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GOOD LUCK TO OUR BROCKY AT SUMMERSLAM!!!

"I need to believe that I am different
And I am full of love.
And if I live every moment believing,
Then the chaos in my heart will be a beautiful thing,
and the world will never cease to forget my name.

✘✘✘

RAW

"You'll ruin your image!" I laughed as we drove over in the limo.

Paul was currently seated next to Brock, he had attempted to apologize for everything and I guess I couldn't be mad at him but I wasn't going to give in that easily.

He hadn't liked Brock and I together even before the contract so it would take awhile before I accepted the apology.

Brie and Brock were with me thanks to Vince allowing her to come, I had been afraid that since she was off for the night that Stephanie would ban her from the arena or something. That also meant that Shane was right, Vince would be here thankfully.

"So what? No one knows you belong to me?" he whispered into my neck as his hand slowly made its way up between my legs while his track jacket was draped over my lap.

"The people who need to know that I'm not available, do" I whispered as I stopped his hand and held it in mine instead as getting turned on with Paul seated next to him and my sister opposite us was hardly my idea of a good thing.

He gave a small smile before kissing my cheek as the limo stopped, knowing who I was referring to.
Luckily that person would not be here tonight, with that came Dean not being here tonight either.

To say he was not happy about the news was an understatement but in the end he was my lunatic brother trying to cheer me up along with Renee who I would see after this back at the hotel.

"Brock" I gripped his hand before he left while my sister and Paul already had.

He frowned, "I want to kiss you" I whispered and he smiled.

I hadn't needed to do it in a while because I had more movement in my neck and lately we were alone more often and he draped me with enough kisses.

He immediately shut the door and leaned forward to me .

"Oh I want more than a kiss Nicole" he whispered lowly as his lips grazed over mine.

"But a kiss it is baby"

His hand immediately clutched my cheek and he pushed his tongue past my lips . My hand tightened around his in my lap but he immediately let go of it and gripped my thigh and pulled me onto his lap.

Not as rough as I would have liked but I was currently injured which became more annoying each day.

I grinded myself onto his lap as I couldn't stop myself as I felt him pushed up against me wanting to be inside me and both his hands squeezed my behind as he rocked me onto his lap.

"You chose a bad time to seduce me Barbie" he whispered into my lips but I ignored him as my hands held his arms .

"Has my Barbie ever been fucked in a limo before?" He breath and I moaned into his lips, with the time we were stuck in the backseat as he pleasured me on our drive to the hotel flashing in my mind.

That was before everything , before we were even together..

He had been in the gym more lately, whether it was while I trained or just going in there while I spent time with my family but his body was definitely more defined.

I guess he wanted to look his best for Summerslam but he was either way..

His hands left my behind but not for long as his hands slipped into my leggings and squeezed my bare behind and I unintentionally bit his tongue due to the surprise which caused him to growl.

This is why I tried to stay away from things getting heated because I wanted to have The Beast but I was weary due to my neck and once he got wrapped up and unleashed?

I stopped and pulled away but he leaned forward and pulled on my thighs, "you can't leave me hanging baby"

I laughed into his lips and sat back while he glared, " you find leaving me with a hard on funny Nicole?"

He breath but I ran my fingers over his lips removing the red lipstick stuck on it.

He sighed with a smirk, " once we get on that flight baby.."

"No Beast, you are going to have to wait until this comes off" his eyes left mine as he stared at the brace.

"You fucked me on my birthday?" He cocked his eyebrow letting his eyes fall to my bust.

"Made love to you on your birthday" I whispered and he smiled as he kissed each of my breasts with my cleavage revealed through my merch tee.

"I can be Brock if The Beast is too much baby" he whispered into my cleavage before leaning back lazily.

"The Beast is there either way" I bit my lip as I glanced down and he smiled a very big smile one which reached his eyes.

This man and his ego, I couldn't help but laugh.

"You scared your family will question you on your awkward walking after I'm done with you?"

I rolled my eyes and hit his chest which left him chuckling before he kissed my cheek again.

"Its okay baby I can wait, I waited almost five years so what's another month or so" he shrugged casually like my Beastly boyfriend hadn't just said the sweetest thing.

I found it hard to believe that I caught the Beast's eye.

Why me?

There were so many women who he could have and at that time I was different. I didn't have the body I did now . I wasn't my own person , I was nothing to admire. It was why Nick found it so easy for me to be replaced, why I got reeled in by John. I was falling in need of a parachute at the time.

"You mean its been four years Brocky" I corrected him after my thoughts broke and he frowned.

"You returned in April 2012?" I reminded him.

He cleared his throat and his eyes briefly widened which caused me to frown.

"Yeah , should I feel honoured that you remembered the date?" He recovered from his mistake as cocky as usual.

"Brock Lesnar returning to the WWE is a day everyone remembers. If I had paid attention in the short month before I got fired perhaps I would have been with you. But you had just gotten divorced then?" I whispered .

"Finalizing" he nodded.

"I would have most likely been a rebound if I were to even think of approaching you." I gave a small smile as I doubt I would. I had no intentions of ever crossing paths with the Beast or anyone after John.

I planned on being on my own for awhile to just be me, but being with the Beast helped me with that on its own.

"I don't do rebounds baby" he shrugged and I smiled.

"I know why you want to stay here with me but my segment is up pretty soon and then you have to go out there .." He whispered and I sighed as I had loved just pretending like we weren't parked outside of the arena which would seal my fate as the end of an era for Nikki Bella's reign began .

" I know Brie filled them in but I just can't face the looks. I saw my sister's face and she was speechless. They know how much this business means and here I am giving this up, handing my dream over" I shook my head as Paige and Foxx would most likely be at the arena as well as Charlotte gloating..

"But yet you spent the week with me?"

I smiled as we had the house to ourselves all week , we weren't home much though or by ourselves actually as the boys were there quite a lot due to the summer break and Rena and Rick came over as well.

I loved being on his parents' farm as well, Brock's wasn't as farmy as theirs but I guess he liked it that way.

I liked to believe that today was just a nightmare that wouldn't be approaching but flying out this morning and meeting most of my team in the hotel made it all real.

Brie giving me the speech that Bryan would have most likely wanted to , that it isn't the end. I just need to work on myself. The speech I had given him years before when I believed that they weren't taking his injury seriously enough.

"You're my man , my Beast Brock and you don't doubt me when you look into my eyes. You don't give me that look that makes me feel like this is the end.."

"Because I don't believe that baby. " I smiled and kissed him before I heard the door opening and broke it briefly glancing to see Paul again.

"I thought you were in the building somewhere we need to get to the gorilla in 5" He nodded as I focused my eyes on him before Paul closed the door.

I wanted to be annoyed at the interruption but we were in a limo at the arena not back home.

"Come on , just because this is between us doesn't mean I can't walk you to your sister" I slowly got out and soon felt his hand in mine.

We had been talking about us hanging out together backstage and I told him it would be a bad idea.

Brock had changed a lot over these couple months , he was much more affectionate and caring. I loved him even more for it because compared to what he projected to people. Just like them I had believed that he didn't have a side like that. He hadn't cared about anyone before and he still didn't here but he cared about me and hence even considered accompanying me to the ring but people knowing about us would perhaps change the perception of the Beast.

While we had merely had a storyline, the Beast falling for Nikki Bella behind the scenes? I loved the sound of it but like I said. It would ruin his image so while we were both in the company I didn't want to draw attention to our relationship and I knew deep down that was most likely how he felt.

Brie had texted me to let me know she was in the cafeteria near to the exit which I was grateful for as it was usually empty.

I felt Brock tug on my hand as we approached and he briefly glanced around before he took my hand and placed it around his neck and lift me in his arms as he kissed me. It was a gentle but deep kiss, part of me knew it was to make me feel better as he most likely wouldn't get to see me before I went on.

I would be heading to the Gorilla where Vince would be and Stephanie . He wasn't really in the mood for them and I wasn't really in the mood for confrontations.

I broke it and gave him two quick kisses before kissing him again as I felt him set me down and then pulled me into a hug as my forehead rested on the red part of his merch tee.

Why red and not yellow?

Because he was being a sweet Beast by supporting me by matching , well that was my assumption as I watched him slip it on and he didn't argue just narrowed his eyes before putting my brace on and letting Brie in, who forced us into a picture.

Like I said sweet Beast smiled for the picture making my heart melt when I saw it while I looked horrible.

"Do you think they'll just demand me to bring it out like with Bryan?" I whispered feeling slightly anxious as in less than a hour I would be out there.

"Not if they don't want another path of destruction" he whispered onto my cap, referring to what he had done two months ago.

"And you banned off Raw?" I rolled my eyes as my fingers gripped his tee hanging down his lower back while staring up into his ocean blue eyes.

"Summerslam ain't Raw and I am advertised so even if they suspend me for the next few weeks I don't give a fuck because I'm only here for you tonight baby" he shrugged and I smiled as I realized then his return was in fact meant to just be at Summerslam due to his suspension by Stephanie months before.

"So you..." I began to ask..

"Brock Lesnar report to Gorilla!!!!" I sighed and he rolled his eyes which made me laugh before he bent down and kissed my forehead.

"I love you baby and don't be surprised if you hear my music if they decide to screw you. Only I have that privilege"

I pushed against his chest as he chuckled but hugged him one last time before he moved on down the hall.

Instead of going in immediately I watched him and felt the urge for my beastly boyfriend rising. Being back here made it all real, I was dating The Beast of the WWE but he wasn't that anymore .

Not to me anyway.

He was simply Brock The Cowboy, my boyfriend who was not a Beast. Yes he had his moments but he was an amazing guy and he proved it by making me smile, by being his cocky self before he left me.

"Well I'll be damned!" I closed my eyes before turning and seeing blue eyes on me.

"Shut up!" I glared at him but then smiled, not at him though.

"Brock Lesnar and Nicole Garcia would have never guessed" he smirked clearly amused.

"I'm surprised your brother never told you anything" I smiled as I walked towards Randy and his now wife Kim.

When John and I were together we were all close and once Randy got injured we didn't see each other much. Since the break up I hadn't been sure how it would be but despite being The Viper, Randy was a real sweet guy and Kim was amazing so I wasn't surprised that they didn't seem to be treating me differently.

"Well I have taken a step back from this place and all the drama it comes with , the first time I saw John was last week." He shrugged glancing down at Kim with a smile.

"I have been keeping him on lock down. How are you?" Kim smiled my way .

"I'm good and you certainly are?" I gestured to the beautiful bump, remembering all the talks we had over the years secretly hoping John would change his mind and we'd fall pregnant together and have the best friends raise their kids together.

Oh well..

"I heard its a baby girl" I remembered seeing the news break on twitter.

"Yes it is.. But hey don't try and side track me. The Beast?" Randy cocked his eyebrow briefly glancing at his Rolex.

"I don't know , he just sunk his claws into me like you did with this one" he smirked but then hugged me.

"Well more like sunk my teeth into her . But hey as long as you don't hate me for slaying the Beast" he smirked as he pulled away and I punched his arm as he too could be cocky.

"We'll see!" He shrugged after his laughter faded.

"I will leave you two, cause I have some business to attend to" he kissed Kim briefly.

I remembered he was on Smackdown which meant he was not allowed to be here but shook away my thoughts as we entered the cafeteria.

I rolled my eyes as Brie was not there while Brock's music filled the arena and I saw him on the monitor as I got myself a coffee and we sat down.

"I gave you a call when I heard about your injury" I heard her as Brock made his way down the ramp.

"I'm sorry, in my mind I believed that John might have asked you to do it and I had this intense ending of everything with him the week before" I shrugged.

"I am your friend too Nicole, you my girl" I laughed and nodded as we watched Paul deliver an amazing promo which had me laughing as it certainly sounded different from all his others.

***

"VIOLENT...now I understand I'm not supposed to use that word but I stand next to Brock Lesnar which means I can say any damn thing I want to say" I smiled as Brock laughed.

Gosh my Beast was hot.

"Does he speak a lot?" I heard Kim and realized she was referring to Brock.

"As much as needed" I shrugged.

"The new era needs to step up to Brock Lesnar! My client Brock Lesnar is not here to court favour with Mick Foley.. Bang bang.. Or Stephanie McMahon .. Or Vince McMahon or any single member of the WWE Raw Roster!"

"But yet he likes to bang a woman on the roster!" I heard Dean behind us and he gave a brief nod to Kim before sitting down next to me as she caught up with Renee.

"What are you even doing here?" I rolled my eyes despite me smiling due to him being there.

"I have a dark match later"

I soon felt myself being moved as Dean pulled my chair and then sat between us causing us both to frown.

"No offense but you're injured and you're pregnant. I don't want you getting into any catfights with all the bashing going on"

"Maybe its the voices inside his head.. Have you heard Randy's theme song? ' I hear voices in my head' How many of these voices tell you that Brock Lesnar is gonna beat your ass at Summerslam and drag you down to Suplex City"

"How many times have you been dragged to Suplex City?" Dean nudged me.

"He went on his knees Nikki how many times has Brock gone on his knees for you?" He gestured to Brock while Paul was begging.

"Gross Dean" I heard Brie.

I honestly couldn't stop laughing at Paul while he cut this segment it was awesome as usual but so darn funny!

I laughed as Paul was currently dissing Randy saying how he could never..

Fuck.

"The question is did Randy Orton fire his first shot or did he sign his death warrant?"

***

"Nicole!" I heard him breath and smiled as he walked over to me as I neared the Gorilla with my sister.

"Did you run to me Brocky?" I wrapped my arms around him despite him being slightly sweaty.

"You'll never know" he smirked before kissing my forehead.

"I'll be waiting in my locker room for you ?"

I nodded as I heard Vince's music playing.

He glanced between me and the gorilla as my eyes focused on his.

"Fuck that I'm coming with you" he gripped my hand as Brie smiled before we walked on.

"You're going to cry aren't you?" Brie whispered but I simply shook my head.

Despite tonight being one of the hardest nights of my career having to give it all up as my hands were tied . I wouldn't cry, I had been weak at Extreme Rules when I cried out in pain. I had been weak when I received the news that I wouldn't make it in time.

But I was Fearless Nikki at least while I held the title so I wouldn't be weak out there..

I turned to Brock not sure why as I didn't want to speak before I got out there. I had just hugged Brie as Vince spoke about Summerslam. He lowered his head until his lips grazed over my ear.

"I love you Nicole" he kissed my cheek and while I was tempted to kiss him. The last thing I wanted was to kiss him with an audience.

"Please welcome Nikki Bella!" I smiled as I made my way down.

I was happy that Brock had only been focused on me as we patiently waited for Vince to finish off his speech. Stephanie's eyes were on us but he held me from behind and my arms rested on his as we watched the monitor.

I had said it would ruin his image and I guess it did as I was deemed a weakness for the beast. But I was already giving up my baby, the one thing that proved all my hard work over the years. There was nothing they could do to me so my boyfriend would not be forced into anything.

I thanked Vince as he handed me a mic and I gripped the title on my shoulder, already feeling the anxiety of handing it over.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before focusing on the crowd in front of me.

"My sister and I debuted nearly 10 years ago in this company. Well my sister did and I was later revealed as well"

I smiled as no one had known The Bella Twins and they were confused as hell whenever we would do twin magic.

"We weren't seen as much then besides being unique with us being twins of course but I like to believe that from then to now even with our absence in between these years. Whether Brie was set back due to quitting or me with my knee injury, that each time we did come back we came back with a Vengeance we came back stronger than ever and when The Bella's were here, people knew. The entire locker room knew when we returned. They might not have liked that we did but they knew" I shrugged with a small smile.

"Being on the road is tough, working in this business is tough and there are days when working you just don't feel your best and I was lucky enough to have my sister throughout my career. Giving me the push I needed.
There have been many influential people in my life over the years along with her. "

I glanced down thinking of the Beast.

"Despite this setback I couldn't be more grateful for where I am right now. The women of this company are where they belong, shining like they should and that is all I ever wanted whether I was bashing on them or beating them down. I still knew each of them were hardworking and extraordinary fighters."

"I have fought each of those women back there and none of it has been an easy fight. If it were they wouldn't be here in this company.."

"I am happy to be standing here as the Longest Reigning Diva's Champion and the first Women's Champion of the new era . I am happy because I am surrounded by people out here who respect me and love me. And even though not everyone backstage may love me, I know they respect me because I might be a women in this company but my last matches before proved I can be a Beast if I want to be, A lunatic if I want to be. I am not defined by a label of a diva and neither are any of those women backstage."

I smiled as the crowd cheered and Vince smiled but I knew the end was near.

"The fact that walking down here I got a standing ovation shows that I have not been forgotten by all of you. It means the world to me that the army is still standing after these last couple months and I guess that's a good sign because it proves that I am not the Fearless Army , all of you are. I might be the Fearless Queen but sometimes the Queen needs to stand back and watch how other people fight for what they deserve.
My sister has worked her butt off these last couple months to prove to everyone back there and the Army that she is another Bella to be reckoned with and while I will not be able to square off against her. I feel sorry for whoever does as my sister is on her own war path and she will be taking down anyone who stands in her way. So with that I am here to announce as Vince said that I will not be returning at Summerslam.."

I glanced down before seeing the many confused faces.

"This title has meant everything to me . Its more than just red and gold. Its a symbolism to me of every single thing I have accomplished. I hate that this is the part where I have to give it up but as I said before there are many strong women back there . Strong women who are able to fight for you and be a champion while I heal. "

I choked back the tears as I wasn't sure when I would be returning and I would not be deemed weak.

"This isn't goodbye for me as I will return and I will be taking what is mine again whether it be from my sister or not. But for now The Fearless Queen needs to step down but the Bella Army stands strong!" I raised my title before hugging Vince and handing it over to him.

***

I walked into the locker room after being greeted by many superstars , "I thought you'd be waiting there for me?"

"The Beast doesn't do that shit Nicole." He shrugged and I zipped up his track jacket for him.

I smiled as I knew that, I didn't respond as I gave a weak smile.

"Because I love you I didn't beat Randy up for fucking doing that shit to me out there " he smirked.

"Because you love me?" I raised my eyebrow and he shrugged.

"Saw you talking to his wife. But my gentleman act will be over soon" he shrugged and I laughed a bit.

I watched passed him as they showed a replay and I no longer had the gold..

"Without it.. here I am nothing, just one of the women. I'm not even one of them because of this" I shrugged as I ran my fingers over the brace.

He frowned and wrapped his arms around me. Not saying anything sweet. Not saying anything as I held him back.

Back when I first made history at Wrestlemania I wanted to walk backstage and be pulled into his embrace as the fearless champion who conquered it all but I went and broke up with him.

And now here I was, in his arms but without the champion.. without my reign. That night I hadn't been fully happy because he was more important.

As he held me in his arms trying to make it better he was all I had. Shane said once I got back I would be first in line but once that champion was won, the storylines would go on without me and I would soon be forgotten.

Even if I were healed completely in the next month I would have to wait for them to figure out a way to write me in, everything from this point onwards was uncertain.

I had no plan, I had made history but now I had nothing to do. Yes I had to work on my body but then what? I'm healed and I'm sitting around watching everyone else do what they love?

"Well you're something to The Beast and not to sound cocky or anything but that's an achievement on its own" I smiled and leaned back and kissed him slowly choosing to get lost in my loving Beast instead of my thoughts consuming me.

"It definitely is.." I whispered against his lips before kissing him again.

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