15)Gnat
                A small fly with two wings, that bite.

Lies, they are babies you need to grow to maintain your bride, or the secrete that lays behind the lie. The lies you are lying or have lied will be once exposed, wither when you're alive or when you are no longer living.

It was always a habit of mine, lying, I mean. I did it for many reasons, many time. And they were all big lies, I did everything to keep them true.

Cause after all, lies are truths, we don't know.

Being exposed to the biggest lie you have ever did will be a torture to your living. Once a liar, always a liar. That was the rule.

And now, it was time for my lie and biggest secrete revealing.

I couldn't pass this moment, a scene where Noah, my brother with my son, Liam, approach me smiling ear to ear, they wanted to greet me, but they greeted my son's dad too.

After Noah took Liam to Astree he joined our club, meaning mine and Ashton's, the father of my son, in the living room where doors are tightly shutted, thick tension roamed around and stares and glares were exchanged.

The stupid lump forming in my throat was stubborn enough not to dissolve and be swallowed. It was merely a minute, the situation took, for he fully understands the look on Noah and my face.

And it was only a minute before everything was over, with simple words, three words, and hard voice, void of emotion and blank face.

"Again plating games?!" Were the words that let my guard down, crumbling them to pieces, shattering them to million pieces that couldn't be clearly seen.

"When were you going to tell me?" His voice was calm, his eyes talked sadness, his fisted hand talked rage.

"Never" I say, my voice clear and unbreakable.

"That.." He scoff "is what I expected from you" his fisted hands pointed towards me "Kylie Rob"

"Don't expect much or less from me" I stare at him, from the corner of my eyes I could visibly see Noah shaking his head, tightly frowning. Disapproving, his gaze was.

And selfish I was, to care.

"He is my Son, Kylie. I have every right to know, see and make contact with him..." he stood stuttering to me with a swift motion.

He didn't get to reach me though, Noah blocked my view entirely from Ashton, hiving me the chance to breath and calm myself.

After Ashton stood a little away from me, Noah turned with a livid look in his face, shaking his head he mumbled about me being wrong and all before standing beside me as protective as he is.

"...you could've at the very least told me"

"Noah" I turn to him "could you please leave us for couple of minute"

"I do not think that's a good idea" he say firmly, standing quite straight shaking his head abd staring at me.

"It's an order" I spoke glaring at him,

"I am going against it" he sigh, with his stubborn composure he looked much more angry than he was a while ago.

"Then it's a favour" I say almost a whisper "please"

Sighing one last time, he see between the parents if Liam, us, before going to the door.

"Safe" he spoke without turning, holding the doorhandle and opening it without another voice " ...I want my sister safe, I don't care what you mean to her, I'll kill you if I see a scratch "

Rolling my eyes at his serious voice I saw him move out of the room leaving a silent us, abd for minute I regretted pushing Noah, maybe if he was here, I would her a courage.

"I knew after I went to New York" cutting the thick silence was my duty and I did getting full attention of Ashton.

He scoff yet again sigh and look at me, he is trying to calm, I thought.

"You could have called or come back, or email, or at the very least a message."

"I was gone to never come back, I wasn't going to call"

"So, you deprived me from my Son gor your selfish self?" He cricked an eyebrow.

The words strike through my heart breaking me yet again, I looked calm for a person who is passing through a hurricane.

"Yes, I did"

"Why?!" He look at me again with a questioning eye. "Why would you even leave?"

"Reasons" I say shortly.

"I bet they are stupid"

"Secretes are meant to be kept secrete" I shrug, "my reason is a secrete"

"I don't really care about that secrete of yours, but I want my son and make up for the lost time. And you, Kylie Rob, for once aren't going to do any matter of such, stopping me and refusing, again." He stood "full of surprising hidden face you have, but I didn't think you were ever going to be the thing you are now"

"I am and will interfere, if you ever try to take Liam from me" I swallow, staring at his back which seems to stiffen.

"Not everyone is like you Ky."

After hearing the door being shut, I breath. I think about what he say, what he meant and want to say. But his last words couldn't stop echoing in my head again and again.

He don't know your reason, it's OK of he thinks bad about you, you are not bad. My subconscious tries to sooth me, once he know what you've went through, everything's going to be alright.

I wanted to stop the tears, I wanted to act tough as usual. But, you just can't always hold on to something for so long, you bleed. Sometimes you let the go, you cry them out, sometimes you reflect your own self, your weak self.

I can't cry, don't be weak.

I hear the door opening once again as I try to control my breathing.

Arms wrap around me, the familiar cologne roaming me. I hold his hand, snuggling closer to him. His faint heartbeats drowning my ears. He groom my hair slowly, just like grandma used to do.

One tear..

Two...

I breakdown...

I cry on his arms, showing how weak I am, how fragile I am. Reflecting my own self.

"Shhh" Noah whisper "he'll understand why you did it someday, don't cry. Everything will be alright"

Everything will be alright...
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