"So let's enjoy what it is that we have,
Because when we're done,
I wouldn't know what else to give you
Other than just another story.
And that alone might be the most beautiful thing
We'll ever live to tell"

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November 2011

"Hey can I book an ho.." I caught her in the corner of my eye spinning again and sighed.

She had fallen asleep for two minutes and I thought that would wear the shit off but unfortunately it hadn't.

"Barbie!" I called but she ignored me.

I went over to her and pulled her to my side and dragged her to the front desk with me. She wrapped her arms around me and giggled into my neck.

I cleared my throat and avoided looking at her.

"My wife had a bit too much to drink" I shrugged so that if anyone recognized me they could just hear that was who I pitched up with, not many people even knew who I was married to so it was okay.

"Name? I will be putting the name in..." I glanced at the dark haired woman leaning her head on my shoulder, I didn't even fucking know her name.

"Er Brock Lesnar" the woman working the front desk nodded and handed me a key.

I was planning on just fucking dropping her off but it didn't seem like I would be able to do that.

"Have you ever read 50 shades of grey?"

I frowned, "I'm not into decorating houses and shit"

I sighed as we didn't need to paint our house really and I didn't read much.

She laughed and moved towards me. I frowned as she wrapped her arms around me but couldn't push her away.

"There's this elevator scene.." She whispered into my neck and I felt the heat rising.

The elevator door opened before anything could happen and she was out running down the hallway as soon as it had.

What the fuck did I do wrong on the earth to deserve this shit?

I glanced over the rooms, searching for the room she would have been in, ignoring her instead. That is until I felt her collide with me.

"Sorry! I should definitely not drink and spin" she giggled , I sighed and continued looking.

"Found it!" She smiled and I rolled my eyes and followed.

"You can keep the hoody. I'll pay for the room" I turned to leave but heard her.

"Beast.." She whispered and I turned to see her sitting on the bed on her knees as she sat back onto her ankles.

"I hate being alone.." She shrugged.

I glanced between her and the door but for some reason the sadness in her eyes got to me. I closed the door and walked over to her.

"I have a flight to catch so I'll stay here till you pass out" I said more to myself as it seemed like my fucking body didn't want to leave this crazy woman.

"What makes you think I will?"

I sighed and decided to get her talking, that would make her tired and I could get out of here.

"So what do you do for a living Barbie?"

I saw her lay back and look up at me.

"It doesn't matter . Come May next year I will be searching for something else.." She glanced away and stared up at the ceiling.

"Why?"

"I just feel unfulfilled. I don't know what I want but I'm hoping if I leave I can get away from him. I don't know myself anymore. I have given so much of myself I don't know what's left, all because I am fucking afraid.." She croaked.

Fuck, what did I cause..

"Beast " I realized she was sitting close to me.

"Thank you." She whispered but as she did she climbed onto my lap.

"Ba.." She pushed herself onto me causing me to fall back as she kissed me.

I could have pushed her away .

I knew I had too..

But I didn't.

There was something about her.

I tipped her over and let my hands run up the side of her thighs and she moaned loudly and pushed herself up against me.

I groaned as she did and let my hands move underneath her dress. She broke the kiss and I kissed into her neck and I felt her pulling on my tee .

I immediately pulled it off and stared down at her.

I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. I was technically still married. I mean I signed the papers but...

"How good is the Beast in bed?" She smiled and my eyes trailed over her and I felt an ache as the hoody of mine she had worn was currently wherever my tee had landed .

"I don't think you can handle the Beast" I immediately kissed her again and I felt her legs wrap around me as I continued pushing against her, wanting to be inside of this Beauty.

"You probably won't remember this tomorrow Barbie" I breath.

She simply kissed me again as my hands squeezed her behind and she moaned into my lips.

"Fuck baby!" I groaned as I felt like I was going to burst inside my trackpants.

I kept pushing myself against her as she met my movements , I could tell she wanted me as much as I wanted her as I bit into her neck and slowly began sucking on it.

"His.. His going to see it. Stop.." She pulled my head up and kissed me again. I bit onto her tongue and she frowned but I immediately bit onto her neck again.

"Bea.." She tried to protest but moaned instead as I sucked on her neck.

I wanted the fucker to see it, I didn't know who the fuck he was but I wanted him to know that she wasn't fucking weak and she was worthy of someone else's attention.

To be continued.

***

I watched her as she stared out onto the property. I had followed her out onto the swing besides for watching Raw she had been in bed the entire time and since Brie had flown out for Raw tomorrow and the family went out because I asked them to as I wanted some time with Nicole.

"I know I might not make it in time for Summerslam but I don't want to believe I can't. I don't need people telling me I can't.I don't want you thinking I can't either." I sighed and stared ahead remembering the reason her family had gone out.

"You are not my fucking father so don't give me lectures. I am older than you and.." I frowned as I knew it wasn't Brie or Bryan because they had gone into town to check out some markets and I was currently walking into the kitchen with J.

As I made my way through I saw JJ's wife staring as well as Kathy and Nicole standing at the bottom of the staircase with her brother.

"I never said I was I'm just.."

"What the fuck is going on here?"

JJ glanced back as I glared at him.

"Don't glare at me. Nicole is the one who is fucking pushing herself here. It hasn't even been two weeks and she fucking wants to try and do shit. She almost fell down the stairs.."

She glared at him, "no I didn't! Just because I am on fucking bed rest doesn't mean I have to be stuck in a room all day like I'm on my death bed!"

"You can't fucking push yourself to prepare for Summerslam. You might not even make it in time and this ain't helping.."

"I don't care what you have to say and.."

"NICOLE!" She stopped and folded her arms but didn't look at me.

"Kathy.." I glanced over at her mom and she sighed.

"Come on, I am tired of cooking let's go have some dinner out." She touched JJ's back.

"But she.." He tried to protest.

"JJ" she warned and he shook his head and grabbed his jacket and walked out as the rest followed.

"We'll bring some takeaways back" Lola smiled and I simply nodded.

"His just concerned Nicole.." I couldn't believe I was defending her brother but the fact that she almost fell. I could tell by the way she glanced away as he said it , it was true.

"Go! I'm sure you can catch them in time and leave me fucking alone" she turned her body and walked past me into the kitchen and out the backdoor.

"I believe that you can Nicole but, right now you can't even train so just don't think about it just yet. And don't push yourself, the fact that I am agreeing with your brother should make you realize he was concerned"

"I know, I'm just so frustrated." She whispered.

"Its been two weeks Nicole, get through the month. We can go for walks and shit if you don't want to be stuck but getting into fights with your brother when he as well as the rest of your family is here for you isn't good for anyone. You need to take it easy and just let your body do its work, that way it will heal faster.."

"Where is my Beast and what have you done with him?"

I chuckled but sighed, "you know I suffered an illness sometime back.." I whispered as it had come up somewhere in between the times we weren't fighting.

"I was stubborn as hell, thinking because I believed I was superhuman that I could do anything including getting into the octagon less than 5 months after surgery where I could have possibly died and where did that land me?"

"Knocked out in the first round forcing you to retire as well" she sighed but then frowned as I knew she wasn't sure how she knew it , while I smirked.

"I made you watch the fight with me one night remember?" I whispered even though I hadn't ,I didn't want her trying to think about it.

"Of course you did, as if I didn't have enough of you in my bed at the time" she laughed.

"Watch it Barbie!"

"How did you get your stitches Brock, honestly?" She hesitantly asked as she continued to gaze ahead.

"John pitched up on Raw, we fought" I shrugged not wanting to really explain the whole brawl.

"Why was he there?" I turned to her, surprised she didn't question what happened during the fight .

"He said you were his. I know you want to know my reasons for hating him and I haven't told you but his wrong right?" I questioned, after all these years I couldn't help but wonder if somehow he had something to help him land her instead of me all over again .

"I am over this Nick! You didn't even have the decency to come up with a good excuse this time!" I frowned as it was my second week back.

I had forgotten about Barbie, not forgotten rather pushed back as I didn't understand my actions that night.

Was I surprised to see her walk past me after I made my return last week?

Hell fucking yes.

She was a fucking diva out of all fucking things, I was happy she was though as I hadn't been sure how I would have gotten her.

She hadn't even given me a second glance though as she walked with her sister and some blonde haired guy as she spoke while he checked something on his phone.

Over the last couple weeks I have realized that NBA he was the no good boyfriend. It wasn't exactly hidden backstage..

These people would talk just about anything, especially the divas so I heard some shit as I passed by over the weeks.

I knew her voice all too well and soon felt someone collide with me.

"I'm... I'm sorry " she sobbed and ran down the hallway.

I frowned as I was about to do something stupid and go after her when I felt someone push past me.

I glared once I realized who and grabbed him back.

"What's your problem man?" He frowned.

"You fucking bumped into me." He laughed and pat my shoulder.

"Yeah well I don't have time for this . I have to find my drama queen girlfriend so.."

I couldn't stop myself I had punched him down, "Brock what the hell are you.." I looked up and saw John Laurinitis.

"He fucking messed with the Beast" I shrugged. The name had grown on me ever since that night.

"Yeah well he is one of my superstars so make sure it doesn't happen again" I didn't respond and simply walked on.

I heard her sobs and was about to follow it but saw her in the arms of everyone's favourite fucking guy as he held her tightly.

"Of course Brock I told you I spoke.."

"You didn't give me details.."

"I went there thinking he would have changed that he might have listened to what I said. That we could separate a better way so I could have closure. Not looking to rekindle anything. But all that happened was him trying to destroy our relationship saying that he could give me things you couldn't.."

I glanced away, I knew John and I were different.That's why she had been with him for three years while I looked on.

I felt her feet in my lap as she slowly turned to face me, "but he was wrong though. He couldn't give me anything. He was desperate because he knew, he could see it"

"See what? That you were my girlfriend?" I asked simply wanting her to say it already.

Her smiling told me she had been planning on saying something else.

"Well I am not quite sure if I want to be the girlfriend of the creepy Beast who had taken a liking to me years ago" I narrowed my eyes at her.

"Its amazing how smart you are knowing I can't fuck you till it hurts or torture you" she gasped causing me to smirk.

"..and why can't you do that?" I chuckled .

"Because you definitely won't be sitting still while I do it" I glanced into her lap before my eyes trailed up her body to meet her brown eyes again.

"Who says the Beast still has an effect on me?" She raised her eyebrow but I shrugged.

"You moan my name every time I kiss you baby"

"I could have been faking" She smiled and I frowned.

"I'm kidding Brocky. Just you looking at me with those blue eyes makes me get all hot and bothered" I smiled causing her to as well, after she was better that annoying nickname would earn the glare it deserved .

I stared at her and she spoke again, " I want this relationship to work Brock and the only way for that is for us to be honest. I know you are still hiding things..."

I tensed, not actually sure why I even did "but like I said John could see that I love you Beast, more than him. And it scared him so he became desperate because he knew I wouldn't be crawling back to him like he thought. He believed I was going to be the weak Nikki crawling back but I wouldn't.
Because I am happier with the Beast and you love me so I know it might not be in my best interest to know why you hate him..
I don't ever want to lose you, so I don't care . You are so amazing. Letting everyone stay here even though I can tell you already want to throw them out after these last couple weeks. I love you and would hate being without you.
You know with guys before I would be with them because I hated being alone.I was afraid to not have someone. But you, I stick with you, not because I hate being alone but because I hate being without you"

"Nicole.." I began but she continued.

"I don't want to say we'll do this or that in the future. I just know I want to be with you always.So to answer your question yes I am your girlfriend Brock. Come what odds , I will be yours so you have no reason to ever question it because I am telling you. You are mine, not Charlotte's"

I frowned and she laughed, "or any other bitch. This Bitch is the Beast's "

I chuckled and leaned over to kiss her wishing I could do more.

A/N:

FLASHBACK + FRUSTRATION + RELATIONSHIP

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