"People feel the same way.
We all do.
You're not alone.
You never were. "

✘✘✘

RAW

"So you actually agreed to meet with him?" Renee whispered as we drove over to the arena, with Dean arriving later.

I could have stayed and waited for him back at the hotel but I wanted to get everything off my chest and since Renee knew everything that had happened from the very beginning until recently she was obviously the first person I turned to.

The rest of Team Bella was off for the night.

"Unfortunately yes" I mumbled, ashamed that I had, considering how it turned out , but proud of how I handled it.

"I can't imagine that going good" She sighed as she briefly glanced at me.

"I am not back together with him if that's what you are thinking" I voiced as that's what everyone tended to think the moment I brought him up.

"I know you aren't Nicole. " She said firmly causing me to feel better.

"What happened though?" She asked after a bit.

"For a split second he was the John I knew but soon after showed his true intentions." I shook my head as I couldn't believe I thought he would have accepted it.

"Let me guess badmouthing Brock?" She rolled her eyes.

"Said Brock was sleeping with Charlotte.." I whispered not wanting to express it loudly and I heard her laughing.

"Well that's just the biggest load of crap. He sure is desperate" She shook her head as she made a turn.

"You don't think its true?" I turned to face her,even though I couldn't believe it there was still apart of me that was unsure .

"No, have you forgotten how I witnessed your final goodbye? That man loves you. Besides the fact that he admitted it, you could see. He was pissed but still concerned about your well being and he went from a glaring Beast to a tamed one begging you just like that. " She snapped her fingers for effect.

I sighed not wanting to remember that night.

"We can get into that night later. So continue?" She smiled slightly as she could sense my brief sadness at the mention of it.

"He basically kept pushing it and did his usual things.."

I didn't feel like explaining as Dean was the only one who really knew about my relationship with John.

I didn't see the point in bringing it all up now because it wasn't important.

John wasn't important.

"But basically during it all I realized then."

"Realized what?"

"I don't feel anything for him. Nothing at all" I stated confidently, finally feeling like a weight was off my chest as I knew that part of my life was over.

"I love Brock and even though we are going through some shit because we are both hot heads. I know we will end up together in the long run or that's a hope at least.
Its just ..while I am perfectly fine disarming him in the ring? Out of it he has me.. If he really knew just how badly, he could use it"

I whispered as if he had just pushed a bit harder and the announcement hadn't gone off making him leave ?

I would have crumbled in front of him.

"But he believes the Fearless Nikki facade that you have set up , the ruthless Nikki Bella that you displayed last night?"

I nodded, "which is better because he needs to realize I'm not going to just give in"

"I don't think that's the way he thinks though Nicole"

She sighed as she pulled into the arena .

I hopped out as we walked back to the booth to get our suitcases.

"What do you mean?" I asked as we slowly made our way in.

"I mean he isn't John. John believed he was the great guy who you needed to go on, who you needed to survive, which wasn't true but at that time you hadn't realized it and that's why he just knew you would give in but Brock sees you for what you are; Independent, fearless .
He sees a woman who could be okay without him so when he starts approaching you its because he needs you. Because even though you need him too, he doesn't see it . I know it sounds weird for Brock but him and Dean aren't so different with certain things"

I sighed as I hadn't actually thought of it like that. I was so fixed on being different because of everything I had gone through with John that I was unintentionally making him out to be just like John in my mind.

But he wasn't...

"Is he going to be here tonight?" I whispered.

"I guess, I saw Paul in the hotel this morning so he should be. You want to speak to him?"

"I don't know. I mean I want him Renee, it honestly hurts being without him but besides the fact that he isn't like John. He doubts me and that's our downfall."

"He has some issues. Despite what people say? Guys are way more complicated when it comes to relationships. Its because they have these huge egos and you know the Beast has a big one.."

I smiled at her words causing her to stop.

"Get your mind out of the gutter Nicole" I laughed for what seemed like the first time at the arena since that night 3 weeks ago.

"But they are and I'm just saying his feuds with John was pretty intense so maybe you aren't the reason he questions the thing with John. So when he says he does trust you maybe you shouldn't be so quick about slamming on him and notice he means it?"

I sighed as I pushed open the door to my locker room and immediately sat down.

This is why she said we should speak about that night because she was the third person and could see everything clearly while I was a mess.

"I tend to be a bit of a drama queen hey?"

She laughed, "if this were Brie she would strongly agree but a little yeah. I just think its because you care so much and you aren't used to dealing with someone who is like you. Cause he cares too you know?"

"You should witness our fights more often" I teased as I needed a pep talk.

I should've known my favourite blonde would give it to me. If it weren't for her there actually wouldn't have been a Brock and I.

She was the one who drove more than 20minutes so that I could be fearless and well admit to the Beast.

That was an amazing weekend...

CHAPTER 9( RENEE PEPTALK)

CHAPTER 10-16 ( LONG WEEKEND)

"I think I should !" She laughed .

"I feel like you have been hanging out with Dr Phil way too much" I rolled my eyes as I grabbed my phone .

"I think I have , I have this wisdom lately" she said seriously.

"And I have this hunger" I grabbed her arm so that we could head to the cafeteria while the arena was still empty.

***

"Are you seriously going to do this?" I sighed as Dean and I stood at the Gorilla together.

"Hey he kicked my ass, you defended me now I'm calling him out so I can get my own shit in"
He shrugged as he hopped a bit.

"Fine" I smiled as I suddenly felt uneasy about Dean calling Brock out.

I hadn't seen him yet, Charlotte was not here tonight because of last night so I guess that kept him in his locker room.

I heard his music playing as he smiled brightly with himself.

Why?

Because we had a whole debate about whose music we should play and Dean just spoke my head in circles which ended up in me giving in.

"And making their way to the ring. Members of Team Bella..."

He grumbled next to me and I smiled brighter as I had asked Lillian to do it to get back at him.

"The Fearless WWE Women's Champion Nikki Bella and The Lunatic Fringe Dean Ambroooooose"

"You're so annoying sometimes " He grumbled through gritted teeth.

"That's why you love me!" I did the same, minus the grumble of course.

"So tonight its not just another segment of The Ambrose Asylum, nah. Brock Lesnar decided that last night I deserved to get attacked. Brock Lesnar decided that while I was celebrating my victory against that scumbag Jericho. Brock Lesnar attacked me from behind"

He paced up and down in front of me as I simply stared on, clutching my title.

Now I kinda knew what Brock felt like, I mean Dean wasn't promoting me or anything but this was how Brock stood by while Paul ranted off.

I wonder what crossed his mind when..

".. So Brock get your ass out here. Because while Nikki got some Payback of her own for your attack on her last week on Raw. I would like some Payback as well!"

He stood onto the ropes staring at the stage and I moved to stand with him.

"Come on Broooooooock!" He called out again.

We heard the familiar music and this time my heart didn't sink while Dean smiled proudly .

Renee helped me see things differently I guess. I mean I was still hurt as to the betrayal but not as much as I was before.

Because before I had the John Cena thing and now I was just preparing myself for another confrontation after defending him to John .

I realized Paul was making his way down the ramp and no Brock in sight.

I guess since blondie wasn't here he didn't need to be...

"Lunatic. Fearless" he nodded towards us as he remained outside.

"My client is not here tonight because he didn't see the need to waste his time" He shrugged.

"Why? Because Flair's aren't here?" I voiced.

"Well partially yes. I mean he is Charlotte's acquaintance."

I sighed and gone was the feeling I had before.

"What, did the great Beast have to stay back at the hotel and take care of Poor Charlotte because she realized last night that I am far superior than her?"

Dean smiled as we stared at Paul.

"Superior? You got lucky Miss Bella. Miss Flair although suffering some pain in the ring is doing perfectly fine so whatever you were trying to do last night Nikki didn't work" he said with a big smile that I wished I could smack off his face.

"Trying to do? I was just a champion who defended successfully because she was too weak. Just like your Beast!"

I sneered as he was pissing me off.

"Yeah I was back at that hospital watching . She sure got your Beast" he laughed while he had actually been at the hotel binging on Takeout with Foxx and Brie .

"Miss Bella did not get my Beast, Ambrose. She distracted him and took a cheap shot. I guess she learned from the Lunatic" He said with disappointment in his voice.

"The kissing or the cheap shots?"

Paul opened his mouth to respond but Dean interrupted him again.

"Because the kissing I will take all the credit for but cheap shots? Nah not me"

I rolled my eyes at Dean and I knew Renee was most likely laughing her ass off backstage.

"Mr Ambrose, I am not interested in your relationship with the champion over there.."

Dean and I glanced at each other and laughed as we shook our heads at the implication.

"..But I would appreciate you not speaking about my client"

"The way I see it your client messed with me first when he caused me not to support my friend later on that night" he shrugged.

"So tell your Beast or Brock, if you are watching? I am looking for a fight and this time? I will be the one standing over your body."

"I think your ego might have gotten a bit too big due to your stroke of luck at Wrestlemania and well let's just say my Beast is still upset about that so I wouldn't be provoking him if I were you.."

"Well he provoked the lunatic, so he..."

"Anyway the reason I am out here besides for wanting you to stop with speaking about my client is because I have a message for you Miss Bella"

I frowned due to him cutting Dean off.

"Since you saw it fit to punish Brock in your own way I suppose you want to punish the people who took out the rest of your Team Bella"

He smiled and I knew it definitely wasn't going to go good for me.

"What are you going on about Paul?"

"Well I took it upon myself to let the Authority know how upset you were, so Mr Ambrose if you would kindly clear those things out of the ring because Miss Bella will be going up against the two members of Team B.A.D"

Knew telling Hunter was a mistake.

I heard the music hit while Paul laughed and walked to the back. Dean frowned as the officials cleared the ring.

"If they try some shit I won't hesitate getting involved " he whispered and I sighed as I gave him my title.

"Come on Nikki!" I heard Dean on commentary as Tamina had thrown me hard into the corner causing me to fall down as she delivered several kicks to my stomach.

"Nikki seems to be in trouble"

"Seems but she's not. Because what you have yet to realize is that Nikki is like me, calculating her next move. She is buying time. Let's not forget the reason Tamina was tagged into the match. You see where Naomi is? She's out cold cause that's the power of Fearless Nikki"

Thank you brother.

I rolled out of the ring trying to catch my breath and she got out as well.

I immediately ran around the ring and then slid in and as soon as she followed I kicked her down.

"What did I say?" I heard Dean's proud voice as I slammed her face into the mat.

"You want to hurt my sister huh? You want to hurt Brie and Foxx?" I called out as I kicked her the same way she did me.

I slowly got onto the top rope and waited for her as she lazily got up and hit her with a flying elbow drop that Dean loved doing.

I then went for the cover but felt myself being pulled out and got a close line by Trinity.

I slowly got up but got a drop kick from Tamina through the ropes and felt myself being tossed in the ring as she covered me but I kicked out.

I got up and glared at her as she stared at me, I immediately slapped her.

She glared at me but instead of her hitting me like I expected I felt a knock against my back causing me to fall down.

I was being attack by both of them as they stood over me.

I saw Dean tossing off his headset but before he could do anything I heard the familiar music fill the arena.

I smiled to myself and soon saw her pale skin as she jumped onto Tamina and Trinity got distracted.

I immediately used the last strength I had left to get to my feet. I turned her around , kicked her and delivered the Dirty Deeds while Paige did the Rampaige on Tamina.

"Could we have the #PaleBella back in business?"

"No, just someone who is seeing how our champion was wronged and took the opportunity to battle alongside her Cole!"

We kicked them out and hugged.

"Thanks babe" I whispered.

"Got your back big sis!" I laughed and I then raised her hand and pointed to her as the crowd cheered.

I felt someone poke me and saw Dean and he took both of our hands and raised it as I raised my title with the other.

I didn't need to be alone to be Fearless.

A/N:

Hope you liked Renee's pep talk as much as you loved Nena ending: )

Hope you liked Team Bella vs Advocate segment: )

I figured I would add Paige to the sequel simply because I love her and to show Nicole not being as shut off as she used to be but still fearless: )

So are you guys missing Brock?

I know I am, could be in next update we shall see: /