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"Love will never be easy & knowing so
We accept the horrors that some types of love
Are meant to kill us;
One way or another... ".

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"Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to unite two people . Two people who love each other dearly. Two people who have certainly been waiting to find the one they knew they deserved to spend the rest of their lives with. And now they have... So could you please take your seats?"

She smiled brightly as she looked into his eyes looking happier than she had ever been.

Why wouldn't she be?

After all the years with John?

She would now be happily married to him.

Their relationship hadn't been easy but what relationship didn't have their battles?

They didn't let it get them down, they were fearless and overcame the odds and now they stood staring into each other's eyes as the priest continued.

"Do you John..."

That name used to mean so much, now all it held was a nasty memory for me but this day wasn't about me...

"Do you Johnathan Hodger Laurinitis take Katherine Colace to be your lawfully wedded wife?"

I smiled as he did when he said his "I do" followed by hers and I was happy that my mom found happiness after all these years.

She hadn't been with anyone since my dad and I got fed up as I knew she loved us more than anything in this world .

I also knew she deserved happiness as well and that's when I introduced her to J , the man who had always showed me kindness and given me the pep talks whenever I needed it.

I probably needed it now but no, I wouldn't tell them.

Another break up in less than a year?

I was a grown woman who couldn't even keep a guy.

I can't lie, a part of me believes that Brock and I still have a shot.

But as I told him, I was used to holding back...

Not only that...

I was used to crawling back because I craved the idea of perfection. I craved the love of someone so badly that I just went back every time because what greater love could there be than from the man himself, John Cena.

I was too insecure to be independent, to realize that I was more than that. More than the woman I was who just gave in easily.

I was Fearless.

I sighed as they turned to face us.

"I now give to you Mr and Mrs Johnathan Hodger Laurinitis!"

We stood up and clapped and my brother, sister and I soon followed as we got into their car with them as we would be driving over to the reception together.

"Finally got hitched!" He smiled and kissed the side of my mom's head.

We laughed as we glanced back at them looking so perfect and their picture perfect smiles.

Like I said I was happy for my mom but JJ was right in a way that night at the dinner when he dissed me.

It affected me, I always thought I would be the first one to be married out of the lot because while I was a tomboy I was also a girl.

Which I display even now with my Nikes in the ring and Jimmy Choos out of it.

I was the one picturing myself getting married by 27 and having kids by 30 not Brianna, me.

But then I realized I could possibly never have it because I had a fucked up relationship with Nick and he wasn't into getting serious so I shut up and let it take a back seat.

Then I met John and I forgot about it all and convinced myself I didn't have to have it but then the true colours of the perfect man began showing as I showed mine and I started realizing what I had been willing to give up for a man who I didn't really love...

Now I was 32 years old and couldn't even keep a man for 6months.

Everyone waited at the docks as we exited the car first to join everyone standing along letting the newly married couple walk down the pier onto the yacht as we blew bubbles.

They laughed as they held each other close, making their way down and I wanted that more than anything.

I probably wouldn't have had it with Brock anyway but with him I really didn't need it.

We had the boys who I loved and as John got divorced and decided that was his last marriage I guess Brock was probably the same in that aspect.

If I was willing to settle for a man who didn't accept me then I could choose to be with a man who did or rather had..

Brock and I were hardly the ideal couple we were apart more than together, we fought but it didn't matter because that's what happens when likes are together.

They tend to repel, and being fucking stubborn people that we were, we figured we could just do what we want and be together.

But no .

We weren't 'my sister and Bryan' kind of like.

We were the Beauty and the Beast in a completely destructive way, there was always something...

Always something my side and maybe I should be going back to him now because he dealt with all obstacles from my side but did he really?

The plan with Dean?

I take full blame for that. That was sick and twisted and wrong . But then we got through it and I thought that was it...

But then John haunted us whether it be with words from my brother or the accusations from him or maybe even his advocate fueling him on.

I could blame everyone around us..

Charlotte for continuously trying to make my life hell.

The Authority tearing me down.

John trying to kiss me.

But in the end it was only the Beast and I who could let them destroy what we had or rather could have had.

"Why don't you just turn it off , its not like you are going to answer" Brie rolled her eyes as I realized my phone was lighting up in my hand yet again.

I ignored her staring at the name lighting up my screen accompanied by the only posed picture we had taken together thanks to my mom.

It had been 2 weeks since I last saw him.

Two weeks since Renee and I left him standing in the locker room staring blankly at me.

Its not like he called every day.

He only began calling earlier today.

I guess he had still been angry before ,probably still was, but now the angered Beast felt like he could talk to me.

I heard her sigh.

"I'll do the speech on my own or I'll ask JJ if.." I cut her off before she could continue.

"I can do it Brianna.."

I rolled my eyes and switched off my phone and placed it in my bag and walked further onto the yacht.

"I know you are upset Nicole but look. Bryan isn't here so even if you were still together then he wouldn't be here?"

I nodded as I knew she was trying to make me feel better.

The only thing that would have done that was the image of him coming out at Charlotte's request being erased from my memory.

I was the one who walked away at Wrestlemania , maybe the reasons I had were good but yes I walked away when I maybe should have just stayed but its almost like I had to prove a point to myself.

That I wasn't the weak, pathetic Barbie who was arm candy for the great John Cena and had no voice.

I was Fearless Women's Champion against all odds and that meant so much to me.

Me just going on with Brock to the hotel room would have meant me letting my love control me and that in my books was weak.

That morning I had been weak letting myself slip into the Beast and I hated it.

But what I hated more was when he threw it in my face.

What I hated more was when the man that I loved blindsided me.

Yes Charlotte was at fault but Brock was a Beast who agreed to it , a Beast who later claimed to love me who decided to work with her.

If it were some wild card like Paige I wouldn't have been as upset because I knew Paige and Paige wouldn't have any other intention than a good feud.

I knew that no one knew about us, but Charlotte and my feud got personal real quick even before Brock because..

"Its mom's day so let's just have fun , get some Brie Mode in . Get lost before we have to head back to work where your beastly ex will most likely be .."

She said again causing me to nod again to let her know I was listening to her.

"Okay"

***

We had missed this past week's Raw due to my mom's wedding plans and I guess Stephanie wasn't happy about it but there was nothing she could do as Vince knew about the wedding so we weren't booked in advance.

That didn't stop them from taking their anger out on Dean though as he had a confrontation with Ric basically arguing about the cheap shots his daughter had taken at me.
Defending me in every way but he ended up getting a cheap shot as well by his Payback opponent Chris Jericho.

It wasn't Lunatic vs The Beast again as Brock wasn't there to fight, merely there to accompany "the true champion of the WWE".

The words of her dear father of course.

I had called Dean up soon after to check up on him and he insisted he was perfectly fine.

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He hadn't said much when they all cooped up in one hotel room with me that night.

He didn't bash on Brock for what happened, he was just annoyed cause he knew why he got the night off.

I think he was most likely angry at Brock but didn't want to get into it because he knew it would hurt me .

The only person that actually knew what exactly happened between Brock and I once we got backstage was Renee as they merely thought we hadn't spoken but were still currently fighting.

They rented movies and bought loads of doughnuts and I let myself go but I couldn't help my mind slipping to him.

I had all of them while he only had Paul and its not like Paul was supportive of our sort of relationship but he made his bed now he got to lie in it alone , unless Charlotte got what she actually wanted from the start.

I shook my head as even though he betrayed me on the job, he wouldn't do anything with her.

I hoped not.

"If I could have everyone's attention please!".

I gently tapped the champagne glass with a fork hoping it wouldn't break , which it didn't.

Brie laughed a bit as she noticed the look on my face.

"Nicole and I have had the honour of watching my mom and John's love for each other blossom over the years. John has been an amazing addition to the crazy Mexican Italian family.
I mean yeah it was hard in the beginning as even though he knew us very well due to work, he didn't know how outspoken we could all be and how out of hand our arguments amongst each other would get , well that all took to getting used to .
He is definitely not as crazy as us but that's how he fits with my mom. He evens out my mom's personality perfectly and we couldn't be happier for you to officially belong to the family. Even though you have been like a second father to us all these years already. "

She smiled as he was more of a father than our own. Just when we repaired our relationship with him years ago he went and lied to us about things or just neglected to let us know important things because that's who my father was in the end.

Selfish.

We just accepted that and didn't bother trying or feeling bad about it.

I smiled as I realized it was my turn.

"I am not going to say much as Brianna pretty much covered it but I just want all of us to take in my beautiful mom and John ...
My mom has been the most supportive person in my life, she dedicated most of her life to us. Teaching us to be independent as she is. To be strong willed women and go after what we always wanted and now she has finally found someone who she truly loves her and I am so, so happy for you two.
J, there is no one I would rather have standing alongside my mother right now. I wish you nothing but happiness and love in the future"

I raised my glass before walking from the mic with Brie.

"How did I do?" I smiled at Brie.

"Good" I rolled my eyes and saw yet another missed call from Brock.

I switched it off as I honestly couldn't deal with the Beast right now, being at a wedding that wasn't mine brought all sorts of emotions out that I wouldn't show.

My mom was married.

JJ was married.

Brianna was married.

Nicole was?

Alone.

But it was okay.

I didn't need it.

.

I dreaded having to go back to work as he would definitely be there but if he thought I was just going to crawl back he had another thing coming.

I was going to make the Beast that I loved wish he had never sided with Charlotte.

Because the love I had for him wasn't going to be my weakness.

I was going to use it , use it in a way that would please me, that would hopefully make him hurt just as much as he hurt me.

The Beast was going to wish he never angered this Beauty.

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