SO THIS IS SADLY THE LAST BROCK POV CHAPTER FOR NOW😢

WHICH ALSO MEANS NO 'NOVEMBER 2011' AFTER THIS 😞

BUUUUT THERE WILL BE MORE FLASHBACKS REGARDING THE FEUD WHENEVER IT WILL BE HIS POV OR NOT.
STILL FIGURING OUT HOW TO INCORPORATE IT :)

"The beauty of not knowing how you feel
Is that one day
You will realize that not knowing
Was the only way
You would find all the feelings
that were meant to stay."

✘✘✘

November 2011

I unzipped her dress as I hovered over her but didn't remove it. I bit onto the top of her breasts as she held onto my head.

"Yesssss" she moaned and my teeth left her skin and I pushed my tongue past her lips as my hand reached between us and I rubbed her over her underwear causing her to push up against my hand.

I didn't know what the fuck was going on with me but I wanted this woman .

I wanted to fucking please her.

I felt her nails claw at my back and I groaned. My hand left her as I clutched her thighs and wrapped her legs around me.

I tasted the tequila and remembered...

I broke the kiss and leaned back and got off the bed immediately. I breath out as she frowned sitting in the pink dress .

"You're drunk.." I stated as I had been in what fucking daze or trance I didn't know .

I blamed being knocked out an hour ago.

"But I want.."

"No you are fucking upset over your idiot boyfriend. You don't want this. Trust me. Once you are sober you will realize that girls like you don't fall for a Beast" I shook my head as I looked everywhere but her sad eyes, using her name for me as some sort of defense .

"What's wrong with a Beast?"

"Beast's lives are fucked up.. They think they know what they want but then fucking five years down the line they realize the person they married doesn't really know them. They believe there is something to fix but there is nothing"

I shrugged as I felt bad for Rena I mean yes she had stuck by me and she could handle me but she wasn't suppose to handle me she was supposed to fucking accept me, be able to keep up .

I saw her trying hard but it wasn't working so we spoke and decided it was best to end things,  so she could find someone who was meant for her.

"Maybe you should let someone know you and not try to be something you aren't just because you believe you want them and what you aren't is what will make you get them . If a Beast is what you are be it. Fuck those who don't want to be near you" she shrugged and got into bed.

I stared at her, confused. She went from catching on shit to crying to talking shit that made sense.

I sat down on the covers next to her.

"You're not leaving?" She whispered.

"Said I would wait till you passed out.." She smiled and took a pillow and placed it on my lap causing me to groan a bit as I still hadn't calmed down.

She rested her head on it.

"I'm not some whore who goes around seducing guys to get back at her boyfriend.." She whispered and I believed her for some reason.

"I know Barbie..."

"My name's Stephanie by the way. If you wanted to know.." she mumbled.

"Happy Birthday Stephanie.."

***

"Daddy!"

I smiled as my boys ran into my arms as Rena smiled and closed the front door. I lift them into my arms and she went over to Nicole and hugged her.

"Rena this is my mom, you know John .. My brother in law Bryan. My sister-in-law Lola and my brother JJ"

"Nice to meet you all. Sorry to just drop in , we just got back from my parents and my husband is still driving back from the town over with the keys for the property"

They wiggled out of my arms and went to Nicole.

They hadn't seen her in awhile and watching her with them as well as how Rena and her got along made me happy.

I remained in the kitchen as they walked out but noticed her mom stayed behind.

"My daughter loves your kids" she smiled as she walked to stand beside me . I gazed out of the window as Turk sat on her lap while she spoke to Rena, while JJ and Lola seemed to be playing football with Duke.

"She does" I wasn't exactly sure where she was going with it.

"I don't mean to maybe overstep. I know you haven't been together that long but I know you have those two boys, you were married. Do you see yourself doing that again with Nicole?"

I tensed as I wasn't really expecting it.

"All due respect Kathy, but I know what I want and don't want and that's the only person who needs to know" I shrugged as I wasn't going to talk with her mom about our relationship.

Yeah she was just asking but I knew John was close with her mom back when he was with Nicole and I guess I should be too but that closeness didn't mean I had to tell her shit I hadn't even shared with Nicole yet.

So I walked out hoping she wouldn't hold it against me, but knowing her she wouldn't. She was friendly and just looking out for her daughter due to the hurt she only suspected recently Nicole endured thanks to Mr Perfect.

I took a seat next to Nicole as I sipped on a beer as they spoke.I was tired but I had missed my boys so when Rena called and asked if they could stop by I said sure.

She hadn't dropped by before as she knew Nicole and her family were staying here and she wasn't sure if Nicole would be up for them.

I hadn't bothered mentioning them coming over before today because I knew that Nicole would have said yes even though she didn't have the strength to keep up with their talking and questions then .

She hid her pain because she wanted to prove that she could get better faster but I kept my eye on her so she couldn't try something stupid like take a walk to the gym.

Nicole was smart yes but her career meant a lot to her. I almost lost her due to it, in more ways than one with my betrayal and her risky surgery.

"But its good in the end.." Rena spoke,  I am not sure what I had walked in on.

"So what's the theme then?" Nicole smiled as Turk played some game on her phone.

I didn't really like the whole playing games like that because that's how kids became lazy that's why they didn't have any of that shit.

They already had the TV to distract them..

They were raised to be outdoors but I ignored it as I liked the fact that he had chosen to sit with Nicole.

My kids loved her just like her mom said and I wouldn't mind starting our own family one day, I loved to have more kids. I had three other siblings so I would love for Duke and Turk to be older brothers and hopefully get a little girl in there as well.

"Brock!" I gazed at Rena realizing I had been fixed on Nicole as she showed him how to pass some level.

"What do you think about a cowboy theme?" I took a sip of my beer before answering.

"Is that what they want?" I asked as I glanced back at Duke who had gotten a touch down.

"Yes, I was thinking we could have it on your parents farm and.."

"Yeah yeah I'll speak to them" I cut her off and she frowned but turned to speak to Nicole again.

I hadn't actually gotten around to introducing her to my parents even though I had met her mom months ago. She didn't seem to react to Rena bringing them up but I didn't want her head to start wondering shit.

"His parents have a big farm , they have rabbits,  horses and cows right Turk? .. Its basically the farm you would imagine. The boys always love going there.."

"So perfect for the cowboy theme !" She laughed and my mind drifted to that night.

I hadn't left to catch my flight like I had planned to, I had sat watching her for an hour thinking of what I couldn't remember anymore.

She was just so fucking beautiful and I hated it but I cared about her then.

I had left before she woke though as I needed to get home.

Don't ask me why but she was the reason for the whole Beast thing kicking off . After the night I saw John Cena consoling her it was basically over for me and her.

She hadn't remembered me and I honestly believed the beast had no shot so I became the guy who instilled fear into everyone.

Hurt everyone who dared get in my way because I was the Beast and fucking fearless.

She was gone the following month like she had told me She would be and I forgot again ...

But then she came back as his fucking girlfriend and a reality show along with it, but that's another story...

All I knew is that at some point I hated her because even though she was with him I wanted her, I was fixed on her and she didn't give the Beast a second glance.

So I completely shut everything off pretended the night didn't exist for more than three years , so much so it actually slipped my mind even after we got together.

I hadn't known why I was drawn to her,  why I loved messing with her. I remembered randomly one night after being with her,  so if deep down she felt something that night despite her drunk mind she would remember.

I guess that's the main reason I don't want to let her know, cause I can't tell her one thing without revealing it all . That Nicole was the reason for the Beast not caring, not his divorce. The divorce was the set for a new beginning especially because after that night. I figured if I saw her again I would fucking go for her because like I said I was stubborn and once I wanted something I took it.

Unfortunately things hadn't gone my way..

So she was better off not knowing how while she had become Fearless she was the Beast's weakness before she even knew but John Cena knew it ...

"Does it hurt Coco?" He traced his fingers over her brace.

"No angel, it makes it better. Go on play with your brother before the sun goes down" he hopped off and I noticed Rena was standing with J.

"Brocky.." I felt her hand on my trackpants tracing over my thigh.

"You okay?" I asked searching her face.

She laughed and pulled me closer so that I leaned forward in my seat.

"I was going to ask you. You know I would offer you to get lost in me to get you all happy but I can't"

I chuckled .

"I'm tired baby. These people make me tired. I'm used to it just being a couple people at a time taking over my house. But I suppose I should get used to it since my girlfriend is half Italian. I guess I have large dinners and shit to look forward to"

She tugged on my chin, "don't sound too excited!" She rolled her eyes but smiled.

"You know one would think you were an only child with how much you dislike people." She stated as her eyes focused on mine.

"Its because I was surrounded by people that I realized I disliked them" I smirked.

"I guess I should be happy I am the exception to get the Beast and Brock"

"Well you haven't had the beast in awhile so you can't be completely happy?" I whispered and I knew she felt the heat as I leaned in and she held my neck tracing her fingers back and forth.

"Well I am mostly happy. I'm waiting for my smile Brocky" she whispered.

"You have to do something to make me smile Nicole" she bit her lip before leaning in and kissing me.

"Ewwwwww!!!"

Shit.

I pulled back.

"Come on, time to go inside boys" Rena pushed them along while I sat back and ran my hand over my face.

"I'm sorry Brock I forgot that.." I frowned and smiled as her face was priceless .

"They know Nicole."

"What?"

"Well they know that we aren't friends. They know what five year olds need to for them not to be left out of the loop . That I love you and you love me and we kiss" I shrugged.

A bit amused at her embarrassment while I didn't want my boys seeing it I had sit them down and explained. I did it the weekend at my parents place as they knew about her, in fact they found the way she treated me in the ring quite amusing.

I hadn't been sure how to go about it but they said I should just tell them as they would notice she wasn't simply a friend sooner or later.

My mom had to help a bit but I wasn't going to tell Nicole that.

"And we're a happy family" she laughed.

"What?"

"You sound like Barney with the whole I love you and you love me.." She placed her hand on mine that was on the table.

"That is why you have to force that shit out of me cause I hate being made fun of Barbie" I rolled my eyes.

"Well as long as I am injured I can do whatever I want. And next time don't lure me in with your boys around" she narrowed her eyes at me,  I knew she most likely still felt uneasy about it.

"Who kissed who?" I chuckled but she pulled me and kissed me again.

"You know they are our boys considering we're a happy family"

"Sure cowboy!" Figuring I was messing with her,  I guess.

She gave me another kiss before standing up and I gripped her behind before walking ahead.

"You are such a tea... Tea I'm craving tea"

I chuckled at her voice as the boys were in the kitchen with her mom.

"Oh I'm craving tea as well but that's another rule in this house"

Tea equaled what I hadn't gotten from my girlfriend since EXTREME Rules.

"You know your family's outspokenness I still have to get used too" I ran my hand over my face as I watched my boys colour some shit in.

"But everyone loves tea Brocky" she smirked and I narrowed my eyes at her.

"Brocky" Duke giggled.

"You going to make me look less threatening in front of them?"

"Who says you are ?" She narrowed her eyes.

" I am the scary parent " I cocked my eyebrow as that should have been obvious.

"Daddy's lying, mommy is scary" Turk blurted out.

"Your mom more scary?" I actually felt offended but wanted to know the reason.

"And why is that?"

"Because if we don't finish our homework then we can't have our cookie."

"Nothing wrong with being the fun parent Beast"

I sighed and controlled myself as once she was better, she wouldn't be able to walk away as fast as she did just then.

She wouldn't be able to walk...

We were seated in the lounge watching RAW as Brie fought against I wasn't sure who, in order to qualify.

Nicole as well as myself and the kids were seated on the big couch, well and Bryan.

Nicole's legs were rested in my lap as Duke sat on hers and Turk sat on the arm of the couch as I held him in place and Bryan sat on the other side with a pillow resting against his leg for Nicole while Rena and Kathy were in the kitchen.

I wasn't sure if it was a good idea for them to be alone, considering I got my fair share of opinions from my ex-wife which made me hate that she got along with Nicole but I knew it would be hard for Nicole to watch it each time.

It reminded her that she wasn't there even though she wanted to be so I just stayed and watched even though the only woman I preferred watching wrestle was her.

I did notice through trying to pay attention, how differently Brie  and Nicole wrestled. I guess it was because Nicole could be more athletic and she was trained by John Cena and myself a bit.

"Come on Brie, Bella Buster!" I heard Nicole.

"You do realize if your sister wins all of this you could very well fight her ?" I heard Bryan and glanced to see her response.

"Wouldn't be the first time" she smiled and I recalled their feud a couple years ago.

I heard the bell ring and saw Brie's hand being raised.

So far it was her and Paige who made it, while the rest would be decided tomorrow .

"Congratulations!" Nikki smiled and I guess she was speaking to Brie.

"Thanks, I still have three other people to fight against in less than two weeks at Money but I am hoping to beat your ass"

"Bleep" Bryan laughed as he said it.

"Why'd you bleep me?"

Nicole turned the phone to the kids while I watched some match of Dean's.

This was me mostly over these last few weeks. I wasn't much of a talker so I don't think they minded. I wouldn't go looking for a conversation unless it was with Nicole..

"Oh hey kiddos!"

"Aunty Bee!!" They were way too excited but I remembered Rena mentioning them all tagging along with Nicole the day she spent with them.

"Brocky!" She kicked my leg but I focused on the main event which was Roman and some other guy.

"Broooooocky!" She nagged as she kicked me again and I tried not to smirk.

"Fine!" She mumbled and made to get up but I stood up and helped her to her feet as everyone else was in the kitchen already.

" I thought you didn't need my transportation?" I raised my eyebrow as she stood on the couch so that she was face to face with me.

"I don't. I just wanted to kiss you." She giggled as she nudged her nose over mine,  which I couldn't remember her doing before but I didn't stop her.

"Someone feeling bad about messing with their boyfriend earlier?" I whispered into her lips.

"Maybe but we both know I don't like apologising Beast "

"Yes ." I smirked and let my hands grip her behind before wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her against me.

"What do you want to do Nicole?" She gripped my face and kissed me slowly.

Knowing it couldn't be long as the others could come calling us soon.

A/N:

Final  flashback of November 2011 + kids + moments

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