did i do okay 😭 be honest i've never written anything like this before so PLEASE be honest

i was NOT gonna get explicit because josh do be a real person and i can't write like that 🤩

anyways

hey i think i might write 6 more bonus chapters and officially have this story be over :( as much as i love august i can't keep doing this because i'll end up writing for her forever which i don't mind but i can't bloop

bye :))))