"I can't remember what it was like before you,
and I don't even know how we got here
but maybe that's exactly what I needed..."

✘✘✘

"Beautiful ain't it?" I heard him as I stared at the ultrasound while we waited in the office for the obgyn to make her way in.

We had a male doctor before but of course Brock wanted to make sure our baby would be delivered by the same person who was handling my check ups and he wasn't going to have some guy staring at his future wife's well area while delivering their bundle of joy.

"Perfect " I smiled as I placed my hand over his that was on the arm rest.

"The last time we were in a doctor's office was when that thing came off" I heard him next to me.

"Yeah" I sighed and I saw him frowning due to my response and was about to say something when I heard the door opening.

"So as we saw, everything is going well." She smiled as she sat down.

"Yeah besides for the fact that my baby was conceived backstage at Summerslam thanks to their dad who couldn't wait" I smiled as my hand briefly left his as I rubbed his shoulder.

"Here I thought this past few months had taken the outspokenness out of you.. "

"That's the reason he loves me so I don't know why he is complaining. "

He sighed before chuckling.

"I wanted to ask a question" I raised my eyebrow as I placed my hand back on his and figured I would not continue to make him feel uncomfortable despite him chuckling .

"Of course! Shoot, I know there must be loads of things going through your mind right now."

She knew it was my first child but I didn't really have much questions as I was surrounded by people who could help me; my mom, Brock's , Rena and Brock. While no one knew just yet I knew I would have a good support system once we made the decision to tell everyone.

"We only found out we were expecting two weeks ago and for the past month I have been taking birth control. So I'm a bit worried about that, cause I'm not sure if that has an effect or anything?"

"Well it all depends on the patient and like I said everything was perfect. You're just about 6 weeks along, considering the fact that you are recovering from a neck injury. There may be some strain which may cause you to need to take certain medication so be sure to run all medication prescriptions through me just to make sure its not harmful"

I nodded with a smile as Brock's thumb traced over my hand.

We listened as she went over a few more things while I squeezed Brock's hand every time he let out a sigh. I could sense he was annoyed and wanted to get out as soon as he could.

"And we would be able to know the sex of the baby at about five months?" I questioned.

"Yes could be earlier depending on the patient as I said, so we will just see your progress with each check up. That's if you would want to know then?"

I glanced at Brock but he clearly hadn't heard the question.

"Well we have about 3 more months to decide so I guess we will see...Thank you so much! " I smiled as she shook our hands and we made our way out.

"What did I do now?" I heard him as we got onto the road and I had been staring out of the window.

"What would make you think you did anything?" I asked and he shook his head.

"Because I know the woman I love" I rolled my eyes as I leaned back in my seat.

"I said you're welcome to screw up" I shrugged.

"Nicole."

"Its just that I get that you have been through this before with the boys. So attending things like that isn't as exciting because you're used to it all. But I'm not, its my first time and I find it all exciting and special. Once I tell my family, I'll have them come with me so that you're relieved" I whispered.

He swerved and parked the truck along the side of the road and they called me dramatic. Luckily we were on route to the farm so the road we were on wasn't really busy.

"Don't fucking start" He breath out as he leaned back and ran both his hands over his face. Despite him getting worked up I didn't..

"You asked what was wrong with me. I told you and I'm not surprised by your reaction but I didn't want to tell you so don't get all mad at me for giving my thoughts, which you asked" I shrugged .

" Look at me"

I turned my head and looked at him, not really having the energy to get into a fight so if that was going to be happening I would hike home.

"I was annoyed because that woman was so fucking energetic, not because I was bored. I was excited when we saw our baby and I will be going with you to the appointments whether I get annoyed or not. Because even though I have gone through it all with the boys when Rena was pregnant, with them I wasn't home much due to work so I didn't get to do that with her. So you could say its my first time as well..." His voice faded as he glanced around before searching my eyes, fighting with the Beast was so much easier but like he said the Beast had been there because he didn't have me and now?

The Beast was fading...

"I feel like its your mission to make me feel bad for being a bitch!" I rolled my eyes as I moved closer to him and pulled his hand in mine.

"I'm just being honest Nicole. The talking shit is annoying, I get annoyed when people talk too much. "

I glared and he chuckled, "except you baby you know that"

I pulled on his chin and he inched his face closer. I bit his lip slowly. "You know I don't like when you do that"

"But you do like me?" I smiled before giving him a long kiss as my lips smashed into his.

"That's still to be debated " he smirked as I traced my fingers over his beard.

"Oh debated? what were you declaring last week? I'm your everything"

"I knew that was going to annoy my life" he rolled his eyes as he slowly pulled back onto the road.

"You're my everything too cowboy. When I mean you, I mean your offspring as well. Do you think Turk and Duke will like the idea of being big brothers?" He smiled as I spoke.

"Well they better like it. I'm sure they will like the change, I mean they get along with Ric's and they're close in age."

"Ric has girls right? " He nodded.

"What would you want, a girl or a house full of guys outnumbering me?"

"Mmmm you planning on getting knocked up more after this one?" He glanced at me before focusing on the road.

"I don't know. I was actually including Turk and Duke" I laughed.
"Well like you said we have the boys who can be older brothers if it is a girl and we can start off with a boy as well. It doesn't matter to me baby.."

I hadn't even realized he still remembered what I had said on Unfiltered.

"I think we should keep it a surprise? The sex?"

"I'm not a fan of surprises" he frowned before getting out to unlock the gates. I moved over and pulled the truck in before stopping and moving back to my side as he hopped back in.

"Your whole life is a surprise Brock, just think about it. You return to WWE, randomly meet me while I'm a mess and set your sights on me. It all just stops because I'm so stupid not realizing that you were what I needed and bam you just forget about it all and then one day I just bump into and.."

"I bumped into you, so that wasn't a surprise Barbie"

"What?"

He sighed as he parked the truck before hopping out and coming to my side.

"I saw you coming out of the locker room and I saw you heading to me cause you were focusing on your sister. You sounded pissed, I was pissed after being attacked by that fucking weird Wyatt shits... "

"Hey! Bray is kind of my friend! " he rolled his eyes as he opened the front door before continuing.

"... so I didn't really care. I bumped into you cause I figured what the hell, I'm pissed so might as well. But then of course you told me to watch where I was going"

"You just admitted to bumping into me. But yet you got mad when I pointed it out?" I asked as I sat down on the couch not really feeling like walking all the way up the staircase to change just yet.

"I wasn't in the mood to be given attitude by you. But I was glad I did because that night I saw that you had finally become what you wanted to be after all that time.."

"And what was that?" I asked to amuse him as I moved onto his lap with my legs dangling over the arm rest.

"Fearless. I was a Beast in your face, no John Cena for the first time or maybe it had been awhile but I returned and you were alone and you weren't afraid. I guess I was proud cause you had grown into someone you had always wanted to be at work"

I smiled even though he wasn't making sense.

"Brock I don't understand.."

He sighed, "you wouldn't.. It doesn't matter now anyway. Come on let's get ready they'll be here in the next two hours"

He kissed my forehead while I tried figuring out his vague words before.

But I couldn't...

***

"So yes I am so sorry for missing your birthday!" I pouted as I hugged Renee tightly while she laughed. Brie and I had flown out when Brock had unintentionally worried us with his text.

"Its okay, we can get some mimosas now that you are clearly feeling better !" She winked.

"Sure!" I smiled even though that definitely wouldn't be happening.

Brock and I had decided not to share the baby news just yet as we wanted to be safe and wait for the three month mark.

Well more I decided and Brock agreed, I didn't want everyone assuming that we were merely getting engaged due to the baby. Brock had just said fuck what everyone thinks and even though I hated myself for it, my family's opinion meant a lot to me. Especially with all my failed attempts at love, I just wanted them to actually feel like I was going down the right path for once .

Unlike JJ and Brie I hadn't been lucky in finding the one so easily. Well I guess not easily but they weren't looking and their first serious relationships after so long were the ones they ended up marrying and of course my shortest relationship thus far would see me getting engaged.

I guess we would make up for it with the rest of our lives...

"Something tells me you might need it. Are you sure Brock is fine with having Randy here as well?"

I sighed as Randy had yet to arrive but we were close, especially Kim and I and I liked keeping my friends close. I didn't want to lose touch just because I was off the road.

"If he wants to keep me happy, he will be.."

"You said it love!" Paige laughed while I shook my head.

"I'm kidding, Brock just saw things my way. That at this stage of our lives we just want to be happy and I want to make sure my bonds are solid" I shrugged.

"Yeah I beat his ass good" Dean laughed and I saw Brock chuckling as they stood in the kitchen.

"What are they going on about?" I asked as I always had to be careful despite Brock chuckling.

Brock chuckling could mean so many different things, he could have thought Dean was actually funny or it was a sadistic laugh as in he would be smashing his beer bottle over my poor lunatic brother's head soon.

"He is bragging about how he scored a victory over John" Brie rolled her eyes as she sat down having come from the kitchen.

"Oh that was an impressive match" I smiled remembering how proud I was and how happy Dean sounded after calling me saying he did it for me.

I didn't like the fact that me breaking up with John had caused Dean to despise him even more but I guess it helped Dean.

John deserved it anyway after calling out Dean and mentioning that poor excuse of a podcast where Dean's personal life was basically torn down. I hated that Steve Austin out of all people couldn't think that Dean would be uncomfortable with certain questions yet kept pushing and pushing.

"It was, it was pretty awkward though cause their little argument on Tuesday where it ended with John slamming him was not meant to happen. Things got pretty heated, apparently Dean had a honest shot for the title and John really cost him"

"Are you serious?" I frowned and Brie nodded.

I knew Bryan had most likely told her whether he was supposed to or not.

I sighed and stood up, "You. Come!" I pulled his hand ignoring Brock's look of confusion as I pulled Dean out onto the empty back porch, away from the filled house .

"I don't want you getting personal because of me Dean" I whispered as we stood on the porch.

He frowned seeming confused for a bit before catching on. "I wasn't getting fucking personal, he was."

"What?"

"I heard him talking to Randy about wanting to sell the apartment in California. Randy asked him about your stuff that was still there and he said you didn't need it anymore he'd just find someone who can use your things. So I interrupted their little discussion and said that I would gladly come and fetch your stuff when we have down time again. Now look, I was being on my best behaviour and then of course he had to mess with me and say that I had to stop being your bitch."

"Did he seriously say that?" I laughed as while it wasn't a serious thing I knew that he knew any insult to Dean would set him off.

"Yeah I mean I don't mind being your bitch sister!" He smiled and I rolled my eyes.

"But yeah we got into it before the main event and then he cost me my fucking match. I don't know, my schedule is insane so you need to get your stuff at his place and..."

"What stuff?"

Fuck.

Dean frowned, "I will leave you two!"

He smiled while I mentally glared at him even though I knew him frowning meant he had thought that Brock already knew and soon saw Brock in front of me.

"What stuff Nicole?" He asked as he searched my face.

I sighed as I moved towards the little wall and stood back against it.

"When I moved out I only took the things I bought. That was in the house in Tampa, all the things I literally own is in the apartment John and I had in San Diego. I haven't been there because well.. My year has been insane with you, I just forgot and now he is planning on selling it and doesn't really care about my things"

"Why didn't you tell me months ago? I would have fucken gone to pick your shit up"

"I just told you I forgot and I don't need you doing that or Dean. You're busy enough as it is, I'll go down there soon and get my things okay?" I raised my eyebrow as the last thing I needed was him having just dealt with the John thing to technically relive it by going to the old apartment with me.

"Nicole.."

"Brock, don't be like that. I am perfectly capable of picking up my things by myself . I don't need you to babysit me."

"Fine." He sighed and I glanced inside and saw Randy and Kim.

"Now let's go announce that I am the Future Mrs Lesnar okay?" I smiled hoping to bring out his good mood again and he glanced around.

"Okay?" I asked as I tugged on his shirt due to no response.

I reached around and grabbed his behind and he smirked and wrapped his arms around my shoulders.

"I love you baby and I respect you but I am going with you" he whispered before kissing my forehead and walking in.

I sighed but should have known he wouldn't just agree with me on that one.

He gave Randy a nod as we sat down around the counter as Brock didn't really have a big dinner table so we had to improvise.

"Kim, when are you due?" I heard Brie.

" Around Thanksgiving.. so she will be here soon " She smiled and Randy kissed her cheek.

I smiled due to their happiness at having their bundle of joy soon.

"Could be on our birthday! "

"Oh please don't, Nikki already has to share her birthday with Brie the last thing we need is another one overshadowing her special day! " Renee teased.

"Yes I only had sixteen minutes to celebrate my single life before Brianna made her entrance. " I rolled my eyes trying to act annoyed.

"And then she was attached to Brie ever since. Convinced I was trying to steal her sister" Bryan smiled.

"Guess we should be grateful for Brock for stealing her away " JJ laughed and I kissed Brock's cheek before wrapping my arm over his shoulder and rubbing his neck.

"Not surprised Nicole needs a quiet Beast to handle her. Nicole likes hearing her own voice " Randy smirked and I threw him with my napkin despite being happy things weren't as tense as I thought they would be.

"Luckily I happen to love her voice " Brock chuckled before sipping of his beer.

"Well I guess you should if you are planning on sticking with my sister for the rest of her life" Brie laughed.

"Well he wouldn't have made me his fiance if he wasn't.. " I rolled my eyes but realized I had just dropped the bomb.

"Get outta here!" Dean smiled as he continued eating but then searched my face .

"Wait Beast, you really proposed my man? Yes! Now you are officially my brother! " Dean hopped up and hugged Brock from behind causing everyone to laugh.

"Where's the ring?" Renee asked above of Dean annoying Brock .

"Upstairs. It wouldn't have been a surprise if I had it on now would it?"

"Come on man. No love? Its okay we have a long time to work on your unaffectionate ways " Dean shrugged and sat back down in his seat while Brock simply rolled his eyes.

"Oh my word its when we filmed unfiltered right? I knew you were glowing because of something"

I was pregnant then..

"Yeah we were.."

"Wait you have been engaged for a month already?" JJ frowned.

"Well yeah I..."

"Why didn't you tell us sooner?" Brie frowned.

"Can we just congratulate them instead of making this about you two! " Paige rolled her eyes.

"Sorry" they laughed.

" Here I thought we were all invited because you missed our gorgeous faces?" Dean shook his head still smiling.

Outside of my family he knew how much I wanted it the most and everything I had gone through. So I knew that he was truly happy for me..

"Where's the champagne? " I heard Paige and saw her get the bottle.

"You're going to have to drink for two "I whispered into Brock's ear.

"Are you serious right now Nicole? " He frowned knowing he thought I should just tell them.

"Please? " I whispered and gave his thigh a squeeze.

"Fine. I better get two rounds out of you after they leave" he sighed as Paige went around filling the glasses.

"You're such an hormonal teenager " I spoke into his lips which amused him.

"We can keep it a surprise " he whispered.

"What?" I frowned before realizing what he was referring to.

"My life is a surprise. I still don't know how I managed to have you here after almost five years and.. "

"Four.. " I corrected him as he seemed to make that mistake every time.

"Four.. so I guess one more surprise wouldn't hurt. " I smiled and kissed into his neck before turning my attention back to my friends who were getting lost in conversation again..