Last update until 30th June as I will be going on hiatus due to semester exams at University: )

Hope you guys will still be following their story once it continues and hopefully there will be many more readers who are on the journey: )

Hope you enjoy this chapter and thank you Fearless Beasties  😊😊

I watched Renee walk away and saw Brock take her spot.

I saw him but even though I wanted him to be here just a few moments go ,seeing him and that look on his face made me realize it would have been better if he wasn't.

"Nicole.." His voice was low.

I knew he was still angry but he wasn't the only one.

"I thought you left.." I whispered as I continued looking down holding my knees to my chest.

"Well I didn't, I heard you made history.."

I had thought of this night so many times before, how my making history would play out.

I would celebrate with my family...

But ever since Brock , the image had been different .

I pictured myself making my way up the ramp with the Beast by my side as my acquaintance .

The Beast who wanted me and showed it. The same Beast who had come looking for me finding me in tears before but now here he stood and suddenly it was different.

"Now you care? Where were you before my match when I needed my boyfriend?"

I snapped.

He frowned, "Are you seriously mad at me right now?"

"Yes!"

He chuckled, "I'm on my way out ,in the fucking parking lot and Renee calls me in for this shit?"

"So you weren't coming here to congratulate me? You weren't here to kiss me. To say you want to be with me .." I raised my eyebrow .

"Why do I have to say I want you when you are already my girlfriend?"

"Was I your girlfriend when you shoved me onto the floor , was I your girlfriend when you spoke to me like I was a piece of shit?"

He shook his head, " You were my girlfriend when I showed fucking concern for you out there and cost myself  the match"

"You wouldn't have needed to if you hadn't been so angry at me and so reckless"

I jumped off the equipment box as I knew I just needed to leave .

"You were just fucking crying for me to be here now you are leaving? You know how I am Nicole that's why we are together cause you know me and you're not supposed to care"

He gripped my arm as I was about to walk past him .

"Yes I know you and I might have been more forgiving if you understood things.."

He sighed, "Nicole just go get your shit so we can go. I have a fucking headache and I don't.."

"You were planning on leaving without me, so go?"

I pointed to the exit and he turned back to focus on me.

"I'm supposed to be the pissed one here Nicole, I found you fucking kissing John Cena before my match. That's what happened. You don't get to make this about you right now. I found my girlfriend kissing her ex, I lost my match, I am standing here with a fucking concussion"
He glanced around and then ran his hand over his face.

"I didn't kiss him, he was about to kiss me .."

I began but he cut me off.

"And you are telling me that you weren't going to let him ?"

It was like everything Paul said was being played again but this time in Brock's voice.

"You know what? I can't do this anymore, I'm done." I whispered.

"Fine, I'll see you when you fly down in the week ..." He muttered and walked away.

"No, I mean I am done Brock." I said slowly.

"What?" He frowned as he turned back to me and the look he held made me want to take the words back.

"I'm done with this.." I gestured between us.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"It means that I am sick of being treated like a fucking child. I have told you countless times that I want you more than John! But do you listen to me? No, because you don't fucking trust me and I can't deal with all this fighting every fucking week"

"I thought you said that was us?"

Of course he would use my own words against me.

"That's what I thought Brock but maybe its a sign.. That I jumped into this too quickly, fell too quickly. Cause whats the point you clearly believe nothing that I say when it comes to him, you know this started out as me having a plan with Dean but I wouldn't be surprised if this was some sick joke that you and Paul came up with.."

"Sick joke, what the hell are you going on about Nicole?"

"What? Didn't your advocate tell you ? I'm to blame for everything that went wrong in the Beast's life tonight. Thanks for sending him to deal with your doll"

I glared, he mattered to me yes but that didn't mean I was going to be the one apologizing. That's one thing I couldn't deal with..

No Trust.

Sure maybe the Beast had some issues with John. That I understood but didn't mean it meant he could accuse me every time.

"What the hell are you talking about I didn't even know you were there.."

"Save it cause frankly I don't actually care.."

I did care though but I couldn't show it.

"So what, your plan worked now you are getting back with Cena?"

Again with the fucking John Cena bull shit.

I didn't get why he seemed so obsessed with the fact that I would leave him for John.

"Get it through your thick skull Beast . I don't want fucking John Cena .I want you, ever since that first day in the hallway when we kissed.. I wanted the Beast. I have told you this over and over and over again. Told you how I was afraid to show my feelings and I have. I moved in with you, I let you meet my family. I showed you. You said I wasn't showing it so I showed you, but even though we made up you never did believe me. You never did trust me..."

"Nicole.." He reached for me but I moved back.

"I hate all this fighting, its like I am dating John except our fights aren't behind closed doors. No, because we aren't the perfect couple. You are The Beast Incarnate and I am Fearless Nikki we are anything but perfect. And when we are upset  the whole world crumbles. I was sitting here crying because I couldn't share my moment with you but I am Nikki Bella, Fearless remember? That's not what I am meant to do . I need to focus on my career.."

"You're upset cause I wasn't right there waiting for you when you got back? Well I am sorry that your fucking brother smashed my head into those chairs Barbie"

I was wasting my breath with this man..

"Yeah Dean, you used him tonight. Used him.. I knew you were a beast when I met you but you used him to hurt me when you fucking smirked at me while punishing him. Was I your girlfriend then, when you used my brother ?"

I wished that I could forget that match but I was right there,  seeing two important men in my life fighting each other.

"It was a fucking match Nicole that's what I am paid to do.."

"Bull shit Brock you're not paid to tell me to get the hell away from you ,you're not paid to look at me with those cold blue eyes basically telling me the beating Dean gets is because of me. And yes it hurt that you weren't there"

"I would have been there if you hadn't cost me the fucking ma... "

My eyes shot to his and he stopped himself .

"Fuck I didn't mean it Nicole"

He quickly said but it was too late as I already knew what was going to follow.

"See now that's how I know everything Paul said was from what he heard from you. Yes John tried to kiss me but I wasn't going to let him. I froze okay? I wasn't even expecting to see him.."

I felt the tears streaming as the anger filled me . But like he said before those tears didn't affect him,  I didn't want them to either.

"I hadn't seen him since the day I ended things last year so I am sorry if I froze . Not because I wanted to be kissed by theeee John Cena but because I couldn't think. But I can't be with someone who after everything doesn't trust me. Who I fight with every time, I thought with you it would be different"

I ran my hands through my hair and I hated that he was currently injured as he wasn't screaming back even though I knew he was angry,  annoyed even.

He wasn't the Beast right now but I was glad cause the Beast would be pulling me to him making me confused as the heat would cloud my mind.

"How? I'm stubborn you are stubborn. Fuck Nicole every fucking time you make things difficult. I'm sorry okay baby? There I said it. I'm sorry for punching John. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry Paul went off on you. I'm fucking sorry so can we just go home.."

He shook his head as he blurted it all out.

"See that's what I am talking about.."

He frowned.

"..Every time we fight , we say the same things. I tell you I want you, you believe me when in fact you clearly don't . We make up ; we are fine for a few weeks.
Not even a few weeks. I wish it were that long. And then something happens and we are back at it. Like you said, we are both stubborn. We are too alike that's the problem. Neither of us will let up"

"I just said I was sorry Nicole.." He whispered.

I knew an apology from the Beast meant a lot and maybe if it were a different night then I wouldn't be so angry but tonight I was.

The best night of my life had turned into a fucking nightmare.

I was too angry to accept it.

"I know Brock , but deep down you know you are just saying it because you need me and I need you. Because you accept me for being the bitch that I am and I accept you for being a Beast . That's why you are with me. But not because you know I feel nothing for John. You still doubt it. So its better if we just take a break . "

"Nicole.." he moved forward but I moved back.

"So you can realize that I am not going to run to John Cena and you can figure out if you trust me"

"Are you fucking leaving me ?" He seemed confused.

Why did he have to be injured...

I sighed.

"We need to figure shit out Brock. If we go to our hotel now then in a few weeks time something else happens and you are back to doubting me again?"

He didn't say anything and I could see him fighting with himself.

"Exactly, so I am leaving now and just leave me alone."

The feelings I felt for Brock were consuming me, making me feel weak without him.

That's how I felt with each fight, weak.

With John our fights were a cycle but I didn't want the same one with Brock. Cause then where would we be three years down the line?

"So its that easy for you?" He stared blankly at me.

"No Brock its not. I fucking love you . But I can't be with someone who questions my every move. Like you said I know who you are, then you should know that I am not a doll that you can just try to control. I can't be with a Beast who finds it so hard to trust me when in reality I have done nothing to give you a reason not to."

"Wait, did you just say... " I cut him off as I  continued.

".. I'm not running around meeting John Cena. Was I sitting here upset cause you broke his nose? No! I was missing my boyfriend who means more than this reign but I guess that's the problem. Maybe you are not as into this as it seems. I can't be with someone who accuses me of loving someone else when I have fallen in love with a Beast "

I turned but felt him pull me to him.

"Please.. Brock if you care about me you will let me go. Go home and figure out if you just want me because you want  to settle some score with John because that's how it feels . I told you in the beginning I didn't want to speak about him, not because I had feelings for him. Well maybe I did but now? No. I want you but I just need sometime on my own "

Maroon 5- Better that we break (please listen )

I saw his jaw clenching.

"You say you love me but you want me to let you go? "

He surprised me by chuckling.

" I don't have a score to settle with John.  I do trust you Nicole .He.. you know what it doesn't matter. Just go ,take your fucking time "

He let go of me and walked away. 

I was confused,  I had thought it was his head injury that made him calmer but now I wasn't so sure .

Was I missing something?

That's my fault. I am Fearless Nikki who loves too fast..

I wanted to go back and not leave him but that wouldn't change anything.

He would probably be at home for the next few weeks and that would give him time to think and realize I love him and not John..

If the Beast even wants to be loved by Nicole..

He walked away like he was giving up,  not like someone who was giving me time but like someone who was leaving me.

I know this chapter:(

The beast wasn't his normal beastly self as we saw Nikki pretty much voicing all her thoughts while all he did was basically stand there...

Mmmmm..

So sorry for the long wait ahead but trust me it will be worth it as things are going to be pretty interesting once it starts again

We will also find out why the Beast is so obsessed about the John thing.

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