IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HAVE DONE THIS BUT THIS IS THE SECOND UPDATE IN ONE DAAAAY 😊😊😊😊

"I feel like I have known you
since the beginning of it all,
and because of that ,
I have fallen into you. "

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November 2011

"I'm not Barbie!" I snapped as I threw over a hoodie he had given me and noticed the Death Clutch print on the top.

"If I'm Beast then you will be Barbie" he shrugged and for some reason I found myself smiling.

"I'd rather be a beauty though.." I mumbled, mostly thinking aloud as having a twin I couldn't be sure if people went for me because they expected me to be like my sister or because they wanted me.

But judging by my past, they saw no beauty...

"Not for me Barbie" I heard him and I felt my heart sink even though I hadn't meant it in that way.

"I never said I wanted to be for you" I snapped and turned away from him suddenly wishing I hadn't gotten into the car with him. I felt trapped...

"You know you said you were weak but you're in my car snapping at me. I don't fucking like people and I could just throw you out but I won't. Most guys won't fucking come near me, let alone annoy me, so you're not weak" he briefly glanced at me before staring ahead at the road while I couldn't look away from him.

In his own beastly way he had said the nicest thing anyone had ever said to me.

I heard him calling me as I spun around but I ignored it as I continued before feeling him scoop me into his arms. I ignored the comforting feeling I got despite the rough touch as I giggled and held him close, burying my face into his neck.

"My wife had a bit too much to drink" I heard him and realized he was referring to me. Of course not beauty material but claim me as your wife..

I found myself rambling off about a book I read to kill time in the elevator or maybe just to make him want to stay with me. He didn't seem to want to though as he basically gave me the hoodie and said he would pay for the room.

I frowned as I wasn't sure why he would do all of that , for me?

"Beast.." I whispered which caused him to stop at the door.

"I hate being alone" I confessed for the second time in one night and for some reason I didn't feel ashamed for admitting it to him.

I smiled a bit as he moved towards me and I laid back answering his various questions. Of course my answering soon led to me realizing that next year my life would most likely be different. I felt myself choking back tears and I stopped myself and sat up while he seemed to be thinking.

"Beast" I whispered and he focused his ocean blue orbs on me once again. Nick had blue eyes but not like his, his was perfect...

"Thank you" I whispered and he was about to say something but before I could stop myself I was kissing him.

I expected him to shove me off him, but despite his protests he hadn't done anything to move me away from him the entire night.

The opposite.

The taste of his lips made me moan as he stripped off his tee and I guess his hoodie I wore had landed somewhere as well.

"How good is the Beast in bed?" I smiled as I saw his eyes trailing over my body and I felt him pushing against me as he laid between my legs.

"I don't think you can handle the Beast.." I was about to respond when he kissed me again and I wrapped my legs around him as I pulled him closer to me while he grinded against me.

I wanted the Beast...

He said something about tomorrow but I couldn't pay attention as all I was focused on was tonight with this blue eyed Beast..

His teeth sinking into my skin caused my eyes to snap open as I tried pushing him away. If Nick saw he would realize what I had done or what I was about to do. I tried telling him but he ignored me and as he sucked on my skin my protests were met with moans instead.

I felt his hands slip underneath me as he unzipped my dress and his teeth sink into my breasts but I didn't stop him. I didn't want him to stop..

I felt his hand on me and I continued pushing up against his hand as I moaned into his lips and clawed his back.

"You're drunk" he had broken the kiss but I wanted more. I didn't get why he was denying me when I definitely felt how much he wanted me.

I glanced at his hand and saw no ring which I guess I should have checked for first but I knew Brock Lesnar and I was sure I knew that detail as well..

"...Once you are sober you will realize that girls like you don't fall for a Beast" I frowned as I didn't get why he would say that while he didn't bother looking my way.

"What's wrong with a Beast?"

He answered me and I know I said something back and for some reason it made him stay as I somehow feared him leaving me. I knew I could be clingy but to a guy I hadn't even known for more than two hours?

I rested my head on his lap as he reassured me he wouldn't be leaving when he should have. I wanted to say it was because I wasn't good enough but I didn't mind that he stopped it, he wanted to but he thought more of me? More than I thought of myself...

"I'm not some whore who goes around seducing guys to get back at her boyfriend" I whispered not sure why I kissed him.

"I know Barbie.." he smiled.

"My name is Stephanie by the way. If you wanted to know.." Sure I could say Nicole or Nikki but found myself saying that instead.

"Happy Birthday Stephanie" was the last words I heard before drifting off due to his fingers tracing over my face.

****

"Mmmm what are you making baby?" I heard Brock as he whispered while he walked into the kitchen.

"Cupcakes, don't ask me why. I mean I know its only the boys coming over" I shrugged as the others were currently touring.

I would be seeing Brie later but that depended on my mood as we had a photoshoot. It would be my first one after Meredith so I wasn't sure how comfortable I felt.

I mean I hadn't let myself go. I worked out with Brock in the mornings as Meredith got to a sort of sleeping schedule and with breast feeding I was able to maintain a sort of balance.

"Baking or trying to make me fuck you?" He questioned as I noticed his eyes trail over my body in the corner of my eye, making me smile.

"No its just us so I didn't think I needed to put anything on" I smiled and licked the frosting off the spoon.

I loved that even after having our Angel, Brock hadn't looked at me any differently. I had felt so insecure after Meredith and the first time he slept with me after, I had been so on edge that he wore a blindfold to amuse me.

Him being the Beast of course got rid of it while I was too into it to care. Now I found it amusing as I realized while he loved my body, he loved staring into my eyes more .

He smirked and moved over to me and kissed me, knowing he tasted the sweetness as I was lifted onto the counter and I smiled into the kiss.

"You're going to be sticky" I mumbled into his lips as his hands slipped underneath the apron and he lifted me off the counter.

I knew where we were heading and while I felt myself protesting he knew if he stopped I would hate him for it.

"I don't give a fuck" he stared into my eyes before kissing me again as he laid me down onto the couch.

I slipped my tongue past his lips as I pushed myself against him and he groaned loudly.

I heard my underwear rip, leaving me with nothing but the apron on. His fingers entered me slowly and I moaned while his lips trailed over my breasts.

"As much as you know I love... Yoooooou.. Doing that" I breath between moans. "We need to try and be quick"

He chuckled and I felt his fingers leave me before seeing the Beast being released.

"Guess its the Beast again"

I rolled my eyes as I bit my lip but his fingers hooked into my hair as he lift me up to kiss him. I wrapped my arms around him as he pulled me down onto him.

Due to time management I hadn't exactly gotten to make love to my Beast in awhile but we had fun getting crazy in the times we had free. I loved my Angel but I also loved her daddy.

"Fuck baby" he breath as he gripped my behind and moved me faster onto him causing me to bite onto his tongue which he really didn't notice.

I had been with Brock for over two years now and while everything hadn't been perfect, we worked through it.

The day I gave birth to Meredith was the happiest we had been despite it being a painful experience the moment I saw the look in his orbs I knew Brock was in love and I would be too.

My nails dug into his back as I tried not to moan louder and he groaned as his fingers travelled up my back and he tipped me back again burying me underneath him.

"Faster" I moaned which he did as I felt myself getting lost underneath him before he kissed me to prevent me from screaming out as he pushed into me hard.

I didn't break the kiss even though I knew another round would be asking for too much.

I loved him so much and I honestly couldn't get enough of him. Him being the father of our little girl just heightened those feelings...

"Shower?" He whispered before lifting me into his arms.

"You're insane Beast" I giggled as he walked with me upstairs.

"Oh I know Barbie"

***

I wrapped the towel around me and felt him turn me around and push me up against the cabinet, making several bottles fall.

"Fuck!"

I sighed as I knew what that would lead to.

"3..2.." I smiled as I heard the faint crying coming from the room which led to him sighing as he rested his chin on my shoulder and held me.

"You woke her up!" I hit his chest and walked out of the bathroom to see her standing in the crib.

"Look whose awake!" I smiled. "Its the birthday girl!"

"Maaaa! "

She giggled and I lift her into my arms and draped her with kisses as Brock slipped on a pair of jeans.

Ma-ma had been her first word last month and Brock had been a bit grumpy due to it as the boys had said ma-ma first as well. If he hadn't been with me when she said it I would have mostly likely kept it from him until she said Da-da a few weeks later.

But it didn't matter as once she did his blue eyes lit up like I had never seen before and grumpy Brock was gone..

"You're so big!" I mumbled into her skin, "are you hungry? I know I am!" I cooed which caused her to wiggle in my arms but Brock soon lifted her from my grasps.

"Not so high!" I blurted out as he held her up and swayed her a bit, making her giggle.

"How many times do I have to tell you I won't let her fall Barbie?" He had a big smile on his face as his eyes focused on hers while I grabbed some clothes.

"Each time I warn you because I won't be stopping." I shrugged as I dressed and sat on the edge of our bed as I watched him play with her.

It was hard to believe that just a year ago I was sitting in the kitchen of our old house with my friends without her...

"I'm just saying, Brooklyn's birth stole the show off my birthday" Dean shrugged while Randy rolled his eyes.

"If I remember correctly. All of you were in Vegas for Brock's fight a couple weeks before so your only off time to meet my baby girl happened to be around your birthday week" Randy smirked as he glanced over at Kim who held their beautiful little girl.

"So basically Brock is being blamed?" I narrowed my eyes at him as Brock was on the porch with Bryan.

"No no the last thing I need is my head busted open again" he teased.

"Still not funny Randy" I shook my head and Kim hit him.

"A glass of wine?" Brie smiled as she poured for everyone.

"Make fun of me while you can, by Thanksgiving next year I will be sipping wine" I shrugged.

"I think we honestly have to throw Nicole a party for that one. I mean pregnancy must be difficult but abstaining from one of her guilty pleasures"

"She's made up for it with donuts!" I heard Brock and gasped while he smirked and opened the fridge, blocking my view of him.

"I on the other hand loved pizza way too much while carrying the boys" Rena shook her head. "Poor Paul was sent on those errands!"

"No Brock doesn't mind going on donut runs" I smiled.

"That's a lie! Brock buys donuts every second day in the morning and then when Nicole asks he pretends like he leaves and finishes the work around the farm and then gets some looooove out of her for making him do it" Renee laughed.

"Oh yeah we caught him over the holidays when we spent that week here" Dean nodded as he sipped on his beer and I turned to Brock.

"How thoughtful of you Beast you know I don't mind giving you extra kisses" I laughed as he opened his beer and shrugged.

I glanced over at Brooklyn who was shaking the rattle Dean had gotten her which was the reason Brock had been on the porch in the first place as it had given him a headache.

Randy caught me staring, " do you guys know what you're expecting yet?"

I shook my head with a small smile, "it will be a surprise. Either way we're happy"

I felt Brock's lips on my cheek as he took his seat next to me at the counter.

I was due within the week, my mom and J would be flying in next weekend once I got admitted to hospital as she had to finish up her work.

She would be taking a month off from work to live with us yet again. Even though Brock had the boys, I knew he hadn't been as involved as he would have liked and it would be a bit new to him as well.

Rena would be helping as well but I didn't want to steal her too much, the new baby would be needing lots of attention but I didn't want Turk and Duke feeling neglected at all.

"Well while Brock's kids will be tough on the playground I feel sorry for anyone if it ends up being a girl,whoever messes with his little girl will regret it . Because her dad is a Beast" Bryan laughed.

"That's why I am grateful I have two boys. I see how Ric is with his girls, it can be a bit intense" Rena shook her head with a smile.

"No its intense because she always tries to spoil them" he smirked.

It was weird sitting around the counter staring at all the couples with us. From Paige and Alberto who were engaged to Paul and his wife Marla.

"Nicole's the same with the boys' " Brock rolled his eyes which led to me narrowing mine at him but he hung his arm over my shoulder and kissed into my neck. I missed the boys despite seeing them yesterday as they were now at his parents house.

"I'm going to drop them off at the airport and well them at home. See you in less than an hour" Brock whispered and I nodded.

But he didn't move and I smiled and he stared down at my huge ass belly before leaning forward and kissing me.

"I love you" He whispered into my lips not caring that all my friends were in the same room as us.

"Love you too Beast" I whispered back before giving him another quick kiss.

"Soon it will be Daddy Beast!" Dean called out earning a chuckle from Brock as Randy kissed my cheek and hugged me and I waved goodbye to little Brooklyn with Rena and Ric following.

***

"When are you and Brock getting married? Like next month?"

"No not so soon" I shrugged as I would still be healing then.

"They're practically married!" Dean shrugged.

"I guess we are. Sometimes I honestly forget I am not Mrs Lesnar yet" I laughed as I glanced at my ring.

"For once I am not worried about you sis, that man ain't going anywhere and you are both insane over each other. Its a bit sickening at times but in a good way" JJ smiled.

"Well I'm glad there is no more questioning and.." I stopped as I felt a...

"Baby!" I heard Brock and shook my head as he frowned but finished off his breakfast as the noise in the house filled my ears once again. All the kids as well as Rena and Ric had come over, they lived basically within walking distance on their own property now.

My water had broke because why I wasn't even sure, I hadn't been stressed or anything. Maybe excited at the thought of being Brock's wife but that was it..

"We're going for a trip!" Turk jumped up and down next to me making Meredith smile as I slowly fed her.

CREDS TO THIS ADORABLE BABY 😊😊

The boys were now 8 years old while Ric's girls were between 7 and 9.

"Unfortunately" Brock grumbled making me smile as it was his last minute idea to take the kids to Disneyland for her birthday since SMACKDOWN was touring over there and I had a shoot, when she wouldn't really be remembering it.

"Daddy is just angry because he wants us all to himself" I rolled my eyes and I felt Brock pinch my side and I jumped back. He then took the small bowl from me and finished feeding her.

"You have gotten better at it" I winked while the boys ran outside where Ric was enjoying some coffee on the porch with Rena.

"No I was good, she just didn't like that shit we bought the last time"

"Language!" I narrowed my eyes at him and he sighed.

"Your mom can be a pain sometimes"

I pushed him and shook my head as I ate my breakfast.

"More your dad!" Rena defended me as she walked in with the girls and cleaned their hands.

Believe it or not, we were living in Canada.

I hadn't been sure about it but once Meredith was about two months I decided that maybe getting a change would be good. Brock obviously loved it yet made sure that I was absolutely certain about what I wanted.

It didn't really matter to me where we were anymore as I just needed them. And if I wanted to see my family we could simply fly them out. Ric had let us know about this property and when I saw it I fell in love, it wasn't as big as the one in Minnesota but I loved it nonetheless.

***

"So Brie and I will be doing our photoshoot and then meet you guys at Disneyland okay?" I raised my eyebrow as Brock sat next to Meredith who was in the car seat next to Brooklyn, with Randy on the other side.

Brooklyn and Meredith were about five months apart with Brooklyn being older.

"I have been left alone with her before Nicole?" Brock narrowed his eyes at me as I set the baby bag in his lap.

"I know. That's not what I'm worried about" he rolled his eyes as I leaned over and fixed her little dress and kissed her forehead.

"Mama will be back soon okay?" She smiled and I leaned towards Brock and kissed him.

"I trust you Beast" I laughed and kissed him one more time ignoring the grossed out sounds from the boys and girls.

When I said boys and girls it was Brock's boys, Ric's girls, Kim's boys and Alanna as well as Alberto's two girls and his boy.

We had a mini bus for our trip and yet we still hoped no one would pay much attention to us.

I honestly didn't know why Brock had suggested it when he couldn't even handle all of them on the flight over here.

"Don't worry. I'll keep an eye on him" Renee winked as I gave Brock and Meredith one last kiss before following Brie into the building.

"What?" I glanced at Brie as we stood in the elevator.

"You're an amazing mom Nicole"

"Yeah don't try to make it seem like I haven't transferred my clingyness onto Izzy as well" I shook my head.

While Meredith was the name I loved, for now Izzy after Isabella was easier.

Turk had been the one to call her Izzy from the moment we brought her home so it stuck.

I had been so afraid that they wouldn't get along, they had definitely been excited with the pregnancy but once she was here I was afraid it would be different as they had hoped for a little brother.

But they were happy and hadn't wanted to leave her side as they were so happy with her.

"You're just being a concerned mom. If you weren't attached to her then there would be a problem" she shrugged.

"That's why you should have been a mom first or even Lola. I'm just taking it as it goes with Izzy. I honestly don't know what I'm doing sometimes and Brock just believes I am doing everything perfectly" I sighed as it did concern me a bit with how I felt lately.

"You probably are. While I couldn't wait to be a mom I'm fine waiting a few more years, I like being BB" she laughed.

I wasn't sure why the boys chose BB but that's what she was.

"You're set on getting the title from Alexa huh?" I questioned as she was now on Smackdown since last year's draft pick.

I knew she was happy with it as she could be with Bryan and they could have Josie on the road as Bryan's schedule wasn't as insane.

She had won the Battle Royal at Wrestlemania to face off against Alexa for the championship which would be this Sunday.

"Yes! I .. Well I like to think about it as we were the longest reigning Women's Champion" She smiled as we got into make-up and wardrobe.

"That was all you Brie! 250 days!" I nudged her smiling at the people around us as a greeting.

"If we add your months with it, its way longer" she shrugged.

"I guess but you're on your own now Brie, shining and keeping the Bella name up high"

"I think Isabella is doing that" she winked and I laughed before we went on set.

***

"Seriously baby I thought you had better aim than that!" I narrowed my eyes at Brock before trying to shoot the target again and missing, making him chuckle.

"Aaaaah these things are rigged sister! I am a pro at these things yet and I can't get it either" Dean kissed my cheek before focusing on his cotton candy again.

"See that's how a fiance should reassure his woman" I turned to Brock, giving up on the game.

He wrapped his arms and around me and kissed my forehead. "You didn't fall in love with me for reassuring you. You fell for the truth"

"Which was?" I laughed.

"That I turned you on and you couldn't stay away. Besides I closed down the whole fucking place so no one could see you mess up at a game Turk and Duke aced half hour ago" He smirked as he pushed his lower body against me.

"Thanks for insulting me as well. You're just doing that cause you got some out of me already for the day" I shook my head.

"Technically since we're in the States now this morning doesn't count" he smirked.

"You really need to learn to control yourself" I laughed even though I missed our two rounds.

"What? The kids ain't around!" He chuckled as Brie had taken Meredith on a walk with her and Bryan while Paige and Alberto had taken the girls on some rides. While the boys were with Rena and Ric and everyone else just dispersed.

"But the mom is!" I heard my mom and laughed as I saw Brock's face turn all shades of red as I turned in his arms before he let me go.

"I thought you guys weren't going to make it!" I hugged her after which she hugged Brock as well.

He had become used to having to hug everyone even Dean, although his versions of hugs to everyone else was a side hug while I got the ones that just warmed me up.

"Paul was in town and got us on his jet" J shrugged.

"Oh you are here!" I narrowed my eyes.

"Unfortunately I decided to make my presence known on the celebration for Meredith"

"Here I thought I wouldn't have to see your face" I rolled my eyes before smiling and hugging him.

"Happy you could make it too!"

Paul had done so much for me in my last year in WWE and I had been so cold to him. I was definitely happy that we were on a good page. I had hoped to return to the ring by Wrestlemania next year but at this rate that wouldn't be happening...

"I'm thinking rollercoaster! Guys you up?" I heard Renee and Brock was about to go as Brie and Bryan approached us.

"You guys go, I just ate" I shrugged as I took Meredith from Brie and adjusted her little cap.

"Next one guys" Brock nodded.

"You can go with, Beast"

"I was only going to see you scream Barbie" he winked as he tickled Meredith a bit before holding her in his arm and draping his other arm over my shoulder as we strolled in the opposite direction.

"You're an amazing father, fiance and well the most romantic guy I know" I blurted out and I felt his eyes on me and he stopped.

"Romantic?"

"Mmmm so you didn't search for me all over the world" I bit my lip with a smile as I made it a sort of mission to bring it up every couple of months as I had believed for so long I was being delusional.

"You know it was all a coincidence. I got lucky that the girl in the pink dress happened to work with me" he shrugged before kissing my forehead.

I leaned in the doorway as I found Meredith sleeping on Brock's chest. She was six months now but yet he still made it a point to walk around shirtless all day. I knew it was to torture me but also for skin to skin moments with our angel which I doubt he still needed to do.

We had a little lunch for my birthday but everyone had left soon after. Well Brie and Bryan had just left while Brock had disappeared up here with her.

"I was going through my luggage, to look for something to wear today, which I haven't unpacked because we haven't really gone anywhere and I found something. Or well Izzy found something" I whispered and he frowned as he turned off the TV and focused on me.

"It was a dress I had worn on my birthday about six years ago. I hadn't worn it after that night and I never knew why it didn't feel right.."

Meredith had been crawling on the bed as I folded up my clothes and well I guess the bright colour caught her eye. To be honest I had forgotten about my random memory because it couldn't be real...

He searched my eyes.

Almost a year since I had tried connecting all the dots. I knew even then that it was a possibility but I didn't get why he wouldn't tell me. He wasn't drunk and I had corrected him so many times on how many years he knew me and he just let it go when he knew he was right.

But I simply wanted him to know I knew.

"Nicole.." He sighed as he repositioned Meredith in his arms and then rubbed his hand over his face. I could see he already knew what I was talking about.

" That was the night I caught your eye right?" I folded my arms and he sighed and simply nodded.

He took my arm as I stood next to the bed and held my hand with my engagement ring on and traced over it as I laid down next to him. "You didn't remember when I saw you again so I forgot about it too until you were mine"

"I was your Barbie then" I raised my eyebrow.

"Well you coined the Beast"

I frowned and turned to him.

"No one ever thought Brock Lesnar a Beast before me?" I laughed as softly as I could.

"I never liked the name and no , no one had. I used it though, to hide that I wanted you cause there was no way I could have you" he sighed.

"Who knew Brock Lesnar was so sentimental?"

"Well he saw a beautiful woman one night that for some reason he wanted to make sure ended up safe and somewhat okay which surprised him. Brock Lesnar didn't care for random people but yet the woman in the pink dress... he figured once he saw her no one could compare even when she hadn't remembered or wanted him" He whispered as he seemed deep in thought.

"Be cocky to all the women you want. But never show this side to them" I smiled remembering my jealousy the previous year.

"I don't love other women Nicole. Well okay, besides the women in our family so maybe I should say I am not in love with anyone else but you baby. And maybe I'm just being extra Brocky for your birthday"

"Maybe" I giggled and kissed his neck before staring at our sleeping beauty as Brock liked to call her.

"I guess that pink dress was a prediction for our little girl" I smiled up at him and he shrugged.

"Maybe. I mean things happen for a reason baby. I know you still don't like the fact that I hadn't told you, once we were serious, about it. But I basically told myself that if you were meant to remember it you would. And you did, we were different people then and when we met again we were different people as well and when we met and wanted each other, we were different."

"All those differences and we fell in love with each other to realize in the end we were the same. I guess I get what you're getting at Beast, so I was thinking.."

"That you lied to your friends about eating because you were afraid to go on a rollercoaster?" He smirked.

I laughed, "No but I was thinking maybe the fact that we both wore blue last year on my first birthday we spent together after it all..."

"Meant we're having a boy next. Well I first have to knock you.."

I smiled as I glanced away and gently pinched Meredith's cheeks and she then held onto my finger.

"Are you.." he smiled as he didn't finish his question as I saw his blue eyes going bright.

"I'm pregnant" I whispered before feeling his lips connect to mine as by my smile he already knew another little Lesnar was on the way..