TW mentions of SH and suicide

Waking up might have been the worst decision I made today.

First of all, the physical pain I'm in is unbearable. Turns out slicing open your skin and then passing out in the middle of the night is not a pleasant experience.

Second of all, the whispers of should she be put in the psych ward? and did something happen? are becoming old. They could just talk to me.

Rey is trying his best. I know he is. He's trying to act like everything is totally chill. But I can tell he's shaken up.

Truth be told, I'm not sure what happened. It seems like a daze. If they did talk to me I doubt I could answer.

That doesn't make everyone sneaking around me any less frustrating.

I'm surprised to hear I have a visitor. Is it Kate? I hope it is.

I glance up at the sound of footsteps. I see blonde hair and a flash of pink.

Evie.

"Bee!" She squeals and runs over, pulling me into a tight hug. "I was so, so worried, I thought you were dead! You look terrible!"

I can't help but smile. It's nice that someone is acknowledging it.

I put my weak arms around her. I glance up and see my Auntie Aimee and Uncle Evan. Both of them stand awkwardly as though they're carrying a weight of guilt that neither of them tried to stop what happened. They're carrying something else too; Aimee is nearing her due date.

She's 43. We all know about the affair.

"Hiya, love." She says after a moment, putting a tentative hand on my shoulder. "How have you been?" 

I contemplate putting her on the ultimate guilt trip but decide against it. "Alright."  I say.

"Good, good. Well, we'll leave you girls to catch up."

Aimee and Evan walk out of the room, more awkwardly than how they came in. Evie squeezes my hand.

"Why didn't you call me? It's been months and months... I thought you hated me..."

"No, no, nothing like that. Um, my mother deleted everything off my phone and changed my number and I forgot your number and... shit happened and now I'm here."

"Yeah, we heard about it. Mum kept saying we'd come and visit but then she'd suddenly be too tired or too sick whenever I brought it up."

I look at her for a moment. I missed her more than I realised. "Thank you, Evie."

"Hm?"

"For coming here."

"No problem. But don't you dare do this again, you hear me? Because if you kill yourself I will personally come and beat you up." She tears up.

"Ok. Ok. Don't cry. I'm ok."

She hugs me again. I never was fond of my family but it feels good to be reunited.