"There is something beautiful about the past,
And about the way it haunts us.
The way we pass through moments
Like walking through doors.
The way we shut some out and
The way we welcome some to stay."

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November 2011

"I wanna take my hat off to all my training partners, to my family . I have had a very difficult couple of years with my disease and er.. I wanna officially say tonight is the last time you'll see me in the octagon..."

I shook several people's hands as I exited the octagon and made my way to my locker room.

I closed and locked the door but frowned as I turned and saw a flash of pink.

"What the hell are you doing in here?"
I breath as no one was allowed back here, especially in my locker room.

Rena wasn't here tonight as she was back home with the kids. Our divorce proceedings were underway and come next year we would officially be divorced.

I wasn't exactly happy about it, but some shit doesn't work out. I couldn't give Rena exactly what she needed and we realized it only after being married for 5 years but that's okay.

Shit happens.

"I asked you a question?" I frowned as her black hair hung down her back as she remained focused on the poster of me while I wasn't sure what the fuck was so interesting.

She still had her back turned to me but raised up something that seemed to be hanging from her neck.

Backstage Pass

"Well I am sorry that shit doesn't count for my locker room so you need to leave"

I packed up my shit but she still stood in place.

"Are you fucking deaf or something?"

"That's rude !" She finally turned around with a frown and I stared blankly at her.

She was fucking beautiful, I mean I'm not fucking blind I might be a destructive force but I was a man and my eyes had trailed up her legs and behind when I walked in but that wasn't it.

She had dark eyes but was fucking beautiful.

"Its also rude to stare!" She huffed and sunk down on the couch and I was snapped out of whatever fucking daze I was in.

"You were staring at that for who knows how fucking long" I nodded towards the poster and she simply shrugged.

"Its a picture. " She laid back , tugging her dress down from revealing anything as she smiled slightly at me.

"And?"

"Pictures are meant to be stared at. If you didn't want me to drool over your pictures you shouldn't have taken them"

"Do you fucking know who I am?" I frowned.

"Do you know who I am?" She raised her eyebrow.

"No" she seemed almost hurt, how the fuck was I supposed to know her.

She definitely didn't work around here, I would have noticed. There were a few good looking woman at these shows but none of them stood out but for some reason she did now.

Maybe it was because I was stuck in a room with her and forced to look at her.

Well not stuck but it was my fucking locker room and I wasn't leaving.

"Then I don't know you either" She glared.

"Now get the fuck out of the room" I gestured for the door but all she did was laugh.

"So you really are a Beast?" She swung her legs onto the floor and then stood up and walked over to me.

I could smell tequila on her but I didn't move back.

"A Beast?" I frowned, that was a first.

"Yes.. Does the Beast have a Beauty?" She whispered.

I cleared my throat and moved back , "Just fucking go"

I was dealing with divorce proceedings, the last thing I needed was some fucking scandal with this woman. I didn't know who she was , for all I knew she could have been some reporter but I doubt they came drunk or tipsy or whatever this woman was.

I walked to the door to unlock it for her but I heard her squealing and turned to see her spinning around as the flashes of her black hair and pink could only be seen.

She then burst out laughing and I almost smirked in amusement but quickly shrugged it off.

"You need to leave... "I walked over to her and tried gripping her arm through her spinning but she tumbled over her feet and fell back.

My eyes widened briefly as she didn't move.

Fuck .

I was about to move over to her until I heard giggling and a hand being raised.

"I am A okay!"

I sighed and sat on the couch and ran my hands over my face. The last thing I needed was some random chick here.

"You know I'm disappointed" she huffed as she stared past me at one of the posters again.

"With?" I asked even though I didn't really feel like asking.

"I figured you would be more aggressive" she shrugged.

"Have I not been telling you to leave me alone for the past 5 minutes?" I glared.

"Yeah but its not like you threatened to throw me out"

"I don't get aggressive like that with women I don't know what perception you have of me"
I frowned as I stared up at her.

"Don't get all touchy Beast! I never accused you of anything I was just saying" she smiled as she briefly glanced at me and then back at another one .

I nodded and stared ahead thinking about how it was going to work with my kids. I suppose we could live together for a bit.Rena and I got along great, just not while married...

I jumped a bit as I felt pressure on my lap and looked down to see black heels attached to her tanned legs as she stared up at the ceiling.

"You know its my birthday today?" She spoke as she stared up.

"My boyfriend bought us these tickets and passes .I sat out there like an idiot "

Just great, not even a fucking fan!

"..waiting, finally I just gave a ticket to some random person who kept trying to hit on me."

"Well in that dress.." I stopped myself as I wasn't going to talk to her.

"I have to dress like this for my job. Glad you think it makes me look good"

I didn't respond as I could have been here with a stripper or some shit.

" I got annoyed and left before the big main event occurred , went to a bar. I do that a lot these days, I like the feeling of forgetting. I use it to forget how worthless he makes me feel so that when I go to work I can be the best girlfriend and best sister. If my sister notices anything is up, she'd kick his ass. She's not built like me she's tiny but she loves me and that can make her go crazy like my crazy brother.."

"Look here , this isn't some therapy shit. Go phone your sister and fucking go"

"Don't have my phone. I'm booked into a hotel, but not sure which one. Do you think they'll let me stay here?"

I sighed, "no they're closing soon"

She nodded and sat up playing with her fingers as her heels rested on the arm of the chair and her legs hovered over me.

"He cheats .. A lot. I told him I loved him so many times but he doesn't say it back.I mean what's wrong with me? We've been together for almost five years, on and off because of his cheating and how he treats me..How do you not love someone after so long?"

She stared at me , I fell for Rena within months. People don't expect that type of shit from me but I'm stubborn so I know when I want something.

I saw her eyes glistening as she waited, fuck man.

"I don't know some people aren't made for love I guess" I shrugged causing her to laugh and wipe her tears before they could fall.

"I guess you're not much of a talker hey Beast?" She mumbled as she pulled her knees to her chest and stared at me. Causing her to almost be on my lap but for some reason I didn't have the urge to push her away.

"Why do you keep calling me that?" I decided to ask instead.

She shrugged, "that's what I see whenever I watched bits of your matches. I'm never able to finish. I watch with him , he doesn't like it I guess that's why he never pitched up tonight.I don't know anyone else who watches it so its like a secret. I love UFC kinda.. Depends on my mood."

Okay scratch that she was a fan.

"You just tear down opponents like that" she snapped her fingers causing me to chuckle and she smiled as I did.

I hated that I actually liked seeing it.

"Its like a Beast, no one stronger.. no one can compete. Its admirable. Its Fearless.. I want to be Fearless but I'm too weak" she croaked.

"Well I'm no Beast. I don't know if you saw me get knocked out, out there." My jaw clenched thinking about it. I should have known I wasn't fucking ready for that shit.

I frowned as I felt her finger tips tracing over my cheek, what was up with this woman?

"Everybody loses its a part of life. I guess both of us suck. You retired . I'm in a doomed relationship"

"Then why do you stick around?"

"I hate being alone." She shrugged as she let her fingers fall and stood up.

To be continued .

***

"Josie?" I heard Nicole's voice as she called out just as I walked in .

She most likely couldn't see me in the room as she was stared up at the ceiling. I saw her sister's dog stepping onto her and immediately picked it up and turned to go out.

"Brie , I said no dogs in the room!" I screamed out and soon saw her enter.

"Sorry Sergeant!" She rolled her eyes and laughed a bit but I felt my jaw clenching.

It had been one day , one day and I was going insane.

I closed the door and locked it, Nicole had been in and out of sleep so I simply left her alone and went out on the property this morning .

John had joined me, he was married to their mom now. I felt a bit shitty for getting annoyed with the fact that Nicole hadn't answered her calls that weekend as she had been there.

I noticed they called him J, I guess it was best as the last thing I needed was a reminder of the ex of the woman that I loved for the rest of my life.

We just talked about sports and shit, I came to my home to escape from being the Beast but I knew she would need her family close so I invited them to stay at my place.

Our place..

I had two guest rooms downstairs as well as one upstairs where ours was . I was going to use it for something else but that would have to wait until after they left again.

"Hey" She whispered as I sat down next to her, it still angered me to see her like that.

I had avoided her questioning about that night as I was about to tell her when we were interrupted by her doctor so I stayed with Bryan in the waiting room while the rest of the family stayed with her.

I decided it was best not to tell her if she didn't remember, I didn't know how she would react . I didn't want to get her worked up so soon.

"Why did she call you Sergeant?" She asked as I had stared off into the distance.

"Because I gave them rules " I shrugged as like I had said this place was my escape.

I never let anyone come over here unless it was Paul, Rena or the kids and well Nicole.

Basically my house stayed the way it needed to be as Nicole was simply in the kitchen or bedroom when she had been home in the past but these were six people and two dogs. So I knew I had to put rules in place.

Dean, Renee, Alicia and Paige hadn't flown out with us as they had to get back to shows. Brie would be going back whenever she got the call as I guess she was being punished for being the sister of the woman Stephanie despised.

"Rules? Why?" She frowned and I knew she was confused.

"I said they could stay here for a couple months" I stated as I looked at her.

"You what?" She almost screamed out and I sighed as I knew she wouldn't take it too well, because she knew how I hated people over here .

"I am not in the mood for anymore of your fucking protesting okay? You're staying here. They want to be close by. I have a couple extra rooms and that is all."

I felt annoyed, not at her surprise but because she fucking didn't remember. I didn't get it, I got up as I would call one of the others to come to her before I said shit that would make her angry.

"Did I do something wrong?" She whispered, I knew if she hadn't felt weak at that moment she would probably be going at me for snapping at her which I shouldn't have done because I knew the state she was in that night.

"No I'm sorry, I'm just tired." I ran my hands over my face as it was true, I hadn't slept since I arrived at the hospital early Tuesday morning.

I had stayed up watching her, I was afraid she would out of habit turn in her sleep or something which she hadn't and she had been sleeping a lot for the past couple days.

As my hands reached my sides I saw her extending her hand for me and I sighed and took it and sat down next to her again.

"You love me?" She smiled a bit and I frowned as I wasn't sure where it was coming from.

"I just want to know about your feud with John. You told me about the contract I just want to.. "

I sighed as if I told her that , I would have to explain about the night.

"Nicole.." She sighed and I knew she was getting annoyed with my refusal.

"Don't say I don't want to know cause I fucking want to and.." I smirked even though I knew she was upset as only Nicole would get like that when she had a brace on and couldn't do anything to me.

" Stop smirking" She glared and tried pulling her hand away but I quickly pulled it back again.

"You really trying to scare me Barbie?" I raised my eyebrow, challenging her.

"Brock its not a joke, don't you want to be with me?" Her voice was soft. I knew it meant a lot to her to know but she would remember if it meant anything to her.

"I am with you Nicole." I answered as yes she needed to say it but I knew she was mine, she was just too stubborn and using it as a way to get me to talk.

"No, I'm here because you want me to be , not because I said we were in a relationship. This is why I wanted to be at my mom's so I didn't feel like I couldn't ask you things because I was in your territory" I frowned at her words, this was her house as well.

"How is this my territory this is our home Nicole. Or do you still not think of it as that because it isn't some fucking mansion out in.."

"BROCK!" I stopped due to her voice and because I realized the memories of that night mixed with all the other flashbacks caused me to briefly bring him up again.

"It is our home when we are in a relationship Brock.. I love it out here why are you.." I knew I hurt her by almost bringing up her life with John.

"Why do you have to know about John?" I raised my eyebrow as I let my thumb trace over her hand.

"Please.." She begged and I sighed.

"I don't like him. I didn't when we feuded the first time, I hate that motherfucker" I answered honestly , even though everyone could see it.

"But why?" I shook my head as I didn't want to think about that shit.

"Brock if its about Rena then I..." My eyes snapped open as I didn't get why she would think that.

"Because of you Nicole.." I breath out and her eyes widened briefly.

"I didn't even know you with the first time, I was gone a month after you returned" I nodded remembering her being fired.

If she only knew she told me the reasons why she wanted to leave then..

"You didn't have to" I could feel my jaw clenching and I glanced away.

"The Beast liked me?" My eyes focused on her as she bit her lip to stop herself from smiling.

"No I just..." I tried not to sound like a fucking weird Beast who was attracted to her ever since that night.

"I will admit, I did find you attractive back then. But you were too cocky" I chuckled remembering how I was when I first came back.

I hadn't had Paul to speak for me yet.

That was back when John, her now step dad was in charge.

"Am I not now?" I smirked happy to get off the topic in a way and I knew her well enough that she diverted it on purpose to make me feel less weak for admitting it to her.

"No, then it was bratty cocky. Now its a cocky that I like.. Occasionally" She shrugged fighting her smile and glancing away so I leaned forward.

"Does it turn you on baby? " I whispered against her lips and she immediately pulled my face to hers and kissed me.

"I can't wait for sponge baths" I whispered into her lips.

"I can bath myself Brocky, maybe not my back but.." I kissed her again gently as me being rough would cause her to move and I didn't want to risk it but she kissed me.

I let my hand which wasn't holding hers, clutch her waist and she moaned , pushing her lower half against me as she did.

Her nails dug into the nape of my neck as my tongue slipped past her lips causing me to groan against her lips.

I heard a knock on the door but her hands tightened on me, not wanting me to go.

I would have laughed if I hadn't felt the same way .

"Baby" I whispered as it could have been important and she reluctantly let me go. I stood up and opened the door to find Brie as she held a tray with a bowl of soup on it and I stepped to the side.

"Hey mom made some soup" She said as she set it down on the bedside table.

"Thanks Brie" Nicole smiled and watched as she left and I closed the door again. We would all be here for months but tonight I wanted her to myself.

"You said that you were done at the company yesterday. I don't want you leaving because of me"

"Its Thursday today and I don't give a fuck baby, all I care about is you" I stated as I fucking didn't.

"Brock, you have kids you need to provide for and.."

"I know , I have over enough money. I have had million dollar contracts where ever I went so trust me when I say I don't need to go crawling back" I didn't want to sound like I was bragging but I didn't need to . I was sure I made more than John fucking Cena and I didn't have to go do acting and annoying appearances.

"I just don't want you hating me for you being turned away due to your actions .."

"What makes you think I destroyed the place because of you Barbie"

She narrowed her eyes at me, I did it for her. I beat John Cena senseless for her.

"It was for you baby, you always want me to admit shit" I sighed as I hated it each time but she would give me that fucking look that I just gave in and admitted things that weren't in my nature to do.

"Because I happen to like hearing that you thought I was worth leaving a job for even though I think you shouldn't have"

She was worth it all...

"Did Smackdown play already?" She asked I guess so I couldn't respond to her statement.

"Yeah.." I whispered dreading what I was about to say.

"What's wrong?" She reached out and traced her fingers over my cheek and I held it as well.

"Stephanie said she's stripping you of your title."

A/N:

Flashbacks + Couple moments + Bad News

Do you like Brock POV?

I was thinking of doing it for a couple more chapters? Let me know :)