"Nothing is real.
This life is not real.
But the love you have inside you,
That is real and
it is a beautiful thing."

✘✘✘

"If we have a boy he is definitely not wrestling" I cringed which caused Rena to laugh.

"They're having fun" She smiled as we watched Brock and the boys.

We were at a high school nearby where they provided junior wrestling lessons and of course Turk and Duke were apart of it.

"You sound like Brock" I shook my head and realized I had said it quite loud as he glanced back briefly.

"Don't worry, I was the same when he brought up the idea but its fun and they like being like daddy"

I nodded slowly as I watched them go at it.

"Uhm Brock mentioned you were moving to Canada?" I questioned and she nodded slowly.

"Ric's parents live up there and well his mom isn't too well. While his father could manage he doesn't want to put too much on him so we're looking to get a house where they can stay with us"

"Oh that's nice."

"Let me guess, Brock just demanded you move to Canada?" She laughed.

"Well no... Yeah a little bit" I sighed as there was no point in lying to her.

"He has been wanting to move up there for so long but because we lived in Minnesota he just didn't relocate because we weren't a ten minute drive away. Now he sees it as the perfect opportunity" She smiled as she shook her head.

"I just wouldn't want to keep him from the boys when you guys go.." I whispered.

"Brock's parents are still here. He has a private jet he can certainly afford to fly back and forth. Brock is a wealthy man, I am simply saying that I wouldn't want you to feel obligated to move there just because of the kids. I'm from Florida. I'm used to the nice beaches, the sunshine, and all of that you know? Then I moved to a farm and realized I loved it. Maybe its because we love them that's why we love this life that puts us out of our element" she shrugged.

"I used to feel like that and I feel like I am in my element honestly."

She nodded, "I think you should think about it without considering anyone but yourself and well the baby on the way. Where would you feel most comfortable being a mother?"

"I guess I shou..."

"I have to head to the gym"

I saw Brock appear in front of us cutting me off while Rena smiled and grabbed the boys jacket and walked over to them.

"Okay, I'll just hitch a ride with Rena" I shrugged as she helped the boys slip on their jackets.

She couldn't hear but I was sure she wouldn't mind dropping me off after lunch.

He seemed to think for a bit before he smiled while I wasn't sure what was going on.

"You can come with me if you want" he shrugged.

"I would love to come with you but the last thing I need is you attacking your guys if they look at me too long" I smiled.

"Its just me and some kid messing around in the octagon. I won't promise I won't attack him but I ain't leaving you on your own today" He whispered into my ear as he leaned down and clasped my hand in his.

"Because its my birthday?"

I bit my lip as I wrapped my other arm around him wanting to kiss him but decided not to scar the boys again.

"Because its your birthday." he smirked and glanced back briefly before bending down and kissing me causing me to laugh as I realized he had checked where the boys were.

He hadn't actually said the words 'Happy Birthday' and I had actually thought he had forgotten until of course I went downstairs and found doughnuts shaped in 33.

"I love you Beast" I shook my head as I picked up my bag and we followed Rena out as I held Turk's hand.

"Did you have fun?" I asked which caused him to look up at me.

"Yes! Now I want ice-cream!" He screamed out excitedly making Rena glance back and shake her head while I laughed.

"I'll make sure daddy gets you some" I winked and as I stood up straight I saw Brock roll his eyes.

I elbowed him and he simply kissed the side of my head before swinging his arm over my shoulder.

***

BROCK GAVE ME TOO MANY FEELS IN HIS PROMOS FOR UFC200 😍😍😍😍

"You have definitely gotten bigger, just shows how little I am seeing you." I sighed as he finished up hitting the punching bag and sat down.

"After next week I'll be with you every day then we'll see what you're complaining about" he winked as I straddled him.

"Jake's gon be here soon and the last thing I need is him having this image of you" he whispered as his hands slipped underneath my top and rested on my lower back.

"Mmmm.." I smiled as I grinded onto his lap and he narrowed his eyes at me which only led to me giggling.

"Yes glare at me on my birthday Beast" I rolled my eyes and got off.

"I will just sit here and watch you." I shrugged as I walked over to the couch.

"Try not to make the couch wet" he winked as he entered the octagon.

"Brock!" I shook my head as I giggled at his words.

"Barbie!" He shot back with amusement.

I sighed as I smiled at Jake I guess and watched as they went at it.

"You know I would make a good training partner!" I called out after a bit.

"You do make one, that's why you're going to be my wife" he breath out before punching again.

I smiled and felt my cheeks heat up as I wasn't expecting that one. He didn't even realize how sweet it sounded or perhaps it was just me.

I didn't say anything further as I didn't want this random guy hearing Brocky, Brocky was mine...

SLAMMYS

"You okay?" I heard Brock as I curled the edges of my hair in Brie's locker room.

"Well yes, it would just be annoying if I didn't win on my birthday. I wish they hadn't moved it to today, now I am definitely showing" I laughed slightly trying to hide the nerves.

"I probably shouldn't have worn this right?" I questioned as I turned to him.

His eyes trailed over my body..

"You ain't showing much yet. I mean a bit but not much. If anyone questions it I'll punch their lights out unless its one of your buddies"

I smiled as it was like asking Brock if the jeans made me look fat.

"Speaking of.." I heard Renee and glanced at the door as I was about to finish up my make-up.

"Sister!" Dean screamed out as he walked in soon after her.

Brock rolled his eyes as he hugged me from behind.

"Where's Paige?" I questioned.

"Here" she smiled.

"Okay so I'm glad you guys are here because I figured its about time I tell you guys that I am pregnant" I shrugged not knowing how else to say it and it wasn't like Brock could do a better job.

"No way! I'm going to be uncle Jon?" He smiled while Brock frowned. Of course he wouldn't care enough to know Dean's real name.

"Yes you are and Aunt Ren and Paige" I winked as they hugged me before Dean left me.

"This is so amazing love! I am so happy for you two!" She smiled as she glanced between Brock and I.

"Why didn't you tell us last time in the car man? I wouldn't have been so hard on you" I frowned as Dean glanced at Brock.

"Like I said, it wasn't your business to know then" Brock shrugged while I wish I knew what exactly they were talking about.

"So Nicole wears the pants in the relationship?" He smirked.

"Jonathan!" I hit his shoulder..

He raised his hands and gave me a quick kiss on my cheek.

"I have to go put on a fucking suit right now because I am presenting Couple of the year" He grumbled , of all people..

"They seriously gave you that one?" Paige raised her eyebrow as she glanced in the mirror to check her make-up.

"Unfortunately" he sighed before disappearing with Paige and Renee following.

"I want to hear everything later okay?" Renee smiled as I knew she didn't trust him to get ready on his own. I guess he was sharing with Roman..

"Hey Paul" I heard her before seeing him enter as he smiled at me.

"Miss Bella, great to see you again!"

"Can't say the feeling is mutual Paul" I smiled as I turned back to do my make-up.

"I do apologize for everything that has transpired over these months. You do know that"

I sighed.

"I do and when I accept it. I will be sure to let you know"

Brock rolled his eyes and stood up, "what's up Paul?"

"You're needed to meet a kid in five minutes..."
He stated as he glanced at his watch.

"I wasn't even meant to be here tonight and they scheduled a kid for me to meet?" Brock frowned as I guess he just planned on spending time with me as we had, had a busy day.

With the boys morning lessons, heading out for some ice-cream before lunch and having to make our flight, which I had slept on.

And me attending a late lunch with Brie to celebrate our birthday as she was flying out after Raw; we hadn't had much time to ourselves.

He shrugged.

"Fine. Come on." He stood up and extended his hand as I finished up.

"I want to stay here." I mumbled as I didn't want to walk in the hallways filled with people I had no intention of interacting with.

"Yeah I ain't leaving you two in the same room"

I sighed as I held his hand and moved down the hallway ignoring several superstars glancing at us as Brock looked straight ahead as if they were invisible.

"You do it so easily" I mumbled which caused him to focus on me.

"What?"

"Not give a fuck..." I shrugged as I placed my other hand over his as well.

"That's what Fearless Nikki did.." He gave a small smile.

"I'm not her anymore"

He sighed.

"I didn't mean it in a bad way. I'm just not her right now and I'm fine with it, its just weird being back here. I feel so out of place" I confessed.

"You have become used to life out of wrestling baby. Once you get back into the swing of things ,whenever you are ready, after the baby it will all be going good"

I nodded as we turned the corner to see two kids.

I suddenly felt uncomfortable wearing what I was around them but luckily the lights were dimmed.

Brock surprisingly had no problem with my outfit but something told me it was too distracting for him to be angry.

"I want to be just like you Mr Lesnar. When I grow up. Then I can protect my sister" I heard as I hadn't really been too interactive as this was his wish after all.

"Well aren't you sweet!" I smiled as I hopped off the equipment box and the little girl squealed as I lift her into my arms.

"How old are you, three?" She nodded while the boy who had been speaking to Brock said he was five.

"Well I'm sure you will be" I smiled.

"So you're Luca and this is Mya?" He nodded.

"I protect her so I'm sure if you grow up to be this strong you can protect your sister" Brock smiled which happened to be rare in these hallways unless it was an evil grin.

It wasn't my favourite smile of his but it was there...

"Are you friends?" He asked as he glanced between us.

"Are we friends Brock?" I questioned and he smirked.

"Yes, we are best friends" Brock winked before finishing up as I sat on the equipment box and waved goodbye.

He moved between my legs and held my small bump.

"Soon we will have our own kid" I smiled before I pulled his hands off so that his arms wrapped around me.

"I can't wait " he smiled as he leaned his forehead against mine.

"I should probably be heading upstairs now." I sighed as I traced over his tattoos on his upper arms and he focused on my fingers.

"They can wait for a couple minutes" he shrugged as he leaned forward and kissed me.

My fingers moved to his cheeks as I deepened the kiss and his arms tightened around me.

"Nikki" I heard Charlotte causing me to lean back but as Brock turned I held onto his tee so that he didn't move.

"What do you want Charlotte?" I couldn't help the aggressive tone as I hadn't seen her in so long.

"Believe it or not, to apologize" she gave a small smile before moving closer to us.

"For?" I questioned while Brock stood silently next to me.

"Everything. I let getting to the top get to my head. You know the reasons I have tried being so successful here and I just wanted to do anything including I guess damage the relationship I saw forming. " She gestured to Brock and I before continuing.

"I don't want to blame my father because despite him planting the ideas into my head. I am a grown woman, I don't expect you to forgive me. But I am honestly sorry and I hope you'll be on top when you return"

I had known Charlotte for quite a few years now and I knew she meant it.

"Thank you. I know it took a lot for you to approach me. So I accept your apology, I hate having bad blood and I get where you came from despite it being extreme at times..."
I hopped off and hugged her.

"I guess I'll see you at the gorilla!"

I smiled as she walked on and I turned my attention back to Brock.

"You forgive her but not Paul?" He frowned and I rolled my eyes and hooked him in so that we could make our way over to the staircase.

"I don't want anything to do with her so I forgave her. Now she can leave me alone" I shrugged before leaning my head on his arm.

"And Paul?"

"Well judging how you spoke about him in that interview I'll have to deal with him for the rest of my life so I figured I can make him squirm for the rest of the year at least"

I pushed opened the door before moving up as he followed behind me, chuckling.

"I must say, seeing it from this angle no one else better walk up the staircase behind you" I heard him and rolled my eyes.

"Why would anyone else walk behind me when the Beast is with me" I called back as we reached the gorilla.

"Well.."

"Love, you're actually waiting here!" He was cut off by Paige.

"Yes I am, did you think you were going to head out there without me?" I narrowed my eyes.

"Well we don't know who shall be winning!" She wiggled her eyebrows.

Paige would be representing the award as she wasn't nominated. I didn't understand why not but she didn't seem to mind it..

I heard my name called followed by Brock's and frowned as I watched the monitor. Paige wasn't out yet so I definitely knew that it wasn't for Woman of the Year.

"I'm so happy honestly!" Renee squealed while Brock simply stood next to me.

"Why are we even nominated." I whispered as I saw them playing clips from all our times together especially the kisses.

We weren't a couple on screen though..

"I actually think you guys will win" I heard Brie as she moved to us. She had just finished accompanying Fox to the match.

Summer and Tyler Breeze

Rosa and Fandango

Lana and Rusev

And us?

What about Dean and I?

"And your couple of the year! Nikki Bella and Brock Lesnar!" My eyes widened while Brock simply had a small smile.

"You aren't going out with me are you?"
He chuckled, "Paul will go get that one. Let's just focus on the one you came for.."

"Seems Brock ain't here tonight. So I'll just keep it, we both know Nikki and I were awesome anyway!"Dean shrugged as he raised the award before heading back to where we were.

"Congratulations love birds!" He smiled and placed the award in Brock's hand who I know didn't care much for it. While I was still shocked but loved it..

"Let me head out and announce Woman of the Year..." She winked before we heard her music blast through the arena.

"You're going to win baby" I heard Brock and moved over to him, happy that we were alone at the gorilla as Brie had gone to shower and the blondes had to drive to the next town.

"I've already won the best award I could win" I shrugged.

"I didn't need an award to know that" he smiled my favourite one as he traced his thumb over my cheek.

"And your nominees are..."

Brie Bella

Charlotte

Nikki Bella

Becky Lynch

Sasha Banks

"All those women deserve it, I was out for most of the year. I didn't.."

"It doesn't matter how long you were here Nicole. You have done so fucking much over the last couple of years and this year you made history. If anyone deserves it , its you baby" he shrugged as he gave a small smile while I tried preventing mine from going any wider.

"You're not really an objective person"

"I don't have to be..."

"Nikki Bella!"

⇧⇧⇧⇧⇧BRIE LOOKS SO CUTE!!!

"Told you" he winked giving me a quick kiss before I headed out.

I heard the crowd erupt as I crossed my arms over my bump and hugged Paige as she handed it over to me.

"Congratulations love!" She whispered and was about to head to the back when I stopped her.

"So.. I just firstly want to thank the Bella Army and the WWE Universe for voting for Woman of the year. And let me tell you, its been quite a year, from making history by becoming the Longest Reigning Diva's Champion and the first Women's Champion of the new era. I wanna dedicate this Slammy to all of the women of the WWE, to every woman I have shared the ring with, to every woman that is backstage in production, all the way to the corporate office. To all the women in NXT and lastly to all the women of the WWE Universe who sits in that audience and cheers us women on! Thank You!"

***

"I find it hot that my smell provokes you Barbie!" He smirked before walking into shower.

While I had appreciated him holding up my hair. That was definitely a sight I would have rather him not seeing. It wasn't exactly the smell of him but the cologne he had worn which he threw out soon after.

I rinsed my mouth before joining him and smiled as he slowly washed my back.

"Today has just been exhausting, flying out to make it in time here. I know you probably wanted to fly home right now but I just wanna sleep at the hotel tonight?" I questioned.

I was usually off on my birthdays which I liked. Besides winning the awards , I hadn't done anything to celebrate it as Brie had to fly out so we basically just wished each other at lunch.

"Sure" I felt him kiss my cheek before I turned as the water ran over us.

"So we are couple of the year? Not too bad"

"Not my usual prizes but certainly one of the best"

I giggled before kissing him and he reached past me to switch the water off.

"Come on let's get dressed" I heard him as he handed me a towel.

"Dressed?"

"We're heading out for dinner"

I frowned as Brock wasn't exactly the "let's go out for dinner" type of guy but I nodded and searched through my luggage.

"Pick something for me" I moaned as I laid down.

"Do I look like I would know what to pick for you?" He chuckled.

"You look like a man who knows his fiance's body very well and what he would like to see her in"

"Okay if you trust me. I would like to just have you naked but that wouldn't benefit just me"

"I do, thanks it might be my birthday suit but not tonight" I smiled as I threw it on before slipping on my heels as I watched him get ready.

"Maybe later Barbie" he shrugged as he slipped on his blazer before extending his hand to me and we left the hotel room.

"If you can keep me up then maybe you'll get some action Cowboy" I mumbled into his shoulder.

"Going all out Brocky?" I smiled as we left the elevator.

"Why would you say that?"

"You hate suits" I shrugged as we entered the hotel restaurant and led to our table by the waiter.

"I feel like you're just having a Brocky moment by ..." I smiled as I realized he had booked us a private table away from all the others.

"I told you Brocky is gone" he smirked and I rolled my eyes.

"He never will be.." I narrowed my eyes at him trying to deny it as we took our seats.

"Probably not baby.." He sighed before looking over the menu.

"Oh I er... posted something of us " I mumbled as I heard my phone go off which reminded me.

@thenikkibella:Couple of the year? Unexpected but I think we have some good chemistry 😉 #TheFearlessBarbieandBeastIncarnate

"Good chemistry?" He smirked and took my hand in his before we ordered.

"We do though " I smiled happy that he didn't seem to care much and I figured that I owed him a proper post.

"Is it bad that I just want a Jimmy John's sandwich right now?" I smiled despite enjoying the pasta.

"We'll be in Vegas for the fight. We can go then or we can go when we get home.." I heard him as he cut into his steak.

I had wanted to order me one but I usually had mine with a glass of wine so I stuck to pasta which I hardly ate so pregnancy was the perfect excuse.

"You want me to go with you?" I asked after I realized what he had said.

"Yeah why wouldn't I?" He mumbled as he raised his eyebrow making it seem like that were obvious.

"Wouldn't I be in the way?" I wasn't sure how things would be as I knew it had been five years since his last fight as he had retired on my birthday.

I had remembered Nick getting us tickets to watch the show that night but it was such a blur.

I guess I should have been glad I didn't as maybe Brock seeing me with Nick then wouldn't have had the same effect on him.

He fell for a woman who ran past him crying, still didn't make sense to me but I guess he realized I needed some sort of rescuing and surprised himself by wanting to be the one who did it.

"If anyone has a problem with my future wife being by my side. I'll fucking stop the fight" he said way too seriously.

"I know how much this fight means to you. Even if I was mad at you, I saw how you spoke to Paul about it. Its how I would feel heading back into the ring after the baby. Because my neck stopped me and your disease stopped you. You wouldn't give that up" I smiled.

"You're more important than anything Nicole. Regardless of the fact that I neglected to mention it to you. That's actually the main reason, I saw how you felt when the doctor said you would be out until next year. Here I was getting the opportunity to conquer my shit and you were on the sidelines. I love you and I would give it all up for you. Don't ever doubt that baby"

"I don't but I don't want you too, I will go with you though. And yes it sucks I can't go back now but I'm happy that after five years you can. Please be careful though, I know I don't need to say it but.."

"I will" he smiled and I nodded as I squeezed his hand before he lifted it to his lips.

"Come on, feed our baby" he winked.

"I probably won't do this again. But I can treat you once in awhile" He whispered.

"I'm fine with dinners on our back porch overlooking the sunset Beast"

"Happy to hear that Barbie"