"And tonight nothing makes sense,
Except the way you look at me
And the way your eyes make me feel."

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I opened my eyes as I heard the heavy breathing as well as the arm draped around me let me know my beastly fiance hadn't taken a flight home but was currently sleeping behind me.

I turned and peeked at him before deciding to get up as this was a morning I didn't want to wake up staring into his blue orbs.

I noticed the door that had been blocking the doorway was no longer there as I moved out into the kitchen and of course Brie would be up already.

"Morning.." She gave a small smile and I nodded not really looking to get into another argument.

"Look, I'm sorry that I might have been a bit harsh yesterday. You're just a little more sensitive these days. In my defense, I feel strongly about having a home here so that's why I bit your head off because it felt like you weren't respecting my decisions."

She shrugged and I sighed as I leaned against the counter.

I would have liked to blame my bundle of joy for my moods yesterday with Brie but I had taken out my anxiety of moving so far away from everything on her. She seemed completely fine with moving so far away from our mom and me, while I wasn't prepared to do that.

"I know, I'm over it. Besides Bryan cleared things up for me. " I shrugged not wanting to get into it as she would most likely be able to read more into it now that we weren't both snappy.

"Of course he did, so when exactly did Brock get here and what happened to the door?" She questioned as she sipped on her green tea.

"Brock did it, he arrived soon after you guys left. So I'm sure you saw him.." I gave a small smile.

"What? Did you guys have an argument?"

"Something like that" I sighed as I was exhausted.

I wasn't sure when Brock had even come in as I had been up quite late just trying to figure out my thoughts as I maybe was too rash in attacking him.

It was the only way I knew how to get my point across though...

"We'll go out for breakfast and give you guys some space before we head out later. I know Brock wouldn't want to miss out on fly fishing and Bryan wouldn't want him to either. So go take a bath or whatever and we will be out of here once you're done"

I smiled as for once there was no interrogation but I knew it was simply so that I could let her dream home go if she didn't question me. Which I would as like she had said it was their decision, the same way moving to Canada would be my decision as well..

"I actually am tempted to hug you right now" I scrunched up my face in disgust.

"Come on" I laughed as I hugged her before heading into the room to take a bath.

"I would appreciate some privacy?" I raised my eyebrow as I focused on Brock in the doorway.

He ignored me and took the towel off the railing and then stood in front of the bath doing something he had done back when my neck brace still had to be worn.

"I don't get why you are still here" I mumbled as I wrapped it around myself and walked out.

"Because I love you" He simply said.

"Don't!" I glared and quickly threw over the tee he had worn the day before, ignoring his smirk.

"Tell me why you are so mad" He sighed as he rubbed his neck before folding his arms and leaning in the bathroom doorway.

"If you didn't get it, why should I Brock? Its the third time. My pregnancy, the house in Canada, this fight.." I wavered.

"You're upset because I spoke to Rena?" He frowned but I shook my head.

"She's the mother of your kids. I understand that everything in your life affects them so you need to speak to her"

"Then what is the problem baby?" He whispered and I knew that voice. He didn't want to fight, he was trying to reel me in.

"I just...everyone is still weary of us being together and then I'm blindsided by you fighting in UFC again? I have been blindsided so much by you and you know how much it hurt and then you do this. I didn't say things last night out of anger I meant it, because right now I just feel like I'm always left out of the loop. It would be nice if I were the one who you turned to, not Rena. You were together for over ten years, even after the divorce you had no one, so I understand there is a bond there. But I am going to be your wife.. You always get mad at me each fucking time for running to my mom but you keep doing the same thing" I whispered as I picked at my nails not wanting to see his reaction because if it didn't show what I wanted to see I would most likely get mad.

Which I didn't want, I didn't want to be mad at him..

"I don't mean to but I just did I don't know. She understood what I went through then with my illness so she would understand why I need to go back" I heard him and slowly nodded.

"You said you had the support of your family. So what does that make me, nothing?" I croaked as I peeked up at him.

"You know that's not what it means. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about any of it baby. Like you said I was with her for ten years so I'm just used to discussing what's on my mind with her and asking her opinion on things" he shrugged as he crouched in front of me trying to look at me but my hair wasn't helping.

"I'm just the stupid girl you are engaged to and happens to be carrying your baby then?" I folded my arms as I glanced down before feeling him wipe my cheeks.

The sudden sadness I was sure I could blame my bundle of joy for as I had been planning to stand my ground and have another scream match so that he could get it in his thick skull but none of that was happening.

"You know you are more than that Nicole. I fucking suck at this, you should have given me a right hook again" He said amused trying to cheer me up as I pushed my hair out of my face

"Like you did to the door?" I whispered which caused him to glance back at where the door should have been.

"I'm scared okay? I know what you went through. I might not have been with you but I have heard you speak about it. I feel like shit just watching you speak about it because I see the pain in your eyes. I might not know you like Rena does but I know you Brock. You're risking your life by heading into that octagon again. And I'm scared and you don't even care. I'm marrying you, I'm having our baby. I'm your family too.."
I shrugged and I saw his jaw slowly clenching as he nodded before getting up and sitting next to me.

"I don't want you upsetting yourself I can't change the fact that I messed up but you are right. I love you baby, I'm not really good at seeing my own faults. I'm just set in my ways but you are everything to me Nicole. I mean that, I'll be straight with you about shit. I meant what I said I was going to sit down with you and discuss it. But you're pregnant and look at this, I'm fighting in a couple weeks so I figured it would give you less time to stress if I prevented from telling you before hand you know?" I heard him next to me.

"I guess.."

"Nicole."

"I just want to know that I mean something. That we are a team, that I am considered in your mind when you make important decisions. Watching that video, it hurt me so much because the man I love is doing this big thing and he doesn't even think I would like to know. Regardless of the baby Brock, Rena was fucking along for the ride while she was pregnant. I just find it stupid that that's the reason you're giving me but what's done is done..." I sniffed as I walked into the bathroom and splashed my face.

"Why would you say that it wasn't our home though?"

I sighed.

"Its just, they were saying how its basically just like John, you pay for everything. Which is true, I'm basically living off your mystery fortune. You're spending money on flying me and my friends out everywhere, buying me things that remind you of me. I hadn't realized it. We should be equal and I'm just so clingy and dependent and that was my downfall with John. They're just seeing me doing the same thing I guess..."

"What do you think?"

"I think I just love you so much. I love my life , living there. I've finally become the person that I want to be through being with you. Its just not the person they expect, to them it seems like I'm adapting to being with you. Being a new person to fit the mould of what you want me to be"

"Well you were already a bitch when you met me and that's who I fell in love with. So we know that's bullshit" he smirked which caused me to smile.

"Fuck what they say Nicole. That home is ours, if I had a problem I would have spoken to you. I have enough money and I know you do too but I ain't taking a cent from ya. You can use it on the baby. I can see how you'll be spoiling him or her and my boys. I won't be giving you money to do that so where else are you going to get it?"

I laughed and kissed him.

"Fighting with you is something I honestly hate and I know you're avoiding why you didn't tell me but Brie them will be back soon and then we're stuck with them. I don't want to be pissed with you all day" I whispered into his lips as my fingers traced over his neck.

He didn't say anything confirming my thoughts.

"It was silly to think our fighting days were over" I smiled not wanting him to feel guilty. If after our fight he still wouldn't tell me I guess I was better off not knowing...

"It was silly to think you were actually giving me a free pass to screw up." He chuckled and I recalled that.

"I can't help it. You just make me so pissed" I pushed against his chest but he tightened his arms around me.

"That's us baby, it wouldn't be us if we didn't fight every now and again. That's how we fell in love, but let's keep it to a minimum until the baby is born okay?" I smiled.

"Okay"

***

"You're enjoying yourself over there cowboy?" I smiled as he chuckled while waiting patiently.

"As long as you are I am baby"

"Okay okay we get it guys" JJ rolled his eyes but then smiled.

"I think I got one!" I laughed but it was nothing unfortunately.

I would have loved to rub it in Brock's face as he had caught two and reluctantly released them.

I knew he loved his hunting which I actually hadn't experienced with him yet , so I guess fishing was the same to him.

Getting the biggest fish to show off as a trophy.

"Nicole, catch!" I heard Bryan and caught the beer.

Brock sighed as he walked over to me and handed me his empty can, swapping it with my full one and kissed my cheek.

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"Two rounds baby" he winked while I rolled my eyes.

"You're still in the dog box, you'll be lucky if you get any rounds Brock" I whispered as I hugged him.

"Its not good to hold onto anger baby"

"Oh I'm not angry. Just enjoying the Beast being in trouble" he rolled his eyes which was still the cutest thing to me but kissed my forehead before moving over to Bryan.

I watched him with a smile before getting back to what I was doing.

"So you are pregnant and you didn't tell me?" I heard Brie beside me making me jump before staring out ahead.

"And what exactly gives you that idea Brianna?"

"Well besides for your moods, well extra moods. Being super edgy, I saw that little can swap.."

"So? "

"Do you want some of my beer?"

I sighed with a smile.

"How long have you known?" I finally turned to her as there was honestly no point.

She was my twin for crying out loud,she probably knew by the tone of my voice that I was trying to hide it.

"The engagement dinner, I have been trying to get you to just blurt it out but nothing. Which is surprising, you have become better at keeping secrets than me..."

"We both know you are the worst at that! Not me! I'm almost three months. I just wanted to be safe you know? "

I shrugged as it was weird speaking to her when the idea was that she would be the first one getting pregnant while that hadn't even been an option for me a year ago.

"No, you were scared about how everyone would react, mostly the gang, because we all know what it means" She searched my eyes and I knew she was referring to my return, well no return.

"Yes but I spoke to Brock about it and I have accepted it. I can't change it and this baby is more important than any career. Nothing is stopping me from stepping into the ring after anyway"

I glanced at Brock which of course he caught and winked at me before sipping his beer and talking to them again.

"Mom and J knows and Brock's parents too. Obviously Rena and the kids he had to sit down"

"I'm so happy for you and now at least there is an explanation for your extra bitchiness" she hugged me.

"Unfortunately there is none for yours!" I teased as we headed over to the rest which earned me a gentle shove as we laughed.