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"Some are dim and some are always wishing for more.
It never ends.
People are like hours,
they are changing all the time."

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"No I'll be okay" I giggled.

"Your brother's one eye just became its usual colour so let's not give him another one " By the tone of his voice I could tell he was amused.

"I heard that!" I heard JJ from the other seat behind me and showed him middle finger before staring out at the night sky through the small window.

"I will try not to" I smiled as he told me to try and not fight with my brother for the flight.

I missed him already.

I was questioning why I had left him to the vultures aka mom and J but Rena would be coming over with the kids and I figured it was best if I wasn't there so they weren't with me and he could spend as much time with them as possible.

I didn't want him to feel like he had to choose between staying with the kids and being by my side so the whole gang came with even though they had been meant to go home.

Also this way he didn't feel uncomfortable with so many people around as he spent time with them.

"You're getting your ass back here straight after?" I laughed at his serious voice.

"Yeah wouldn't want someone to start missing someone" I bit my lip even though I was wishing I could just be getting lost in his eyes before kissing him.

"You miss me ? I know you can't stand being away from the Beast" he chuckled.

"The Beast yes but you? Not so much" I lied.

"I wouldn't be so smart if I were you, my fingers are waiting for you and that tight..." He didn't continue and there was simply silence.

"Brock?" I laughed.

"J wanted to know something" he chuckled as I guess he had walked into the room.

"Lesson learned Beast, don't threaten your girlfriend" I laughed hoping J hadn't heard anything that would let him know what Brock was referring to but Brock would have sounded annoyed if he had.

"I wasn't threatening, threatening would mean you wouldn't like what I was planning Barbie" his voice went low and the nickname I had gotten annoyed with suddenly meant so much to me.

I doubt he had even realized how cute he sounded last week. I loved how he never realized he did things , even his use of 'baby' just made me melt. I didn't just love the Beast I was in love with him.

"I miss you" I sighed not caring that all my siblings including Lola and Bryan were on the jet with me.

"Glad you finally admit it" I could tell he was smirking , not saying it back, but saying something even better.

"I love you " I heard him after a bit, his voice was still low. I guess not wanting anyone to walk in on him confessing it.

"Oh you must really miss me" I blurted out even though I was smiling like an idiot as he hadn't said it first in so long.

"Not as much as you are thinking baby" I could tell he was smirking yet again by the way his voice changed .

I rolled my eyes, "I love you Beast"

"You saw each other two hours ago jeez!" JJ groaned as I set my phone down on the empty seat beside me.

"What is your problem with Brock, JJ?" Brie frowned.

She had had the week off and was now flying down to Florida with me since RAW would be there tomorrow and well JJ and Lola would be going home from there.

"There is no problem. She just needs to grow up. You are 32 and still don't know what you want"

I stood up into the aisle and leaned against one of the seats to face him.

"I am with Brock that should be clear as to what I want." I frowned as he wasn't making sense.

I was becoming tired of explaining to them that I have no intention of leaving Brock but I guess with my past they were all still skeptical on my decisions when I loved someone.

But the love for Brock was so real..

"So you are telling me his kids are going to be substitutions for yours you won't have ?" He cocked his eyebrow as he fully focused on me , surprising me a bit and he knew it .

Woah.

"So me being great with his kids is a problem?" I narrowed my eyes at him trying to recover.

"No, you are settling again. Falling for these guys who don't give you what you want you are drawn to them like a lovesick idiot!" He rolled his eyes .

"Jay!" I heard Lola.

"Its none of your business" I shrugged at him as I was not going to defend my love yet again ,even though I wasn't exactly sure if Brock wanted more kids .

"That's what you said each time with John until you came fucking complaining" I sighed closing my eyes briefly before focusing on him again, I told Brock I would try but he provoked me .

"When are you going to let that go? I came to my family. Families are suppose to be there when you need them most not throw your weak moments in your face with every chance they get! That's my fucking past!"

"And Brock is your future until he screws up which I am sure he has already" he sneered as he glanced out of the window.

"Yeah we both have, we are not fucking perfect but we're still together because not that you need to know but he is the man that won't be leaving me and I won't be leaving him" I stated again just so he could be sure to hear even though I knew he heard every single thing I told our mom that morning because he threw it back in my face with my Beast there as well.

"We'll see Nicole"

"You're so close minded. Brock is different but I wasn't drawn to him because of it. I thought I was but its because deep down I knew I wasn't meant to be with Nick or John. I don't care if you believe me or not but I love him and honestly truly love him" I sat down and slipped on my headphones not bothering to hear a reply.

***

4TH OF JULY

"So your family flew home and you decided to stay with me, you really do love me?" I heard him as he was busy in the bathroom.

"How does me staying here prove my love Beast?" I laughed as I stood up just as he stepped out in a trackpants and death clutch tee.

Renee's words of this being the only thing he owned in his cupboard crossed my mind but I shook them away as I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him.

"You're a California girl baby, I know you wanna be on the beach somewhere doing whatever you like to do not on a farm in the middle of nowhere.." He traced his fingers over my cheek.

"Maybe before but all I want is to be alone with you, even though we can't do what we really want to" I bit my lip with a smile and he groaned and lift me into his arms so that he was able to kiss me.

His hands slowly gripped my behind and pulled me against him, "Well getting some steaks on the grill out back with my kids and the woman I love watching me ain't so bad"

***

"Thank you Dr. Uribe I'm so happy!" I smiled as we left his office with my brace in hand.

"No problem, just make sure you come again on the date on that card" I smiled even though I wasn't feeling too good as there was a chance I might have to miss the boys birthday party due to it being on the same day.

That would also have meant that I would be coming on my own. I hated hospitals, which is why I always had someone but my mom would be out of town for business that weekend .

J would be back at work aka WWE Headquarters as he had taken some vacation time after the wedding but as soon as they returned home he would be going back.

Maybe Bryan wouldn't mind..

I decided not to think about it as it was still a few weeks away, my anxiety of being alone kicking in now would serve no purpose at all.

I sat down on the chair in the waiting room, the doctor said I was allowed to take my brace off for a few hours a day to help get myself used to some time without it .

I was happy as I had movement in my neck again as it had been a bit constricted with the brace but it had been a month and Brock had made sure I stuck to everything I needed to and the doctor was impressed with my progess.

It would be weird walking without it besides bathing and sleeping as I wore a different brace for when I had to sleep,but like I said, I was happy .

Summerslam was two months away and I could start working out again. So I certainly felt good about seeing the x-rays and him explaining everything to me and with Shane in charge I was looking forward to an amazing return and being his champion.

I heard JJ's voice interrupting my happy thoughts with something I would have wished not to hear.

"Don't you feel tempted to see John when you are here?" I sighed as I knew John had returned to the company in the last couple weeks and this was where he stayed.

Well where we stayed but all this place held was memories of a past that I didn't want to linger on which is why I made it a habit not to stay here long.

"No, because I simply want to get back to my man who is the only one I love" I answered honestly and confidently as my talk with Bryan and helped clear up my head.

I hated that I had these small parts that fell for what JJ threw in my face but I was an indecisive person however even with that I knew Brock was the one true guy for me.

Did I believe in soul mates and all that?

Yes I did, like I said I was dreaming of the whole fairytale way back when and I believed that Brock truly was instead of riding in shining armour on a white horse he rode in with trackpants and a tee in his truck...

He was my Cowboy Beast and I his Fearless Barbie (BEAUTY )

"I didn't question your love" he rolled his eyes angering me by clearly not believing me.

"JJ seriously, I don't need you to believe that this is permanent despite the fact that he let all of you in our house for more than a month, he has been more than generous for a man like him and the fact that you doubt this is just.."

"No I believe him, his actions says that he is fucking crazy about you but you are too indecisive for your own good so that's why I'm such a pain because I know you are going to screw it up because you don't know what it is you want"

I was yet again surprised by my brother and let my guard fall a bit as in his own way he was caring. He had been singing a different tune on the flight blaming Brock but I guess this was how he really felt..

"I might not have in the past but I do now JJ, yes I am indecisive about things but regardless of it all, he is the one I want to be with. And I just want you to stop voicing this hate because while you've been trying to hurt me by saying everything Brock heard and I don't know what has been going on in his mind since then" I whispered as I stared at him while everyone was now seated talking on their own while before they had been ready to stop JJ or me from attacking each other.

"Well he punched me so he still cares " he pointed to his fading bruise and I gave a small smile.

"Yeah he didn't kick you out either" I added not feeling like fighting anymore and he didn't seem to want to either.

JJ and I fought a lot, well my siblings and I fought a lot, mostly me being the one they fought with because I had the strongest personality. But JJ and I were at odds the most because we all had a vision growing up and while Brie basically stuck to hers I was forever drifting off course and being the only guy in the house after our grandpa died JJ, despite being the younger one, always felt the need for us to stick to it so that we could be happy .

He wanted me to be happy that I knew, but he had a crappy way of going about it unfortunately.

"Yeah" he sighed, "look I'm not trying to be the bad guy here but mom is busy questioning you on the future which you are once again unsure of and they are going along with your feelings as they always have which has gotten you nowhere with your previous relationships .
I'm just trying to be straight with you. Not bring you down but I want you to question yourself and make sure this is what you want in the long run. I get that maybe because you planned with John and Nick you just want to take things as they come with Brock but what if you don't want a cowboy for the rest of your life and then this guy is so in love with you.
His turning 40 next year right? He doesn't need maybes and neither do you... Forgot about mom and even me telling you shit you need to figure it out on your own Nicole, take the time to clear your head"

I simply nodded as I guess I understood where he was coming from, but I didn't need time I knew I wanted Brock more than anything I needed him and I had him.

"If only JJ could just get to the point instead of always dragging what he has to say in several arguments" Brie sighed but smiled afterwards.

"He's beginning to sound like Dean " I smiled as he was normally the one who went about things that way when he got annoyed with my stubbornness.

"Shut up" he rolled his eyes.

I heard my phone vibrate and saw a text from the lunatic himself Dean and frowned as he said he was outside the hospital with Renee.

I guess I wouldn't be flying straight home but I had missed my lunatics anyway.

***

"So would you have cashed in if Roman had won?" JJ asked breaking my thoughts from wondering about Brock.

He was most likely having dinner with the kids or something and by the time I would be back he would still be sleeping so it was fine if I flew out a bit later.

"I don't know actually, probably.. its just time and Shane loves that I am champion. His a cool guy, with Roman's issue I am sure he would have liked for me to be champion anyway. I mean nothing against Seth but he has had enough titles..." He rolled his eyes.

"I'm sure Shane is. I mean he stopped my title from being stripped from me, and I guess you have a point despite the hate Roman was a good champion in my eyes and his cool so The Dude taking over for him is perfect" I smiled as I sipped my coffee.

We were seated in their hotel room, I guess Dean knew I wouldn't feel like heading out anywhere looking like the walking dead.

"Oh, I forgot to tell you Shane said he wants to speak to you sometime, his not here this week though so you should probably give him a call" Brie spoke as she glanced over at me.

"Is it good or bad?" I hesitantly asked as I had just thanked him for not stripping me of my baby.

"I'm sure good he didn't seem like he was going to be the bearer of bad news besides, what could the bad news be?"

"I don't know, at this point maybe Stephanie talked her brother out of me keeping me title" I voiced my concern as they all probably knew that was what I was feeling.

"Well I hope not, I can't wait to feud with you" Brie smiled looking excited, despite a few people not liking our feud two years back I loved every minute of it as only she could test me and push me to my limits because she knew those limits being my twin and all, well my limits in the ring anyway.

Okay have I mentioned its been more than a month without The Beast?

"You haven't won yet" Bryan teased earning an offended look from his wife.

"I'm sure I will though" she shrugged after he kissed her cheek.

"You better not argue with her Bryan or there will be no hippie loving tonight " Renee teased causing Brie to roll her eyes while we laughed out.

"If Brie or whoever wins at Battleground won't you have to be back by then to promote?" I heard Lola question as the divas were currently still qualifying for a shot against Brie .

"I don't know , I'm sure that's what Shane wants to speak about I guess. He said I would just be at Summerslam but it could have changed.." I shrugged and sat back realizing that my brace would have to be completely off by then if I had to promote .

"You should have brought your title so that we could take a selfie" Dean nagged causing all of us to frown at him.

"You hate selfies?" I raised my eyebrow but he shrugged.

"Can't hate on a champion selfie" he winked and I shook my head as only he could interrupt my concerned thoughts and make me smile by being completely random.

"But its cool, we will have loads once you return. Appearances, photoshoots maybe even a storyline" he smiled excitedly.

"That's if she beats me" Brie interjected.

"That's if you win at Battleground!" He countered.

I doubt they would ever fully get along as Dean would be on my side no matter what, and that's why he was a better brother than JJ as he always defended me whether I was wrong or not.

A/N:

Not much Beast but hopefully you enjoyed: )

Phone call + argument + quick flashback

Good news + sibling talk + lunatics